I'm sorry for the sudden surge I had. Something happened with Jaywing and I. I guess..we aren't friends anymore? I think. I dunno how to think if it. It was alot on me. This was the second friendship break off this week and the other friend chose a guy over me. It was stressful. And stings alot. Bothered me all day. It's obviously my fault. I didn't spend enough time with her or talked enough. I probably should have. She said I hurt her by saying '' I feel I can't tell her my problems " that's..just how I felt though. I probably shouldn't have said that but it's truly how I felt. Then again I should have thought how much it would hurt her.

I feel like crying so bad. I wish I could just change who I was. I hate who I am.