--u can skip this is just a vent with no drawings to help me feel better--

Ugggghhhhhhhh guys I swear these past few weeks have been awful

Even with the freaking 3 day weekend I just can't handle stuff

Like

I've been totally worn out bc there's literally only half an hour everyday that I'm not doing homework or sports, and that's cuz it's devoted to dinner

And to make up for it I stay up late watching YouTube

And then I've forgotten like three assignments which usually never happens

I have so many things I want to do but I can't because Nordic and homework take all that time

Like seriously I'm legit unhappy bc it feels like my childhood/teenage hood is being wasted away

But then my English teacher sprang a random summarize assessment on us

And it was awful

I was so stressed, he gave us one night to prep and I was so freaked out that I got nothing done

All his past assignments have worn away my essay writing confidence to zero

THANK GOD he extended the deadline to 8Pm instead of at the end of class, no one was done

But then I realized that I have a Nordic meet AND I rly wanted to go to Reality Check (a church thing) and that ENDS at 8, and I'd have to go straight from skiing to reality check

So I was super sad bc I rly wanted to go and I couldn't

And I'd have to go to the skii meet

And I was kinda already rly unhappy, and that sucks because it's a skate meet and skating is so hard for me, and if I'm already unhappy I just get super sad and I cry the whole time.

And I was supposed to leave class early to catch the bus and I forgot and swore in front of the whole class (which is fine rly everyone at my school swears, but it was still embarrassing)

And this rly helpful guy offered to text two of my other teammates to tell them to pick me up with them

I waited in front of the door and told my mom to put my skis on the bus cuz she happened to be there and it was rly hectic and I was already feeling like crap so I was just standing there in the hallway trying not to cry

And then it turns out the ppl who were supposed to be giving me a ride had already left (not their fault, they had probably left way before I got down there anyway) so my mom was thinking she'd just drive me there, and I'd be late and miss the race and have to skii by myself)

...So yeah that's why I'm feeling rly crappy today

It's not even that bad, I could've handled all these easily on a better day. I was just so sad already it kinda pushed me over the edge (I'm like, kinda sitting in my mom's car moping rn)

BUT it's getting better, cuz I was able to skip Nordic today cuz I missed the bus and wouldn't get there on time anyway (I don't rly think racing is made for me... my time went up FOUR MINUTES for the last 2.5 K... do you know how terrible that is??? I SUCK at skate skiing... I'm only here for the classic)

And now I can go home and finish the essay so I can go to Reality Check XD

This is the first time I've gotten to go home before dark in like a month or so

IT'S SO BRIGHT OMG I MIGHT ACTUALLY BE ABLE TO DO STUFF AND TAKE MY DOG FOR A WALK ❤️

K I'm feeling better now thanks for listening Wattpad :3

...... aw fudge I just found out TODAY was the Classic race

And there's usually only one classic race per season... 😩😩😩😫

.... I'm crying again fughsmnssmk