i held her in my sleep, i held her in my dreams. i held her through the bad times, and i continue to hold her through the good times. it was around 6:35AM when her mother walked in. she gave me a sad smile, then exhaled a breath as she walked over to savannah and pressed a kiss on top of her forehead. she always did that; as if her daughter could forget about the madness so quickly.

she couldn't. sometimes when she sleeps, she ends up sitting from her lain position and bursts into tears. it was horrible to see, but i never left her.

and that's because i'm in love with her.

the funny thing is, i can't remember when i started to fall. she was just always there, and i just so happened to be by her side.

she stirred in her sleep, furrowing her eyebrows as she moved her body to face mine. her face was nuzzled in my chest; an audible sigh escapes her nostrils. i could only lie next to her and hold her, humming a soft melody.

''i love you.''

she'll never know those three words that i whisper to her every night. maybe it's because i'm terrified for her to walk out on me. i don't do well on my own, and the fact savannah and i share that same consequence makes it more of a reason to fall for her.

i sat at the edge of the bed, my back against the wall. i watched as the sun reflected its beam on her blonde hair. the clouds were painted in a fluorescent masterpiece, as they always were each morning.

i looked at the clock and sighed. i had to get home before my parents found out i had been gone all night.

crawling over to the window, i looked back and gave savannah a kiss on the forehead; whispering for her to have sweet dreams.

with that, i opened the window quietly and let my body slip out into the cool november morning.

pulling my gray and blue letterman close to my thin frame, i began to walk home. though on the inside, i felt i could have stayed longer, maybe even make that long overdue confession to her.

but, i would have to wait for another time---at least until i could muster up the courage to tell her.

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