I'm sorry that I just disappeared for a while. It's been a rough past few months for me. Around the end of January, I got really sick and a few weeks later I was sent to the hospital, where I was for a month. I just got out earlier this week and thankfully, I'm feeling a lot better now. I don't really want to talk about it, but that's why I have not had my phone for the past month. I'm going to be honest, the days were painful, but at least I had my pencil and sketchbook. All I was able to draw were sketches and eventually I got a few Micron pens where I lined a few. It's all a dump, but here are a few of the nicer sketches.

The first doodle is simply the letter K surrounded by tangle patterns. It's from when I was in school around exam time at the end of January. I don't know the exact dates, because I just took all the photos now and I don't date each drawing. 😟

📆 late Jan, 2019
🎨 2H pencil

This one is from around the same time period, but I started it much earlier in the month. I don't know exactly where the idea came from, but I was feeling a lot of pain, physically and emotionally. I use the phrase "I'm falling apart" a lot and this somewhat illustrates that feeling. It's as if her body has shattered into pieces and all that remains is her head and neck, where she is forced to lie alone with her thoughts and feelings. Among the broken pieces, leaves and branches are tangled in to symbolize growth. Even through the shattered glass, life can learn to grow.

📆 late Jan, 2019
🎨 2H pencil

Here's my first sketch from the hospital. The drawing was inspired by something I saw on Instagram, but I can't remember who's drawing it was now. It's supposed to be as if the girl is dreaming on a cloud. The pose looks really stiff though and what happened to the right arm? The hand is turned in the wrong direction. I literally drew two left hands! Oof, this is what happens when I draw without any references.

📆 mid Feb, 2019
🎨 2H pencil

Another drawing without reference and the proportions are a mess!

📆 mid Feb, 2019
🎨 2H pencil

I got into a zentangle phase and for a little while I was just doodling a bunch of patterned animals. This giraffe is the only one that looks half-decent. 😆 I guess it is kinda cute.

📆 mid Feb 2019
🎨 2H pencil

At some point I tried to practice drawing hands. It was a good idea in theory, but wow do these hands look terrible. I was trying to use my own hand as reference and it didn't go too well. I gave up after these few tries. I definitely need to keep practicing, probably with a reference that doesn't accidentally move every few seconds, such as pictures.

📆 late Feb, 2019
🎨 2H pencil

Oh! This next doodle was from the day that my mom brought me Micron pens. I traced a penny in different places around the page so technically this counts as the penny challenge. I couldn't think of anything better to do, so I just filled them in with tiny zentangles. I used the 0.05 mm black pen to get so detailed.

📆 late Feb, 2019
🎨 2H pencil, Micron pens

This is more of a vent drawing so sorry if it's dark. Half the face is mine and the other half is of a sadistic monster. It broke my heart with ice and left me to remove all the crystals. The water is supposed to be melting ice mixed with the tears I'm crying, slowly rising until maybe it would drown me. It was painful, but I guess I managed through it since my heart is in one piece now.

📆 early Mar, 2019
🎨 2H pencil, Micron pens

Well, for now that is all I have got. Hopefully I'll have some nicer and possibly colored work soon. Thank you all for sticking with me! 💕 I promise I'll try to be online more now.

Also, guess who's birthday is on Saturday? That would be me, March 23rd. I'm turning 16! It sounds so old, but it's happening. I can't believe I was only 12 when I first joined Wattpad. Look at how far I have come, yet how unsuccessful I am now... 😫