A/N: I have decided to start writing this one shot series and starting with this because we all need it in this tough times! 

I hope this helps us all !!

Like always ( Those who have following my story 'A New Journey' already know this. This is for new readers)

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Ashwin's mind voice is Seri....

and " Sivaangi..." = Ashwin talking.

Sivaangi's mind voice is A and "Ashwineyyyyy " = Sk talking
On with story

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20th June, 2021 

Ashwin POV

I posted one of the  pictures taken in the  photoshoot in my story along with a song and logged off from instagram.

Then I went to twitter through my fake account and started going throught the Ashaangi Hashtag.

Yes..I have a second account...infact both my Rowdy and I have a fake  instagram and twitter accounts. It looks like any other ashaangians page who are not doing edits, memes or fanfictions...but are simply resharing the posts of other main fanpage accounts like NMP, Thushi, Sahana, Seetha, Amy, Anusha, Smri etc.

I was going throught the hashtag laughing and enjoying their tweets and their 'decoding'

Most of the time their decoding were spot on while sometimes it was too funny. We didn't mind their edits. Infact we loved their edits. We really loved the fact that they didn't use any morphings or something which was not natural. All of their edits were within limits.

Infact..ivanaloda edits paathutu thaan naan realize pannen that Naan ennoda emotions and reactions ah evolo control pannalum...ivanga correctah kandupudu ranga with their slomos and zoom in...

I still remember  Sivaangi ma showed one of the edits right after My award wining video was uploaded by Behindwoods.

*Flashback*

I was playing a game on my phone when Sivaangi came and sat beside me, making me look up at her

"Ashwineyyy"

"Sollu ma ..enna achu?"

"Ashwineyyy...inga paaren..Thushi Akka orr body language analysis pannir kanga!"

I looked at her confused,
"Body language analysis ah? Yaara vechi?"

She laughed,
"ungala vechi Ashwineyy adhun nethu vandha BW video vechi!
Mani ka enna stage ku kuputanga la..appothulendhu naan stage exit pandra varikum clip ah nalla ungala expose pannitanga!!"

Aiyayooo...

She took one look at my face and started laughing more loudly clapping her hands..

I smiled watching her laughing at my expense and said,
"oui Rowdy, sirikadha ma...andha video va kaatu naanun paakuren.."

She then showed me the video.
Thushi had not only made a video but also had made a  detailed analysis in the caption describing frame by frame and she even attached a link for the article.

I blused as I was watching the video.

I looked at Sivaangi, she raised an eyebrow with a teasing smile,
"Ippidi mattikitingale..."

I quickly pulled her into my lap and hugged her closely while she curled in my embrace with her face  against my heart.

I whispered in her ears using my low tone,
"idhula enna thappu irruku...naan ennoda aala thaane sight adikiren...and correct ah thaana decode pannirkanga.."

She giggled and said,
"Ennaku indha body language matter munadiye theriyama poiduchu Ashwineyy..."

"Therinjindha...Madam enna pannirpinga"

"Therinjirindha...Neenga firstu ungaloda feelings ah  confess panni propose pannirka mattinga...naan yeppayo pannirpen!"

"Adengapa.."

We laughed and cuddled together.
After few minutes she asked,
"Ashwineyy ennaku orru doubtu.."

I laughed,
"vonnaku enneku thaan doubt illa ma irrundhukudhu...Sollu"

"What if i I had told you my feelings first? That you were no longer my crush...that I was in love with you nu..? Appo nee eppidi react pannirpinga?"

I smiled and said,
"Adhuvum nalla thaan irrundhurkum.."

"Ashwineyy urunga sollu ma.."

I pulled her closer to me,
"Rowdy.. I had fallen in love with you long before I told you my feelings...I waited until Annabelle Ep to tell you because of two main reasons-
One, I wanted you to realize your feelings and was willing to wait for it and second is, I wanted our bond and mutual understanding to grow before we started our relationship.."

She looked at me and said,
"Neenga ennakaga ivolo yosikiringa..yevolo pannuringa..I'm very lucky to have you in my life forever Ashwineyy"

I hugged her,
"Sivaangi Ma, Nee kattra anbu ku munadi..Naan katradhu verum 10% thann ma..and vonnaku pannama verra yaarku panna porren sollu.."

I kissed her forehead and we cuddled together.

*Flashback ends*

I smiled as I thought about it.

