lmao even tho i dont really like the idea of giving a goal to your life cause life is the most unpredictable shit but whatever

so i think my life meaning of sorts is helping others??? idk. i have a habit of being much more caring online, probably because its harder to fight so badly you lose a friend on here.

i just dont like the stress of real-life friends i guess?? i mean, its just too difficult. of course, i wont abandon the one real-life friend i do have but i just dont want more.

but on wattpad its just so easy to help everyone. i like being there for people, but in real life i do my best to shut out pain. i dunno.

i wanna say its because im homeschooled now and so i dont really meet anyone, but im fairly certain its because i put myself through so much to help my online friends.

even saying all this, to all my friends on here, please dont stop coming to me with your problems because your worried it'll make me stressed. i can handle it. i don't care how many nights i spend worrying for a friend, as long as they get through it.