ok so im going to die eventually.

i dont know why i cant face this stupid fact.

like, whenever i think about death i just pause and ponder for the longest time, wondering what happens and if i'll ever see my friends again.

and it just makes me super upset because i dont know whats going to happen to me.

and like i know you've all heard my religion rambling, but i still havent decided on anything and its just worrying me because i could die any day and i dont wanna die confused.