Dans POV:
I felt groggy when I awoke the next morning, it was so dark it could've been night. 5am. I'd had a couple of hours sleep, I couldn't stop thinking about PJ and then my thoughts slowly went to Phil.

I was just heartbroken and he was a good friend, I wasn't gay. I'm not gay. I've only ever liked girls so why does Phil make me feel so confused inside? Ugh. He probably fancies Oli, I saw the way he looked at him.

I slung myself out of bed and made my way into the bathroom. My parents had probably already left for work, they wouldn't question why I was up so early or see me like... this. I wish I didn't see me looking this way, I had bags under my eyes the size of the flipping grand canyons! My hair was everywhere and I looked like a MySpace emo kid. All dark and hair in my face. I sighed deeply and stumbled back to bed, hoping for a little extra sleep. Hoping I'd look better afterwards.

I didn't. I was a little more awake but I was still plagued by the black holes that I called my eyes an hour later. The only thing I could do was get ready.

First lesson was science intervention. Phil would be there.
He was already in his seat as I walked in early
"Hey there" I said, he looked up and his grin was wider than ever "someone's in a good mood" I chuckled and sat in my usual seat between him and the window.
"Why wouldn't I be?" He chirped and I cocked my head to one side, trying to figure him out "my life is great! Amazing even" it was like he was playing a little game with me, holding a secret in but it was bubbling at his lips wanting to be let out.
"Enjoy the cinema?" I asked cautiously.
"The film was ace!"
"I knew it would be" I smiled "what did you do..After?" What did you and oli do after?
"I went home" he said but he looked about ready to explode.
"That's it?"
"Oli asked me out as well!" He burst out. Oli did what!? "it was amazing Dan, he's amazing. I...I know we haven't known each other long but he makes me so happy" so he is gay
"Well I'm happy for you Phil!" It wasn't a total lie.
"Thanks oh and-" before he could continue the teacher walked in and the bell followed shortly after. I was left alone with my thoughts.
If I didn't fancy Phil then why did I feel so... horrible? I want to be happy for him but I just can't. I don't want to ruin our friendship by saying anything... I don't want to ruin their relationship either. I just, damn I don't know what I want.

I ended up glancing at Phil throughout the entire lesson. I couldn't keep my eyes off him, he was so cute. He even stuck his tongue out when he was concentrating which was absolutely adorable.

The bell rang and me and Phil stood up together.
"What were you going to tell me earlier?" I questioned and Phil furrowed his eyebrows
"Oh yeah!" He said, his eyes widening as he remembered "I just wanted to ask if you were okay?"
"I guess"
"Break ups are hard"
"Says the guy in a relationship" I tried to make it sound sarcastic or jokey but it came out harsh and there was an edge to my voice. I settled with a wink to take the edge off and Phil laughing was a good sign of it working.
"You wanna come mine again tonight?" Phil asked
"Don't you want to spend time with oli?" I questioned confused.
"You're my mate Dan. I'm not going to drop you because I have a boyfriend" he chuckled and I smiled at him.

Maths was next. Shit. Me and Phil sat at the back again. All lesson I just glances at PJ. My heart squished and broke all at the same time. I felt all my organs churn and I wanted to feel the warmth of her arms around me but I also didn't want her in my personal bubble or breathing the same air as me. It wasn't a win win situation! I was as confused about her as I was about Phil.

Maybe I was displacing my love for her onto Phil? Maybe I was trying to make my heartbreak more copeable? The only thing I did know is that I don't want to lose Phil, and I feel like I'm losing him already. Everyone always choices relationships over friendships, sometimes without realising it.
I don't want Phil though. And he doesn't want me. But I want us to be friends and no one to intervene. Maybe that's just me being selfish.