Atem's POV
I walked out of my room without putting on any type of over wear to keep me warm. If my wife is cold and suffering then I will suffer with her, I walked passed the guards as they continue to question where I am going while asking if they need to assist me. Do I look like a child to you?! I am a grown man! I shot them a glare making them back off, once I realized that I was near the entrance of the palace I sprinted out the door as I was met by the cold of the dark night. The cold wind blew by making me shiver a bit, but I refuse to stop looking for my one and only. While running Seto's words continue to run through my head continuously.

'If you truly love her then you must do whatever it takes to bring her back'

I sigh and continue my search, but I don't want to disturb anyone's sleep so I don't shout. But I still search thoroughly through the village to see if anyone who was still out had seen her. Unfortunately, there were only a few people outside putting their things away, and when I asked about (name) they didn't know. Where she have gone if she ran out of the palace. Someone MUST HAVE saw her. Then my thoughts went to Fadill, he knew her but wouldn't he be asleep by then? I ran to the sand/mud building where Fadill lived as I saw lights inside "Fadill?" I call out as I hear some shuffling and then Fadill walks outside "oh hello there Pharaoh! Whatcha' looking for?" Fadill asked. Our eyes met as I searched his hazel eyes for any lies, I couldn't find any, I sighed and told him what happened. I explained everything and I felt the sting in my eyes.

"Woah man! Why do you test her so much if she has already proved herself. And you already know how fast she thinks, remember the man with the knife and the little boy?"

Now I felt humiliated. Fadill was right, I tested (name) too much. She's proved herself so many times.... So why did I test her? Was it because I was worried that she might be a liar? Or that she saw me walk out of my palace and made those random incidents? So many questions ran through my head and Fadill knew this as he asked "do you even know what happens in the village everyday?" I nod my head no. Fadill takes a breath and moves to the side telling me to come in as he starts to talk, "everyday at dusk everyone is already outside setting up the stands. As you may have noticed, the ones in the sun are those where the happy ones are, and the ones in the dark suffer. The ones that hide in the dark tend to steal and kill, now, we need someone to help us to stay in check. That's then you're suppose to come in, but as Pharaoh you have to stay in the palace and take care of battles and other Pharaoh stuff. Not everyone likes that idea, when someone steals you don't get a signal or anything like that. That's where (name) comes in. She's like everyone's guardian, she will protect the strong and weak, treating thing as equals. She will take care of the weak and help to support the strong. That's why she works so hard, and that's why everyone in the village know who to go to when they can't go the you.". I was so shocked. (Name) could be a better Pharaoh than I, but I still wanted to know where she is.

'Do I even deserve her?'

I asked myself. '(Name) has done so many things for me... But what have I done for her? Nothing. I've done nothing, I'm the Pharaoh, I'm suppose to protect my people at all costs. But I- but I can't even do that with all of the power I have!'

I felt the warm and salty tears stream down my face as this hole in my chest formed. I had never felt this emptiness ever since father left me. Fadill looked shocked at my face, well I would be surprised too if I saw a Pharaoh, who was in my home, crying. "Calm down Pharaoh, it'll be alright" Fadill tried to comfort me but my tears just kept on flowing. I buried my face into my hands and tried to not choke on my sobs, I knew I looked weak, but (name) made me feel weak. She was so strong and is willing to do anything. Even if it means her life. The tears wouldn't stop, my eyes burned the salt in the tears but I didn't care. I deserved this pain, I caused (name) pain. To be honest, over the time I've known her..... I've actually fallen for her. How her (h/l) (h/c) shined in Ra's sunlight. How soft her voice is. How her (e/c) eyes twinkled in even the dark shade we might find. Her soft (s/c) skin.

I just felt my heart cracking, breaking, shattering. I felt the pain of losing someone I loved yet again, but for some reason... This hurt more. I thought losing my father would be bad, but losing my lover hurts more. Ra, do you despise me. Do all of the gods despise me enough to show me the right person to love then take her away. But then, that was my fault. I asked for a queen and I got one, but it was my choices after that resulted in my loss of her.

A choke.

Another choke.

A quiet sob.

A sobbing mess.

I was sobbing my eyes out that Fadill had to sit beside me and try to comfort as I sobbed out the words.

"Please, forgive me."