~ Lovelorn: bereft of love or forsaken by one's lover ~

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Dear You,

Time has passed, slowly but surely. The gap between us has slowly but surely become unmeasurable, each day increasing the void. I want to reach out to fill in that deep abyss between us but every time I try, the mountain seems to loom one me like a never-ending boulder of cowardice and regret.

Whenever I think of you, I think of what could have been what future and possibilities that might have awaited us. How you and I could have taken on the world for each other, with each other. Your one-touch was enough to give me purpose, give me strength. For that time, I felt like maybe, just maybe, the universe did revolve around you and me. You were the sun, beautiful, majestic in all your shining glory and I, the Earth, desperately clinging on to you, always so close, yet so far. If I came too close, I would crash and burn, yet helplessly, I was drawn to you, a moth to a flame. Now I watch from a distance as you carry on with your future and I remain hungover on the past, these fleeting moments to be stretched on for eternity, playing like a broken record, inscribed in my brain but to you all they were one of many, in the back of your mind, irrelevant and insignificant.

I was that foolish and if you were to give me another chance, I would be foolish again. Sense and sensibilities do not apply to you and me. If you had so much as had thought, I would have torn out my beating heart and served it to you on still bloody on a platter just to see you bestow a smile.

I wonder if you ever knew how much, how deeply I loved, no love you. I think you did. I think you revelled in it. You loved to see me suffer and writhe around in agony whilst all I wanted was to see you. You were like a drug to me, an intoxicating addiction, one that I couldn't retire from. I suffer from your withdrawal, losing my grip on sanity.

Does it please you to see the state that I am in now? Do you gain pleasure from my complete and utter dependency on you? You deceived me with your beauty and charm, made me dance along, a puppet on a string. My heart is locked in a chest that only you have the key for. And you have corroded the key so only you can possess me. I crave to emerge from these shackling shadows and be freed of this torment but could I ever let myself?

Alas, if you want me to eternally suffer, so be it. I will suffer from my grave, tossing and turning as you make love to another but I will hold on to that one thing. You may control my mind, sanity and desires but you will never truly have me. Not when I have passed.

Sincerely no longer yours,

Me

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This is a letter which I essentially wrote in under fifteen minutes. The words flowed from my pen for this and I would like to think it's quite an emotive piece of work.

This is for the competition by Wattwitches, where you write a letter to someone you love. 

You can interpret this as you wish, make up your own context. Feel free to tell me what you feel about this.

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