I continued scrolling through twitter when I came across a tweet to Sivaangi when she did random Q/A 2 days back... It was a thread back and forth between two fans.

(A/N: This just to lift you all up! Author ah thittidathinga!🙈
Special Mention: alaguv4)

I laughed looking at their conversation.

I refreshed the hashtag when I saw a tweet from Thushi which told everyone to report some youtube channel 's latest video.

I didn't pay much head to it was scrolling twitter until i saw an inflow of tweets saying how Sivaangi had posted on instagram.

Appudi enna post pannirka...

I went to instagram and saw her story.

I frowned and quickly called Rowdy.

She picked up in the first ring,
"Sivaangi ma enna achu?? Enna morph pics?"

"Rombo vulnerable ah irruku Ashwineyy..kevalama irruku..ippidi kuda panuvangala..?"

"Ma enadhu nu sollu firstu.."

"Adhu neengale paarunga..youtube la poi, Dreamwoods channel oda latest video vaa paarunga...approm pesulam..naan ippo vekuren.."

Saying that, she ended the call.

I quickly typed Channel and watched that video.

I was shocked at first...my mind couldn't process what my eyes were seeing..

They had morphed Sivaangi's  face into some other girl's face and made it into a wedding video..

I looked at the comment section..it was filled with our fans telling the channel to delete the videos and that it was violating us and it was not endorsed by our fans...

My shock was slowly turing into anger..

I then looked at some of older videos of that channel..

To increase the view and their popularity, not only were they using the tagline and hashtag o ashaangi and masquerading as our fans but also made a lot imaginary 'Movies' with Sivaangi  and I as the lead pair.

This could completely destroy both our careers and Sivaangi's name will be spoilt..

Eventhough we were together, we had decided to reveal our relationship after the release of my first movie. So that by that time both our career would be somewhat stable.

To the outside world ,we were both single.

And these videos by this channel ...could defame us!!

I went into rage..

I opened instagram story and started typing

THERE ARE SOME MORPHED VIDEOS N EDITS GOING AROUND AND THIS IS TO CLARIFY THAT THEY ARE COMPLETELY FALSE AND UTTER RUBBISH TRYING TO DEFAME ME.

Then I thought about those movie edits in that channel and the fact that we were keeping our relationship secret. This is the only way to protect her.

I AM VERY MUCH SINGLE AND I AM NOT IN ANY RELATIONSHIP WITH ANY RUMOURED CO-STAR.

Then I thought of our loyal fans who always protected us in one way or another.
I didn't want them involved in any fights with these vultures
I also could not forget the abusive and negativity they had to face from Vijay and Ajith fans.
There will always be someone trying to hurt them...trying to break them apart..using their emotions against them and for selfish gain.

But there was also the other side.
I remembered going through a thread just yesterday..Someone had asked what was everyone's profession. And it took me ages to read all tweets...There were Doctrates, teachers, IT professionals, Criminal justice lawyers, Doctors, Mothers, Army people, students. The list was long. And almost all of them created social media accounts to celebrate us ...to support us..shared how much that hashtag meant to them...how much Sivaangi and I meant to them...reading through it all humbled me and shook me to my core...I didn't know what I did to deserve such unconditional love from them but I felt resposible for them...

Its my job to protect them too..I Know they will be extremely hurt...hurt beyond words..but its better this way...till the time Sivaangi and I are ready to come out about our relationship..

They would understand one day.
If the bond that Sivaangi and I share with each other is magic then what we share with our fans and what they share among themselves is something way beyond magical. There are simply no words to describe it.

I trusted them completely..they will take time to process it but will ultimately come to the decision of respecting us and supporting us professionally and individually..
But I also knew all their heart would be hoping that we will end up together.

Enna manichidunga...ennaku idha vitta vera vazhi therila...but idhellam naanga career le stable agura varikum thaan...I hope you will forgive me one day..I am trying to protect you all too...

So I continued to type,

AT THIS JUNCTURE, I THANK MY FANS WHO ARE MY STRONG PILLARS OF SUPPORT FOR THEIR CONTINUED SUPPORT. I HUMBLY REQUEST YOU TO SUPPORT ME ONLY PROFESSIONALLY AND NOT INVOLVE IN ANY UNWANTED SHIPPING EDITS/ MORPHED ACTS.

I thought back to how hurt and shocked Sivaangi sounded in the call.

