Phil POV:

I hated lying to Dan. I wasn't leaving his house because Oli's parents wanted to meet me, it was because today I was going to learn the truth.

The past few days a friend of Oli's was telling me he's been cheating and texted me saying tonight is the night a girl will be around his house. He showed me screenshots of a conversation. I felt sick when I read them:

Oli: Yeah it sucks! But don't worry I'll be getting out of my relationship hell soon! xxxxxxxx
Girl: I can't wait <3 xxxxxx
Oli: same here :* <3 I've been having so much fun with you and I can't wait for you to be my girlfriend. xxxxxxx
Girl: More fun than with Phil? xxxxxx
Oli: So much more xxxxxxx

I hated him. How could he tell me he loves me and then do... this. I didn't tell Dan. He would pity me and I didn't want that. Not at all.

I walked up Oli's drive, my heart was in my throat and thumping in my ears. My hands were sweating Did I really want to know?

It was too late to turn back now, I just had to face him. His friend that told me had told Oli he was coming round so he wouldn't be suspicious when I knocked on, so he would think I was his friend.
I was by the door now, I felt like my life was coming to a close. It was amazing how this one person could mean so much to me and tug at my feelings the way he did. Amazing but yet extremely horrid.
I knocked on the door and stepped away a bit, waiting for him to answer. I was breathing shallow and rapidly, I couldn't face this. Heat was crawling up my neck as I heard movement inside, the door soon opened and it revealed a beautiful girl. She had long blonde hair that hit her hips and a stick thin body, she was so pretty. How could I compete with that? Oli saw me, he had no shirt on. I didn't want to look at his body, I didn't want to look at him.
"Shit Phil!" His eyes went wide. The girl had no trousers on and was wearing one of Oli's tops, she disappeared when Oli said my name, her head hung low like she was ashamed of what she'd been doing... or ashamed of being caught.
"What the- how could you?" I said, I wanted to yell and scream and cry but I didn't. I just said this, my voice strong and defiant, but not angry. Somehow I didn't sound angry. I felt it though, I felt hurt and angry and every bad feeling there was to be felt.
"Phil. Shit. Its not what it looks like!" He rushed out and I narrowed my eyes at him. I got my phone out and showed it to him, showed him the screenshot.
"And I suppose this isn't either?" I questioned and shoved the phone into his face. He stared at me wide eyed.
"shit. Shit. I'm so sorry Phi-"
"Save it!" I cut him off "Congratulations, you're out of your relationship hell. Don't talk to me again!" And then I left, just like that.
Grey clouds opened up in the sky above and rain began to sling itself down. My shirt was soaked through but I didn't quicken my pace.

I lay on my bed, my shirt was dry by now but my cheeks werent as floods of tears rolled down them. It was a little past 11, I needed a good friend. I had lost Dan and Oli on the same day, how could I be so stupid?
I shakily grabbed my phone and clicked on Dans contact:

Phil: I'm sorry Dan

I hoped he would forgive me. I ignored him for months, how could I do that to a friend? What was wrong with me?

Why couldn't I get into a good relationship. One where I wasn't just an object. I thought I had found someone good, after my last boyfriend I thought I'd never fall in love again and then oli happened... but he was just the same!
Sure he didn't abuse me physically but emotionally hurt just as much.

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* "come on philly don't you love me?" He asked me, his words trying to manipulate me
"Of course I do I just- I'm not ready." I told him and his eyes turned angry
"Not ready. Not ready!? I'm your one and only you should be ready!"
"I-Im sorry" I stuttered
"No stuttering" and then he slapped me, square in the jaw. My face was bright red and raw with pain.
*

I awoke to darkness, I was still fully clothed. 1am read my clock. I put a hand to my face and I was burning hot. I was enveloped in a hot sweat. Bad memory turned into a bad dream. I was alright now.

I hate my ex. It kept happening after that. A slap, a fist, a wall. It was all the same. I needed to stop dating, bad things always happen when I'm with someone.

AN: I was at a family meal when i wrote this. oops
I hope you're liking the story so far. I feel really bad for poor Philly! I should give him some good luck soon ;)
I promise you guys this is a phanfic just give it time.