Thank you so much for 1k reads I honestly don't know what to say. I honestly didn't expect this to get many reads, but thank you so much for everything! You guys mean the world to me.  Thank you for all the comments too btw, you guys are really funny (also I'll take them into account for the next few chapters)

This is mainly just fluff I'm sorry that nothing exciting really happens. I promise I'll try and get the story to move faster. Next chapter will include Yurio I swear. I'm really sorry this chapter is really really bad.

Also if you listen to the song I just want to clarify that it's meant to be about Viktor and Yuuri not Yuuri and Izo.

Thank you for reading!

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"What the fuck do you think you're doing?" Yuuri yelled at Viktor, desperate to hear that he hadn't listened in to his conversation with Phichit.

"A-ah, Yuuri!" Viktor tried greeting him, but Yuuri was having none of it.

"Why are you outside my room?" Yuuri said panicky.

"I- I came to ask if you wanted to sleep together." Viktor stuttered. "I want to get to know you better... I want to build trust in our relationship."

"Well eavesdropping isn't exactly the best way to build trust!" Yuuri yelled. "Did you hear anything?"

"N-no, I just came to ask!" Viktor tried to defend himself.

"Promise me?"

"I promise."

They were both silent. Yuuri ran a hand through his hair before rubbing his eyes. He looked at Viktor with sad and guilt filled eyes.

"L-look, I'm sorry for taking my emotions out on you." Yuuri suddenly apologised. A few tears stung Yuuri's eyes but he refused to let them spill. He felt so so guilty, because Yuuri knew what it was like to have anger taken out on you and it wasn't a very pleasant experience.

"...Yuuri, are you okay?" Viktor asked a few seconds later. Yuuri froze.

Once again, Yuuri had no idea how to respond because there was no way in hell that he was okay, but he didn't want to scare Viktor away. He was so sure that Viktor would leave him if he opened up to him because of past experiences. For some reason he felt safe when Viktor was around. He felt at home. He knew they'd only been around each other for a short period of time, but it felt like a lifetime for Yuuri. He hoped Viktor would stick around. At least until he found out what this feeling was.

"I- yeah, I- I'm just tired. I'll see you in the morning." Yuuri gave Viktor a small wave before closing the door on him. Yuuri let out a huge sigh and flopped down face first onto his bed. There were so many thoughts running through his head. He had no idea what do with them. He just wanted to sleep and forget about the world. But Yuuri knew well enough by now that he was definitely not going to sleep tonight, and prepared himself for the worst.

Meanwhile, Viktor stood outside Yuuri's room, staring blankly at the door for a few second before walking away

Something wasn't right with Yuuri.

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Viktor made his way down the hallway to Yuuri's room. He'd decided to ask him if they wanted to sleep together. Viktor desperately wanted to get to know Yuuri better because he was so intrigued by him. Yuuri was one of the most beautiful human beings Viktor had ever seen. He had such amazing potential in Viktor's eyes that he felt like he needed to coach him. Viktor was drawn to him. His skating took his breath away, and even though he'd only seen him do it a few times, he was hooked on the man. His body moved like it was making the music and he had such elegance in his touch. Viktor wanted to protect Yuuri. He would gladly give up his time for Yuuri any day, and felt like his job was to protect him.

Viktor paused for a second before knocking, but released that Yuuri seemed to be talking to someone. Viktor bent down and put his ear to the door, trying to work out who.

"-loving. Yuuri, I mean this: please break up with him. Do it for me. If not for me, then for-" Viktor cursed at himself when he moved slightly and missed a part of the conversation. He'd never heard the voice that was talking before, but whoever it was sounded really concerned. They seemed to be talking to Yuuri too. Was there something going on that he was unaware of?

"-I'm sure you know something's not right Yuuri, and it's so obvious that he's manipulated you into thinking it's love. For the love of god, get away from that man. This has been going on for 3 years. It's been hurting you physically and emotionally. Please Yuuri. Get away from him."

Viktor's eyes widened. He had no idea in hell what they were talking about, but he knew it was a serious matter. Were they talking about him? No, they couldn't have been. They mentioned something about three years, and Viktor had most definitely not known Yuuri for three years although he wish he had. There was something or someone hurting Yuuri, and Viktor's heart ached at the very thought of his Yuuri being hurt. It had only been a couple of days but Viktor hoped he'd get to know Yuuri better and help him in anyway he possibly could.

Viktor stood up and decided he was going to confront Yuuri, but got the blanket he was holding stuck under his feet and fell backwards.

"Shishitshitshitshitsh-" Viktor muttered to himself. He tried to gather himself up from the floor and run away, but before he could the door bury open to reveal a very concerned looking Yuuri.