THEY HARM THE PRECIOUS PERSONAL LIFE OF ANY INDIVIDUAL.

I decided to include our current focus of stabilizing both our careers.

I AM AT THE BEGINNING OF MY CAREER AND MY CURRENT FOCUS IS WORK AND WORK ONLY.

I was sure that our fans could read between the lines and could understand what I was really trying to say....just for now..

HOPE YOU UNDERSTAND, THANK YOU

AS ALWAYS, LOVE YOU ALL AND FOREVER INDEBTED TO YOUR UNCONDITIONAL SUPPORT.

I posted my story and quickly logged off and threw my phone on the bed.

I closed my eyes trying to control my emotions.

My phone rang within minutes,
I picked up and before I could say anything, she said
"Ashwin calm down...kovom padathinge..kovom paata ungaluku thala vali varum ma...konjo calm ah agununga.. "

I shook my head and replied with a mix of anguish and anger in my voice,
"Yevolo kevalama pannirkanga...ippo thaan nama rendu perum ivolo kashtathuku pirag career start pannirkom..."

"Vidunga..paathukulam.."

"Sivaangi nee eppidi ivolo calm ah irruka..."

"Namma rendu perula yaara orthunga calm ah irrukanumla ma...appo thane problem solve agum.."

"Naan vonne paakunu..nerela meet pannunum...naan vonoda veetuku vaaren ..ippo..."

"vaanga Ashwineyy ..."

We ended the call and I quickly grabbed my car keys and drove to her house.

As soon as I reached, Vinaayak opened the door.
He took one look at me and silently pointed up indicating she was in her room. I nodded my thanks and quickly went to her room.

I knocked her room door and the door flew open and she rushed into my arms and hugged me.

I lifted her in my arms and closed the door. Then went and sat in the small sofa in her room while still carrying her.

We just simply hugged each other for sometime.
It was enough for now.
Going through so many overwhelming emotions all at once was draining..and it affected both of us.

Sivaangi started to run her hand through my hair. I closed my eyes relaxing in her embrace.

She pulled back and looked at me,
"Thala valikudha...thailam thadavi uduta?"

I shook my head and asked her again,
"Eppidi ma nee ippidi rruka?...vonaku  idhoda backlash..namma future ah bathikumo nu nenaicha bayama illaya..?"

She sighed and said,
"Bayam illa nu illa..irruku..but samalichikalam nu dhairiyamu irruku Ashwineyy..idhuku munadi pakka thaa negativity ah...but there is difference.."

I looked at her silently asking what was the difference.

She smiled and tightened her grip around my neck and said,

"Appo Neenga enn kuda illa...ippo neenga enn kuda irrukinga..ennakaga neenga enna venalum panna thaiyara irrukinga...inni life fulla neenga enn kuda irrukamodhu ennaku enna bayam irrukum sollunga..i feel invicible with you by my side Ashwiney...enna vandhalum...enna aanalum..namma adha vonna face pannuvomnu....adhan..."

I got emotional and burried my head in her neck and broke down.

Kadavale...thank you so much for sending my soulmate to me..please protect her at all cost...

Sivaangi didn't say anything. She just held me and let me cry while  gently rubbing my back.
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I pulled back after I had somewhat calmed down. Not completely but enough to talk.

"Sivaangi Ma, Naan eppome von kudave irrupen...I don't know what I did to deserve you...but I'm sure of one thing you are truly My Soulmate..Kadaval ku naan nandri kaden paturken for sending you to me.."

She looked at me with tears ready to spill,
"Ashwineyyy..."

I knew she was being strong for me while controlling her own emotions.

So I pulled her to my chest and hugged her. It was my turn to be her rock.
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Even after our emotional breakdown was over. We still didn't leave eachother's embrace. We were not talking either. It was a comfortable silence. Just soaking comfort from each other's warmth.

I slowly whispered not wanting to break the peaceful silence,
"Sivaangi Ma..?"

There was no reply and she didn't move either. I bent my head and looked at face only to realize that she was asleep with her head against my chest listening to my heart beat. I smiled, she had once told me it was one of her favorite things.

I laid my head on top of hers and fell asleep too.

I woke up slightly when I felt a hand brush against my hair and looked up to see Binni Ma.

I jerked. Completely Awake now and tried to explain,
"Amma adhu vandhu.."

