Well anonymous...the reason why I don't want to see or talk to my alternative is because I don't want her to go through what I been through and get her influence from me. I been through worst time because I was betrayed by my so called friends, been feeling wrecked and abandoned, and lastly becoming like my mother. I am always in my mother mother shadow as she was in her demonic form. I felt like if I knew the pain that she been through and her pain was like mine in my life.

"Ȃ̪̱͍̱̗̳͓ͧ̅́͌ͣ̏ͯ̎̕͝ḿ̆́҉͉͚͈̰̻̺̤ ̮̲͆̄͒̔̀͢͡Ȋ̴̢͎̙̆ͅ ͓̘͚̃͜b̮̙̩̮̘̮̗̞ͪ̑̌ͥ̿̃r̛̙͑͗ͤͨͫͬ͠o̖͍͖̜̜̝̐ͨ̉̔̑̅̃͢ḵ̵̛̟̩̩̰̲̫̤̦̏̇̇̆̾̿̒̈͞eͨ̃ͯ͏̴̨̮̩̰̱̫̥n̸̛͓ͦ͐̒͌ͣ̀?͇̘̱̝̹͊̀̒̒͆̏ͤ͟͞ ̣̱͚̰̎͐̌̉̃̇ͪ̃͗́"

Also creator been very busy so sorry for demon punch not publishing the chapter! She will publish it when she can okay!