A/N:  A list of firsts in your relationship with each member of ATEEZ.

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🌸 Park Seonghwa 🌸
1. First Date
For your first date, you and Seonghwa went to dinner at a nice restaurant. After dinner, he took you to get ice cream across the street from the restaurant.

2. First Kiss
Seonghwa had walked you to the door of your house after your first date.

"I had a lot of fun, Y/N. Did you have fun?"

You nodded with a smile. "I had a lot of fun, Hwa. Thank you for an amazing first date."

"You're very welcome," he said softly. Seonghwa couldn't help but admire you — you were so beautiful.

You don't remember who leaned in first, but all you could remember was the feeling of the boy's lips on yours. It was romantic, exciting, and very enjoyable.

After pulling away, you both wore big smiles. For now, there was just you two in your own little world.

Seonghwa pressed a kiss to your head and gave you a hug. "I'll text you later when I get home."

"Drive safe, Hwa. Watch out for idiots on the road," you told him.

Seonghwa chuckled. "I promise I'll be careful, Y/N."

After Seonghwa got in his car and began driving off, you headed inside with a giddy smile. As promised, the boy texted you once he got to his house.

The both of you went to bed that night with excited smiles. A successful first date and first kiss in one night? So far, it was the best day of your lives.

3. First I Love You
It just slipped out, and it was the best slip up ever.

You and Seonghwa were having a coffee date at a café, just having fun and being together. You guys didn't get a lot of days like this, so you seized every opportunity to make the most out of each and every one.

You'd been rambling about something, and Seonghwa found himself paying less attention to the conversation, and more attention to you. He found himself just smiling at you sweetly.

You finished your ramble to see the smile on your boyfriend's face. "Whatcha thinking about, Hwa?"

That's when he let it slip. "I love you."

Your brain stopped functioning properly for 2.5 seconds. It was the first time either one of you had said it. You let a smile play on your lips.

"I love you too."

4. First Time
• Asks you if you're sure that this is what you really want
• Admires your body
• Admires your confidence to give yourself fully to him
• He asks you for permission to do something to make you feel good
• Is very gentle with you
• Does everything he can to make you feel good and comfortable with him

☀️ Kim Hongjoong ☀️
1. First Date
Hongjoong took you to a cute café for your first date, where you two had coffee and ate danishes together.

2. First Kiss
It happened during your third date. You and Hongjoong were cuddled on the couch, watching a movie. The sweet moment was interrupted by the boys walking in the house.

Hongjoong groaned softly, which made you laugh. He loved his friends, he really did, but this was the worst possible time for them to interrupt your date.

To make sure that they'd get the hint to leave you two alone, you grabbed Hongjoong by his shirt collar and smashed his lips against yours in a mind-blowing kiss. Hongjoong — who wasn't expecting that to happen — kissed back after a second of shock.

You retracted your lips from Hongjoong's, smiling brightly and blushing heavily. "You're really good at kissing."

Hongjoong's cheeks were bright pink, and a smile was on his lips. "T-Thank you. You are, too. Could we um... could we do that again?"

You nodded and the leader of ATEEZ lit up. This time, he kissed you, and it was just as electric as the first kiss.

You two shared your first of many kisses that day.

3. First I Love You
It was right before ATEEZ's first concert.

You were backstage with the boys, watching them run around to do some last-minute adjustments before having to go out onstage. You knew that this was a big night for them, and you were so proud of how far they've come.

Hongjoong walked up to you, a little nervous to go out onstage. "Hey. Wish me luck; we're about to go perform."

You smiled and pecked his lips, deciding to say three important words for the first time. "I love you."

"I love you too," Hongjoong replied with an idiotic smile before going to take his place onstage.

The entire time they performed, Hongjoong replayed your words in his head over and over again. You loved him. You told him you loved him.

You loved him and he loved you. That's enough to make him smile giddily.

4. First Time
• Takes his time to make sure you feel loved and taken care of
• Leaves hickeys on your neck and shoulders
• Places kisses all over your body
• Whispers sweet things in your ear
• Smiles when he hears you moan
• Is slow with you so he doesn't hurt you
• Asks you if you're okay with every new thing he does to you

✨ Jeong Yunho ✨
1. First Date
Yunho wanted your first date to be special, so he — with help from the others — prepared a picnic for you and him to share. You two had a picnic in the park for your first date.

2. First Kiss
It'd been a few weeks since your fourth date, and you didn't know where you stood with Yunho dating-wise. You wanted to be with him, but you were unsure if he wanted to be with you.

