So this is to someone I never knew felt this way. And it's probably my fault for not being aware but this broke me a ton

Jaywing2003 I know you wknt comment or PM anyone but I know you can read so this is what imma tell you.

Your not those things, you'll never be those things. I've e had those voices in my head! I mean I even cut myself.. before I joined watty obviously im never doing anything so stupid again but...is it me that caused this to you..am I not there for you enough.. WHY DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND THOSE VOICES KNOW NOTHING ABOUT YOU! I KNOW ENOUGH THAT MY JAY WOUKD NEVER SAY THIS! EVER! YOUR NAME..YOUR NAME IS SOMETHING I'LL NEVER HAVE I CARE ABOUT YOU AND I DON'T CARE IF YOU DONT COMMENT..even though I know your in darkness there is a cloude there, holding her paw/hand out to you saying 'lets leave this place..let's..go somewhere safe.. where you dont have to be scared..

I'm so sorry I failed you..i don't want people to be like me.. EVER! It's hard ok..i don't have it easy Jay. If you think my life is easy.

Is hearing your frankly sure in bed easy? Crying yourself to sleep at his funeral Easy! Hiding things in your mind no one will understand easy? NO!

Jay I just want you to understand I love you.. that's all I want..

I just can't do this anymore..I've already been told I'm just Black and White..that's all I'll ever be..just..i want thus pain to stop..so bad..im sorry I can't do anything right to help..