kudoclasm (n)
when lifelong dreams are brought down to earth

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If you are unsure,
what the future holds.
me too.
I always hoped for the day everything would become clear.
and each day I woke and the divine plan -
every time the great purpose eluded me.
I always felt more lost.

I always felt unsure.
of who I was, or if the choices I made took me to the right place.
most days I longed for a sign.
something horoscopes
and preachers couldn't really show me.
I had to have faith,
in myself, and a grand plan I couldn't even see.

the moment I let go it happened.

a great kudoclasm,
like the heavens opened and all my dreams ascended in all their long awaited glory.
I'll tell you what it feels like...
it's scary and exciting.
and you're unsure more than ever if the decision you'll make is right.
when all your dreams are so close you can taste it,
you'll feel afraid.
and you'll wonder if you deserve it.

firstly I want to tell you that you do.

when your kudoclasm happens,
enjoy it.
be kind and trust in the grand plan you cannot see.
because it works.
after all...
it worked for me.