"What the fuck do you think you're doing?" Yuuri yelled at him with wide eyes. He looked really tired. His eyes were puffy and red and his hair was sticking in every direction. Viktor found it kind of cute, but he knew this was not the time to drool over him. There was something wrong with Yuuri and Viktor wanted to try his best to support him through it.
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Over the next couple of days, Yuuri and Viktor's relationship began to blossom. They'd had a load of training sessions together in an attempt to get some of Yuuri's muscle and stamina back. Yuuri opened up to Viktor a little more. He was still petrified of properly opening up to him so decided to do it step by step. They both now knew their favourite things and interests, but Viktor wanted more. He wanted to know everything there was to know about Yuuri, all of his little habits and everything. He would be willing to wait a lifetime just to get to know him better, and that's what he did.

Yuuri was so grateful for having Viktor by his side and as his coach. Although they hadn't known each other for long, Yuuri knew that the relationship between the two was going to great. He was so thankful because Viktor respected the fact that Yuuri was anxious and uncomfortable and needed time to open up, and reassured him as many times as he needed to that he was willing to wait however long it took.

Yuuri's mood had been off for a few days. He'd tried his best to keep it hidden because he didn't want his bad mood to effect on Viktor and his skating career. Yuuri had been pondering about what Phichit had told him.

Should he break up with Izo or not?

Of course, he knew how unhappy he made him and would leave at any given second, but he couldn't help reflect on the good times they'd had. There were some moments when Yuuri was convinced that they were in love, but there were others where he feared for his life. Do it for Viktor. The four words rang clearly in his head because hell, he'd do anything for Viktor. If it meant that him and Viktor's relationship would develop if he broke up with Izo, then he surely would.

Viktor noticed that something had been bothering Yuuri, but didn't want to confront him because it might have made him uncomfortable or anxious, so he decided to keep quiet while keeping a close eye on his pupil. Viktor decided the best thing to do was to do something to get his mind off it. He would have suggested skating together but it seemed to make Yuuri more agitated.

Yuuri was desperately trying to build up the courage to break up with his boyfriend, and it was not in one way easy. So when Viktor came over to him after he'd failed to land yet another triple axel and asked him if he wanted to go out for an bit, he felt like a weight had been lifted off his chest.

After a short conversation, they opted for a small walk around the area. Yuuri wanted to show Viktor all the different attractions. They visited a number of Yuuri's favourite places, including the ninja castle, the beach, and of course, The park Yuuri went to as a little kid.

Yuuri would never had guessed it by looking at him, but Viktor was one of those people who just had to go and play in a park if he found one, which resulted in a lot of fun. Yuuri watched as the grown man ran around the playground like a fool, and climbed the climbing frame and made his way across the bridge and attempted to go down the slide, but found that his coach was actually nearly the length of the slide.

"Viktor! You can't go down there! You're going to fall!" Yuuri yelled as Viktor tucked his knees up to this chest so that he could actually fit down the slide.

"Then stand at the bottom to catch me." Viktor smiled. Yuuri's cheeks went red and he couldn't contain his smile. It was such a small thing, but Yuuri was glad that they'd started to build trust in each other. Yuuri kneeled at the bottom with his arms out, not sure how exactly he was supposed to catch him but it was the only thing he could think of doing

"Here I come!" Viktor slowly made his way down the slide before getting stuck halfway. His cheeks turned red and he stuck his bottom lip out. Meanwhile, Yuuri couldn't stop laughing. Viktor smiled at Yuuri. He was glad that he'd liften his mood, and god, his laugh was absolutely adorable.

"Okay, take two!" Viktor announced and pulled himself up to the top again, which wasn't very far. He watched as Yuuri wiped a tear away from his eye and smiled at him. Viktor's heart swelled. He was so glad that Yuuri was smiling because of him.

"3,2,1!" Viktor yelled before sliding down. He made sure to push off to gain a slight bit of speed. He slid down quickly and fell as he came off the slide.

Yuuri laughed before realising how close they actually were to each other. Viktor was sprawled diagonally across Yuuri, meaning that his head was resting on Yuuri's shoulder. Viktor coughed before getting up from where he had felt, but Yuuri seemed to be frozen to the spot. It was moments like this that Yuuri realised that Viktor was actually a living and breathing person. He didn't think he'd ever be able to process it. For years, Yuuri had idolised the man standing above him, and he was now coaching Yuuri. Yuuri didn't know what to think of the matter.

Viktor reached out his hand for Yuuri and he gladly took it. He pulled himself up and then thanked Viktor. They were both silent for a few seconds before Viktor spotted something that Yuuri prayed he wouldn't see.

The roundabout.

Viktor's eyes immediately lit up and he grabbed Yuuri's hand before dragging him over to the roundabout. Viktor immediately hopped on and began giggling.

"I haven't been on one of these in years! Can you push me please?" Viktor begged Yuuri. He just smiled back at him and began running and pushing it. Viktor's screeches and laughs sounded through the air. Yuuri began laughing too. He had one of those contagious and cute laughs which made Yuuri's heart flip.

"Yuuri! Jump on!" Viktor yelled. Yuuri was slightly confused.

"How am I supposed to do that?" Yuuri questioned while still running around.

"Just jump on!"

