NNgggh I rant to much
Might turn my thought journa into my rant book

Ye

Anyway

"Wings wat r u gonna rant about today?"

Intense inhale

Ive felt like this for a long time.

And I couldn't hide it any longer..

...

I dont want the fame.

Dont get me wrong, I love everyone supporting me..

But its not the fame thats bothering me

Its something else.

..

I know most of you are here from Wolf and Dogma and Light and Morton and more people I cant even list.

Its a huge number and I dont like "huge numbers"

I mean yeah I really like doing art for people.

But sometimes I feel like a draft.

Its always killing me that "im a shadow"

Im the shadow of big wattpaders and ffs I like being the shadow.

But not for 6-7 months.

When I first started my art books of course I thought "ill make soooo much fanart for the people I love!"

So I really really loved Wolfs stories so I drew JAI (gonna redo it for the 3rd time-) and yknow she actually responded which I was fangirlin about (jebus I felt like such an idiot back then) and now im here kinda like "damn that one page git over 400+ views damn..."

And yknow

Ive also been given shoutouts and tags and so much things and ffs alot of shit.

If I was on youtube then it would replay over and over and over.

I honestly feel like a shadow in someones figure.

I feel like a burden that I could not be founded on my own. Someone else found me and showed me a new world which im so happy about. Ive never been happier ever since ive gotten wattpad (all those vents are just the begginning). And yknow people inspired me to do more and more and its like a drug.

I shouldn't even be posting this rant because I know people will be like "because of me?"

No im blaming no one. No one is guilty.

Im the only one who should be asking that.

I feel kinda stupid now

I mean when I met Dogma for the first time on Wattpad I was actualy really REALY excited for her books because I love everyones books (Petra x Tree. Ship it). I mean i may or may not have freaked out when she said "ive ehard alot about you". CAUSE IM HERE LIKE

"OH GOD SHE FOUND THE WOLFMA HOLY SHIT-"

And I love how she created her own art book and not be called "Wolfs gf", she is "Dogma". Same with me, im not "Wolfs daughter, an artist, a writer", I am just "Wings".

Same with Wolf, she is not "Taxey's friend (I MEAN THEY ARE FRIENDS JUST NOT LIKE A TITLE ON HER- god damnit Wings your making it worse..), TWF author", she is Wolf. AND YKNOW ITS A BIG CHAIN OF SHIT AND MORE STUFF AND IDK TIME LINES-

You're all my internet ham fams and ily all c:

SALT SQUAD ROLE OUT-

No no im joking

Pls

No pls cum back

Pls

Jk uhm

Adhd kikin in god fak

Ima go create my rant book

*victory toot*

Anyway not pointing any fingers just kinda yknow like "nu more fame pls I is very tired"

Look its fucking 11 pm when im writing this and probably when I wake up and reread this ill be like "oh fuck WHAT HAVE I DOOONE?!"

Youve done good Wings

You did good shit

GOOD SHIT GOOD SHIT

WOOOO-

This is me on drugs (sleep deprived-)

Blame this guy ^^^^^^^^^