You'd come over to the house to hang out after Jongho begged you to. It's not like he had to beg very much — you would've come over even if he hadn't.

You had been spending a lot of time with Mingi, who was just being friendly. Yunho saw how close you were with the rapper, and the green-eyed monster started to make an appearance. You weren't his girlfriend, but Yunho wanted you to be; he was just a little afraid to ask you.

The dancer decided enough was enough when Mingi put his hand on your back when he made you laugh at a joke. He walked briskly to you both, and pulled you out of your seat.

Before you had time to ask him what he was doing, Yunho held you close to his body. "She's my girlfriend," he told Mingi. Yunho then brought you in for a kiss. It was a little rough, but full of passion and want. You kissed back, your heart melting into a puddle once the kiss was over.

You gave Yunho a smile after he pulled away. "So I'm your girlfriend, huh? You're hot when you're jealous."

Yunho smiled as he held you close. "I'm only jealous when it comes to my hot girlfriend."

3. First I Love You
It was impulsive, but also sweet.

You were cuddled with Yunho on the couch, your head in his lap while watching something on TV. You felt relaxed when his hands started playing with your hair. It was in that moment that Yunho realized he could be doing absolutely anything and if it was with you, he would be happy.

"I love you." He said softly.

You felt his hands stop moving, but they were still in your hair. You looked up at him with a loving smile, your eyes filled with immense love that you had for Yunho. It was the first time he'd ever said that to you, and you knew he meant every word.

"I love you too," you told him with so much sincerity in each word you spoke.

Yunho smiled and sat you up, kissing you once he had the chance to. You kissed back, so caught up in this moment with him.

"How I got so lucky to have a girl like you who loves me, I'll never understand."

You giggled and ran a hand through his hair. "I'm the one who's lucky enough to have found a boy who loves me."

4. First Time
• Asks you for consent when he does anything
• Takes time to tell you that he finds you — not just your body, but all of you — incredibly sexy and beautiful
• He's very slow and gentle with you so he doesn't hurt you
• Makes sure you're okay and that he didn't hurt you on accident
• Just makes the entire experience memorable for you

🌙 Kang Yeosang 🌙
1. First Date
Yeosang didn't really know much about planning dates, so he invited you over to play some board games as your first date. It was unconventional, but you loved it.

2. First Kiss
Your first kiss with Yeosang was impulsive and romantic.

A couple of ATEEZ fans had come up to you two in the middle of your sightseeing date, asking kindly for pictures with Yeosang. Being a kindhearted guy, he was more than happy to take pictures with fans. His big heart was something you greatly admired about him.

After taking some pictures with the fans, Yeosang got an idea. "Would you guys mind taking pictures of me and Y/N?" He asked the girls. They were more than willing to take some pictures of you both.

Yeosang smiled as he walked to you. "I asked them to take some pictures of us. Let's do some cute poses."

So, you did do some cute poses. Some included you on his back, him holding you bridal style, and even you kissing his cheek.

Yeosang decided to return the favor and kiss your cheek, but you made a last-minute decision and turned your head towards him.

Your lips collided together in your first ever kiss together.

Yeosang shook off the initial shock and smiled as he kissed you in return, wrapping his arms around your waist. Your hands found their way to his cheeks, where they rested during the kiss. Once you two pulled away for air, there was a smile on both of your faces.

After one of the fans handed his phone back to him, Yeosang smiled as he viewed the last picture they'd taken. The kiss had been captured perfectly, and it was about to become his new home screen on his phone.

When the girls left, Yeosang smiled in your direction. "You know... I think we should do that again. Don't you think?"

You could only nod, knowing that words were impossible for you to make at the moment. The moment your lips connected for a second time, you couldn't help but smile more and more.

"I love kissing you — you give the best kisses, Sang."

3. First I Love You
"Y/N, it's not a big deal!"

You were currently in the middle of an argument with Yeosang about what happened during a lunch date you had that afternoon.

The waitress you guys were handed to kept flirting with Yeosang, which left a bitter taste in your mouth. Despite your obvious attempts to make sure she knew that he was taken, she continued to flirt with your boyfriend. The experience put you in a bad mood after you left, and now you were arguing with Yeosang about it.

"It is a big deal, Sang! She was throwing herself at you! Not to mention, she was flirting with you in front of me. How am I supposed to feel about that, huh?"

Yeosang threw his hands up in the air. "I don't understand why you got so jealous! Make me understand, Y/N!"

"I love you, okay? I got that jealous because I love you, Yeosang!" You admitted. Your face softened as you processed what you said. "I love you."

