I dunno what's up guys. I feel kinda weird. Somewhat like, I'm being immature? Maybe not? Hn.. has anyone ever been around so many friends, and you care so much about them and you support them through everything. Your their crutch, and when you see them or hear them with someone they love emotionally, you can't help but feel weird?

I don't even really understand as to why I feel like crying over something so stupid? I want to be a model for others. An example! To encourage them. I know I'm happy for my friends when they find someone! Or better yet, have someone love them better than they love themselves.

*Huffs* out of all my fears, it has to be  being scared of being envious of others.

I know that I'm great. I know that I'm pretty and confident too! And that I enjoy putting a smile on other's faces but..sometimes I wish I could find a partner who puts in as much love and work as I do for others.

I hate that this makes me weak! I smile so hard for my friends. I'm so happy for them but at the same time it  feels like my heart is breaking?

I don't.. really get it? Am I really jealous that I haven't found anyone? Or am I just being immature? I'm not sure really. ^^ I'm so sorry for this sudden post I just want to see if maybe I'm just overreacting? Maybe there isn't anything wrong with me! At least I hope not ^^;