Just because I can't tell my family I thought I could draw how I feel

If you can't see what it says

"I don't think I'm a girl"

Because to be honest I don't.  I'm really uncomfortable with my gender and usually ask my friends to use him and he pronouns but I cannot tell my family this cause I'm scared they will hate me....well my mum made it clear if I said I think im trans she would slap me...not that I talk to her anyway I just needed to get this off my chest.