Some of my close friends would notice I have an ego. I am aware that it can be excessive at times, so the question of this chapter is only natural; however, it is one that is not asked.

I have an ego because of the constant reminders of my flaws and failures I receive from my parents and on occasion my siblings as well. My ego is one of the few things that prevented me, yes myself, from committing suicide. Why do you ask? I at a time cared little for my own life but would not kill myself. That said I sometimes put myself into situations that made my own life at risk because of the unwillingness to commit suicide and the lack of care for my life. My ego is large to overpower the negative things I hear about myself; though it can serve that purpose well it also can lead me to be prideful.

Here is a related poem I wrote:

https://www.wattpad.com/886719780-the-words-i-was-too-afraid-to-tell-her-the-ego