I’ve wasted all my pennies on your thoughts,
Can’t pay the price for peace of mind,
Sit back and wait as my brain rots.
Was there ever anything for me to find?

Spent too much time looking out for you
That I missed the rise of every first star
Waited so long for you to finally come to
That I never realized I had fallen so far.

Though you’ve left, I still play your pointless game
Trapped and idle as your endless pawn.
With a sardonic wave, "It’s simply a shame-
I would’ve liked to have seen the dawn.”

But with no pennies or stars to place my dreams,
No safety-net under my wings,
I come apart at the seams,
And fail to grasp the falling strings. 

And the worst of it I know-
You’d give me up to save yourself.
And though you won’t let it show,
I’m just another prize on the shelf.

So tell me- how many more must fall?
How many more must shatter their souls?
How many more will call
Desperately for you to fill their blackholes?

When will you break the chain?
Let them go to face the sun?
Don’t you know the lion’s slain?
Why won’t you let me move on?

How do I begin to wish away
All the nightmares that come at day?
How do I find the words to say
To make this darkness feel okay?

I’ve lost myself to the muddle of daybreak
I fear I won't recognize my shadow.
Now it all seems so faded and fake-
How did I ever get so shallow?

I took my life and threw it away
In the hopes of something bigger.
But now, all the colors turn to gray
And I wish for something simpler.