So yesterday, I had a meltdown. It wasn't the good kind either. I've been having so many emotions at once. I haven't been able to draw much recently either which is bad to me. I cried so much yesterday that I blacked out. I don't like admitting this to you guys, as my family. I care about all your happiness so saying this makes me feel weak.

But I'm not always happy. I seem sweet, I am sweet, I know I am because I love being sweet. I see that world as a place where people can be safe. Just live in a utopia. But I know that won't happen. I've cried. I've had this bad depression for awhile. Sometimes it makes me think about death. And if I should even really be here. I still wonder why I was created. The only happiness I truly get is from helping others. Seeing you all happy that your lives or happy! That's the greatest feeling I can hold. I remember even just joining Wattpad. So many have you have stayed since. Some have brought new people in.

Oh geez I'm crying..

You guys are the best family I've ever had, and I mean that. Even having a family right now. You guys look at my art and make me want to boost myself to be an animator. I can't just imagine leaving you guys forever. It's so hard to..I'm attracted to you guys and you are of me. We are like magnetic peeps hehe..

So all those hurting, cutting, wanting to do suicide. Think, I've been thinking just like you. I do sometimes everyday. But I still try to make life great. I want to make your life great. Some of you think " she won't notice me, I'm such an idiot she won't notice" of course I notice you. I notice everyone. From every vote..from every comment...from every advice and support. Thank you. Thank you for being who you are.  Keep being who you are