Yeosang's demeanor did a complete 180. A smile replaced the frustrated look that was there only minutes ago. His eyes held love instead of annoyance and irritation.

He walked to you, bringing you in for a rough yet sweet kiss. He pulled away after a minute, smirking at your dazed look.

"I love you more, Muffin."

4. First Time
• Compliments every part of your body that he touches
• Showers you with kisses after he does something that makes you feel good
• Goes slow so you're comfortable
• But he'll go faster if you ask him
• Makes sure that you're okay
• Leaves hickeys all over your neck
• Smiles when he makes you moan
• Tells you that he loves you every chance he gets

🍁 Choi San 🍁
1. First Date
San took you for a walk on the beach as your first date. He wanted the date to be simple and romantic, so why not take you to the beach?

2. First Kiss
San missed you so much. He and the others had just finished a concert in the United States, and he was dying to have you back in his arms. He couldn't sleep at all during the flight home, too excited at the thought of reuniting with you after weeks of being gone.

He wasn't expecting you to meet him at the airport, but you did. He saw you holding up balloons and a stuffed bear, waiting to welcome him home and congratulate him.

San couldn't control his reaction to seeing you at the airport. He ran up to you, picked you up and spun you around, holding you so close you could hardly breathe.

Without thinking, he dipped you slightly and kissed you deeply. San only pulled back when the other guys began whistling and hollering behind you two. The cheers made you blush heavily.

"Yeah! Get some, Y/N!" Mingi cheered.

"Stop. Leave them alone." Seonghwa chided. He began shooing the others away, allowing you and San to enjoy your moment without interruptions.

Both you and San chuckled at what happened, but never regretting a single moment.

3. First I Love You
San said it first, which took you by surprise.

You two were making dinner, and he was being his obnoxious, lovable self. San began humming while he was cooking, which turned into full on singing. When San finished cooking, you tapped his shoulder, extending your hand towards him.

"Dance with me, Sannie?"

How could he say no?

When he took your hand, he began singing "Songbird" by Fleetwood Mac. You smiled as San would twirl you around the kitchen, his eyes shining brightly. When he started singing the chorus of the song, you could tell that he was singing it directly to you.

"And I love you, I love you, I love you like never before..."

Your eyes widened at what he sang and you covered your mouth in happiness and shock. San had stopped singing and looked at you, his throat now going dry. He'd been wanting to say it for a while now, and he was unsure if you understood what he'd tried to say through the song.

"I-I love you, Y/N."

Your hands fell to your sides, showing off a happy smile. You tugged at San's shirt, your lips meeting his in a fiery kiss. You pulled away to see San was dazed, but still smiling, which made you smile too.

"I love you too, Sanshine."

4. First Time
• Like Seonghwa, he wants to make sure that this is what you want
• Tells you to let him know if you don't like something or if you want to stop at any time
• Praises you for your courage to go all the way with him
• Promises to take care of you the entire time
• Leaves a trail of hickeys along your collarbone
• Makes mental notes of what he does that makes you moan
• Pleasures you and makes you feel good the entire time
• Tells you not to worry about pleasuring him because he'd rather wait to do that stuff another time when you're more comfortable
• Takes a warm bath with you afterwards

🎤 Song Mingi 🎤
1. First Date
Mingi opted for a more cliché first date, so he took you to see a movie. But you made him promise that you'd both see a movie that you both liked. He promised... and then paid for the snacks despite your protests.

2. First Kiss
It was your first time spending Christmas with ATEEZ.

This year was the first year you'd spend Christmas without your family, and would be the first Christmas spent with your boyfriend and his band mates.

With the knowledge that this was your first Christmas without your family, Mingi strived to make this year one of the best Christmases for you.

Getting help from the others, the house was decorated for the holiday season. The tree was beautiful, and everything looked like it came straight out of a Hallmark movie.

You walked through the door after a long day of classes. You were ready to relax and spend some time with Mingi. You walked into the main room to see the boys' hard yet beautiful work. You were rendered speechless by everything.

You were so taken with everything that you almost didn't see Mingi walking towards you. When you turned around, you saw his smiling face, which made you smile.

"Do you like it, Y/N? I asked the guys to help me do this for you. I know you're not going to spend Christmas with your family this year, so I wanted to make sure you'd have the best Christmas with us this year."

You said nothing before pulling Mingi close to you by his hand. Your hands cupped his face as you stood on your tippy toes, kissing him softly.

The kiss was very romantic — something that sounded like it had come out of a romance novel. Mingi kissed you back, his hands also cupping your face.