"I'm too scared to!" Yuuri yelled back.

"I'll hold you, you trust me, right?" Viktor yelled back. Yuuri blushed and screamed internally.

"Y-yeah." Yuuri said. He waited a few seconds before jumping on and was immediately wrapped into Viktor's arms.

"See? It wasn't that bad, was it?" Viktor asked Yuuri. Yuuri couldn't reply because he was too busy trying not to show any emotions. He was blushing beyond belief and his heart was pounding furiously. He was breathless. He didn't know if it was because he was so damn close to Viktor or from running around. Anyway, Vikor was warm, and Yuuri liked that. He smelled of mint and expensive cologne. He liked that scent. It was very viktory.

Viktor noticed Yuuri's blush and giggled to himself.

"I'm really dizzy." Yuuri announced after the roundabout had stopped. Viktor let go of Yuuri and they both got off, slightly wobbly. After a lot of laughing and falling over, they decided to leave the park and carry on the tour of the area.

After around an hour, they returned back to the rink.

Yuuri couldn't contain his smile when they returned to skating. Viktor was such a fun and caring person. Yuuri found it really cute too when he got excited about the little things, like the Ninja castle. Viktor just had to get his picture taken with it. Yuuri giggled at the memory.

"In a better mood now I see?" Viktor smiled as he skated to The side where Yuuri was drinking his water. Viktor smirked before squeezing the bottle, causing Yuuri to spit all of it out over them both. Yuuri looked shocked, as well as Viktor but they both ended up laughing really hard after.

"Yeah, yeah I am, thanks to you." Yuuri gave his coach a genuine smile, something he hadn't done in ages.

"I'm glad. Now, where were we?"

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Yuuri lay awake that night, starting at his celling. He didn't have the energy to even close his eyes. His anxiety began to rise again. Despite the great day out he'd had, all the self doubt and hatred he'd pushed to the back of his head for so long began to crawl back to him. He knew it wasn't healthy for him to keep all of his emotions to himself, but he'd never actually had anyone that he could rely on 100%. Bottling everything up was the only thing Yuuri had learned to do through the years.

Now that he'd be competing again, Yuuri was beginning to feel terrified, and it was only May. September was his first competition. He was scared shitless to put it simply. No one expected anything from him anyway, so why did he even bother carrying on skating? He didn't even have someone or something he was skating for. But then what else could he do? Skating was the only thing he was mildly good at. If you took that away, from Yuuri's point of view you'd have a worthless, pathetic human being. He needed to be good enough. He was so scared to disappoint people, and people expected too much of him, but Yuuri had nothing to offer. He was just an underlying skater with an underwhelming career that would be forgotten about in a few years time. He didn't know if the thought of that terrified him or comforted him.

He didn't want to be forgotten in the slightest. He wanted to leave his mark in figure skating history, he wanted to feel good enough, he wanted everyone to know his name. He wanted to be known as "Yuuri katsuki the ice skater" not "i-can't-remember-his-name-but-he-fucked-up-everything". He wasn't sure if it made sense to anyone else, but it made sense to him. But at the same time, the thought of that comforted him. If he messed up, nobody would remember him and he could just fade away and be forgotten about. After all, it was a fitting end for such an underwhelming skater.

He began to cry. Tears streamed down his face. He cupped his face in his hands and sobbed. He wasn't sure about anything anymore. He'd tried so hard to be what everyone expected, but he couldn't no matter hard he tried. He desperately wanted to be recognised, but he knew he would never be. He didn't know if he had the energy and mental strength to carry on his career. The thought of disappointing his family and Viktor made him so so anxious. He didn't know what to do. He really didn't.

He began to calm down a good ten minutes later. He was exhausted. He just wanted to sleep. He was now on his 4th sleepless night. He'd probably had around 3 hours of proper rest over the 4 days. He was to anxious. About his career. About his future. About being forgotten. About Viktor. About Izo. The list went on and on.

Yuuri turned onto his side. He opened his draw and grabbed the bottle of pills he'd been hiding there for god knows how long. After seeing a doctor a few months ago, and after he'd been diagnosed, he'd been prescribed pills to help with his anxiety. They did fuck all though. If anything, they made him feel worse about himself because he'd have to accept that there was something wrong with him. He'd only taken them for around a month an a half before stopping because they didn't help him in any shape or form. He threw them across the room, and they spilled everywhere. He turned back onto his other side and tried to fall asleep.

Fortunately, luck was on his side. He felt asleep with great difficulty, but at least he was getting some rest. Not for long though. He was Rudely awaken at around 2am by his phone ringing. Yuuri cursed at whoever it was before picking his phone up.

Izo Suoh❤️

His heart skipped a beat out of fear. He hadn't been in touch with his since what happened. He was terrified of him

"Fuck off." Yuuri muttered before pressing the answer button.

"W-What do you want?" Yuuri whispered.

"Yuuri. We need to talk."

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Started writing: 16th of November
Finished writing: 18th of November
Published: 18th of November
Words: 3155

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