Dear Cowboy,

Hi. It's Aspen. I haven't seen you in a while, have I? Well, I'm sorry, but you might not ever see me again. I'll explain why after I give you this little message:

I have decided that you were the best thing to ever happen to me. Not because I loved you with all my heart but because you made me truly happy. I'd like to thank you for always being there, I know I annoyed the hell out of you, I offended you a lot and I yelled at you a lot but, you never yelled back, hurt me or blamed me. You always seemed to understand or at least, try to understand. This is a long ass message, I said 'little,' I lied, I'm sorry.

I love you. I loved you. I will always love you.
I'm sorry.
By the time you're reading this; I will be gone. No, not from Avalon but from the world. I know I disappointed you but I couldn't be happy. It took so much effort everyday to get out of bed and go through life. I couldn't do it anymore, everything just seems pointless.

I know I'm not good enough for you, I know you could never love me how I love you, I know I hurt you by doing this.
I know.

If I tried to live on, I'd be miserable. I would be an empty shell of a human being and I don't want to be that, always on autopilot. I'd be there but I wouldn't ever be there.
It sounds miserable.
I don't need to be more miserable.

So... I'm going.

𝚒'𝚖 s̸o̸r̸r̸y̸ 𝚒 d̸i̸s̸a̸p̸p̸o̸i̸n̸t̸e̸d̸ 𝚢𝚘𝚞.

Love,

Casanova