They say "home's where heart is!"
But where's my heart?
They say love's eternal
But why did my love go
A long time ago?
Why do they keep saying things
I don't understand?

I had one selfish thought
And everything fell apart.
Still, you tell me
I shouldn't look back
And move forward
In this large, cruel world
Built out of despair
And selfish thoughts.
But when love's eternal,
Why am I not allowed
To grief and wait
For my love
To come back?
I don't understand.

You always told me
I should move forward.
But I caught
You looking back
At your long lost memories
And I saw
Your tears
Your grief
Your despair
And how you didn't want
Me to become like you.
But you never knew -
You never saw my tears.
You never saw my grief.
You never saw my despair.
You never saw in the mirror
And saw me
How I've always been.
I don't understand.

They say
It are the small things
That matter.
But they didn't say
How painful
The small things are
When you see them
Rushing by and
Knowing you'll
Never experience them again.
Because your love is gone.
I don't understand.

This world is cruel.
That's all I know.
But you do your anything
Without letting others know
That you noticed.

I don't understand.
How cruel being can be.
How cruel living can be.
How cruel words can be.
How cruel you can be.

I don't understand.
I guess I never will.

᯽𖧷᯽ ᯽𖧷᯽ ᯽𖧷᯽

A short poem. It isn't quite a poem but well ... it is (kind of) poetry.