Binni Ma shushed me and said,
" Ennaku theriyum Ashwin enna achu nu..we know you both needed eachother nu tu..thats why we didn't disturb you both..but its time for dinner now..rendu perum sapuda vanga..and inniku nee enge thangiko pa...i dont want you to go back in this state of mind.."

I smiled at her and nodded.

She went downstairs. While I gently woke up my angel and told her that it was time for dinner. As soon as she heard food she was instantly up.
And told,
"Ashwineyyy sikuram vaa...nee yen ivolo slow va vare? Sikirum pola na Vinaayak ella thiyum saptuduvam!"

I lifted an eyebrow at her,
"Yaaru naan slow va varena.."

"Amma...nee palaya aalu la..ella 90's kids um ivolo slow ah irrukanga.."

Edheyyy...

I swiftly lifted her like the way Master lifted me in the show. I chucked hearing her squeal and giggle. I carried her down the stairs and put her down at the bottom of the stairs and asked,

"Ippo sollu Naan palaya aala..?"

She blushed and said,
"Illa Neenga enn Aalu"

Which made me blush too.

Soon we all had dinner. Binni Ma and K.K Appa were giving us their support and were trying to cheer us up. Vinaayak for his part was teasing Sivaangi and even Me.

After dinner, Vinaayak and I were watching TV  when i noticed that Sivaangi was busy texting to someone.

I looked at her and asked,
"Sivaangi Ma yaarku text pandra..?"

She looked at me and said ,
"Illa Ashwineyy Nee enotional a  potta story nala...nama fans ellarume vondaji poitanga Ashwineyyyy...avanga tweets la paaka modhu rombo kashtama irruku...adhan naan Smri edits, Anusha ku dm panna that you meant only that youtube channel and not them.."

I signed feeling their pain..eventhough I anticipated it, it still hurt to know that i was the cause of it..but I had to...

Sensing that we were about to have a serious discussion, Vinaayak silently got up and went to his room.

I shook my head
He was too mature for his age..

I tool a deep breath and told her my reasoning and why I had typed those words.

She hugged me knowing how difficult it was for me to type those words.
Both of us felt their pain. But It had to be done for everyone's sake.
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After sometime.

Sivaangi had an idea to try random instagram filters and she roped me in too.

As I was trying a filter, I suddenly heard a cackle.

I looked at Sivaangi asking her what happend.

She showed me.
She was trying one of those prediction ones and this was "Where is my soulmate" and the answer she got was "sitting beside you"
Which made us both surprised and laugh.

"Ashwineyyy paathiya ..idhu unmaiyave Kadaval Setting thaan!"

I nodded my head,
"Ama Ma Kadaval Setting thaan..idhu naan mulusa namburen.."

Then Sivaangi sent some random predictions which was not the true one and posted it in her story. It was her attempt to cheer our fans.

Both of them were each others biggest support systems.

Meanwhile..
Ashaangians were in so much pain that it was simply undescribable..
Some of them kept their pain aside and try to think from their Manna's pov and till an extent undestood the reason and were trying to be there for others.

By next day, the entire Ashaangian family had come to the decision that though they still hoped that Ashaangi would end up together, they will stop shipping them and support them professionally and individually.
It was hard and painfull pill to swallow. But they loved their Manna and Manni too much not to respect their wishes. They had decided that they still believed in Kadaval Setting and still hoped for it but would refrain from any sort of shipping till they hear from Ashaangi's mouth publically that there was something between them or even till they themselves gave them a go signal to continue their shipping.

Worldwide the prayers for the King and Queen of the Purple Kingdom increased in its intesity.

It was a difficult and extremely painful phase for not just Ashaangians but also Ashaangi.

But all of them believed in two thing and that was
Kadaval Setting and Magic.

What they were going through was test and at the end of the tunnel, all of them will only come out stronger.

Idhuvum kadandhu pogum

END

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A/N:

I just poured my heart out...As I was writing from the pespective of Ak and wrote this imagining what he was going through , i could literally feel his emotions running through me...I dont know how else to describe it..

But I hope this makes you all feel better..

Disclaimer:

This is again just a fanfic based on what happened yesterday..

Hope you all like it!

Please feel free to  comment your frame of mind and sharing yiu emotions..

Penning it down helps..

Better days are coming🌸🌸💜

Stay Strong. Stay Positive💜

Treat People with kindness.

Always stay strong
-Anu 💜

P.S. : I haven't proof read it. So please forgive me if there is some typos.