After a few seconds, you both had to pull away so you could breathe. You were quiet for a second before finding your voice.

"You are the best boyfriend in the world, Song Mingi."

3. First I Love You
The first time saying those three words was bittersweet for Mingi and for you, as well.

It was time for ATEEZ's first tour, which meant you'd be left alone for a few weeks without the group of boys... and that meant not being able to see Mingi for a few weeks. But being able to see fans and perform, it was his dream. So you were at peace with it all.

But Mingi was surprisingly not dealing with you going to be so far away from him all too well. He knew he was going to miss you too much, and that he was going to worry about you 24/7.

You rode with Mingi and the others to the airport, going to see them off before they left for the United States, which was their first leg of the tour. Mingi was uncharacteristically quiet, knowing that he might start crying if he started speaking.

In the boarding area, you sat with Mingi and held his hand. You knew he was taking this a lot harder than you were, so you had to be strong for him.

"Min... I'm gonna be fine, I promise." You told him softly. "As far as I'm concerned, we'll FaceTime when we both have time, and text each other constantly."

Mingi ran a hand over his face, tears in his eyes. "I'm going to miss you," his voice cracked with each word.

"I'm going to miss you, too. I'm going to miss all of you," you said softly.

The lady over the intercom stated that the plane would be taking off soon, and that passengers needed to start boarding the plane.

You gave each boy a hug and a goodbye, watching them walk away toward the plane. Turning to Mingi, you gave him a hug and a kiss, wanting him to not be as sad when he got on the plane. After what seemed like not enough time for a goodbye kiss, Mingi looked into your eyes and said these words:

"I love you."

You gave him a smile, though it was a bittersweet one. "I love you too, babe. Now go. You don't want to miss your flight. And call me when you guys land; I don't care what time of day or night it is."

Mingi nodded and gave you a kiss on your cheek before sadly walking away from you and toward the plane, where the boys were waiting for him.

Now, he just had to count down the days until they could come home and he would be with you again. But he got on the plane knowing that he loved you and that you loved him back.

Just knowing that made the plane ride a little bit easier for Mingi.

4. First Time
• Makes the experience special for you
• Whispers 'I love you' and 'you're so beautiful' in your ear
• He leaves hickeys on your neck and your shoulders
• Leaves kisses all over your body
• Goes slow so he doesn't hurt you
• Tells you that he will always make sure you're comfortable with him when you're being intimate together

💎 Jung Wooyoung 💎
1. First Date
Wooyoung took you to the local arcade for your first date. You two played games, ate pizza, and just had a good time together.

2. First Kiss
Wooyoung planned this down to the very last second.

Tonight was New Year's Eve, and he was determined to kiss you at midnight, when the new year would begin.

You were currently with Wooyoung and the others, who were throwing a New Year's party. The only people invited to the party were you and themselves.

Through the night, you were having fun with your boyfriend and his friends. You were so honored to be a part of their little family, and you loved the others like they were your brothers.

Wooyoung was excited but nervous when he saw the time. 11:59 pm. It was now or never.

You were currently in the kitchen, fixing yourself a cup of water. You looked up to see Wooyoung, who looked a little nervous. "Woo? You okay?"

Wooyoung gave you a smile, despite the nerves. "I'm fine, Y/N. I'm just really excited for the new year."

"I am, too. The start of a new year is always exciting," you agreed.

Wooyoung glanced at the clock on the wall.

20 seconds...

"Y/N, I want to talk to you about something. It's nothing bad."

You smiled at your boyfriend. "You can talk to me about anything, Woo."

15 seconds...

Wooyoung exhaled deeply and took your hands in his. "There's something I've wanted to do for a while now, and tonight is the perfect night to do this."

10 seconds...

You wore a confused look. "To do what?"

5...

Your question went unanswered by Wooyoung. Instead, his hands cupped your face, and he looked lovingly into your eyes.

4...

He licked his lips out of nervousness, knowing that this was the moment he'd been waiting for all day long.

3...

Wooyoung slowly began leaning in, his eyes closing as he got closer to your face.

2...

1...

"HAPPY NEW YEAR!" Shouted 7 voices from the main room.

By the time the boys started shouting, you and Wooyoung were engaged in your first kiss. It was slow, passionate, and above all... romantic.

After pulling away, you had a shy smile on your face. "So that's what you wanted to do tonight. You wanted to kiss me at midnight on New Year's."

Wooyoung held the biggest smile. "I wanted our first New Year's together to start off right."

"It started off perfectly," you told him. "Happy New Year, Woo."

"Happy New Year, Boo."

3. First I Love You
You ever have one of those nights where you can't get to sleep, no matter how hard you try?

This was one of those nights.

You and Wooyoung laid in bed, staring at the ceiling because neither one of you could sleep. Someone's car alarm was going off at the ungodly hour of 2:00 am. You looked at each other, smiling and then talking about little things for a while.

Wooyoung looked at you for a moment and smiled. You looked at him, and also smiled.

"I love you," you both admitted tiredly. This caused you both to laugh very quietly and cuddle closer to each other, finally going to sleep after a few minutes of comfortable silence.

You both fell asleep with smiles on your faces that night, knowing that you both felt the same way about each other.

4. First Time
• Compliments every part of your body that you give him access to
• Peppers your face in kisses to make you feel more comfortable
• Hickeys are left along your shoulders and collarbone
• Tells you that he's not going to judge you whatsoever
• Smiles when he hears you moan for the first time
• Starts out slow so you're comfortable
• Gets a little faster when you ask him to
• Carries you to the shower afterwards
• He tells you how much he loves you

🐚 Choi Jongho 🐚
1. First Date
With Jongho's inexperience with dating, he went to his hyungs for advice on first date ideas. After listening to what everyone had to say and doing some hard thinking, Jongho decided to take you bowling. It was fun, easy, and made you both smile.

2. First Kiss
Jongho had been trying to get you spend time with him. You were busy doing a project for school, when you were supposed to be cuddled up to him and just bask in his love and affection. He tried everything he could think of to get you to turn off the computer, but to no avail.

Jongho wasn't about to give up, though. He sat down next to you as you tried to finish the project on your computer.

"Baby... " He whined as he latched onto your arm, trying to pull you away from the computer once again.

"Babe, just give me a few more minutes and I promise I'll spend the with you, okay?" You told him.

He huffed and pouted. "Fine. But may I have a kiss, please?"

You looked as he pointed to his cheek and leaned his face in so you could kiss it. Figuring it was the least you could do, you went to kiss his cheek.

But at the last second, Jongho turned his head, effectively making you peck his lips instead, catching you off guard.

Jongho smirked triumphantly and stood up.

"If you want more of that, I suggest you finish faster."

You decided to abandon your project, saving it for tomorrow. You stood up and sat Jongho back on the couch, wanting to properly kiss him a few more times, which he was not going to object to.

What a way to end up having your first kiss.

3. First I Love You
It felt like it was the right time to say it.

Jongho was doing his vocal exercises diligently and loudly... not that it bothered you. If there was one thing you could listen to over and over, it was his beautiful voice.

You watched him from your spot on the couch as he ran over the vocal exercises, getting frustrated when he couldn't hit the high notes. Jongho was a bit of a perfectionist, and he wanted to be able to hit every note that he possibly could.

You moved to the kitchen, making him some lemon tea with honey. Knowing him, he was about to wreck his throat. You walked back into the main room, and set it down next to him. He looked up at you with a confused look.

"Your throat's going to start hurting." You reminded him.

Jongho gave you a quiet 'thank you,' and began to drink the tea gratefully.

As you turned to walk away, you got pulled into his lap.

"Did I sound okay?" He asked, burying his face into your neck.

"Jong, you always sound amazing," you answered. Your fingers worked their way through his hair as his ears turned red.

"You compliment me too much." He stated, and you couldn't help but admire how humble he was.

"No I don't — I compliment you because you deserve it." You told him honestly.

Jongho looked at you with a smile, feeling thankful that he'd found someone like you to be a part of his life.

"I love you, gorgeous."

That threw you off, but in a good way. You hadn't expected him to say that... but you were glad he did. You had to force yourself out of your initial shock so you could talk to him.

"I love you, too." You said and kissed his temple.

Jongho smiled as he cuddled you closer, his heart beating in his ears and his head was spinning with happiness.

He loved you and you loved him.

How could he not feel like he was on Cloud 9 after hearing you say that you loved him back?

4. First Time
• Makes the whole thing special for you
• Takes his time to appreciate every part of you — both physically and mentally
• Commends you on your decision to want to go this far with him
• Kisses all over your face and body gently
• Asks you if you're okay every 10 minutes
• He's gentle and slow so he doesn't hurt you in any way
• Tells you how much he loves you every opportunity he has
• Makes sure you're comfortable even afterwards
• He tells you he's proud of you for making such a big decision and trusting him to make it worthwhile for you

~ ~ | ATEEZ | ~ ~

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Published: 4/19/2021