Feelings incoming, you have been warned lol

I don't usually make vent art, and I'm not really sure if this can be considered one aha
But I was contemplating my dissociative disorder and felt inspired to draw this

I guess my life is a bit messy right now. My neurologist told me I am not in any state to work right now, I'm out of school, and I can't drive, I'm sort of just stuck at home with nothing to do but make art.

I suppose this could be considered a depiction of my mental state at the moment. With all of my confusion and disorientation and amnesia, I feel airy and separated from reality. I'm outside of myself, yet somehow also in my own head aha

His eyes are covered as a sort of depiction of the vision problems I've gotten from these issues, sometimes I have a hard time recognising my surroundings. I suppose that goes hand in hand with the confusion.

I named it "rose garden" because of the swirls lol, but I suppose it could also be described as a rose garden. It's beautiful and euphoric, but also painful, it hurts me. I sometimes feel as though this disorder both saved me and also destroyed my life eheh.

This probably won't make sense to anybody except me, but that's fine lol. Just compliment the art and ignore this ^_^

I hope I don't regret posting this lol, I don't usually like sharing my feelings online.

Character is Crown Of Thorns. Idk why I guess at some point I decided that I was going to project all of my issues into him eheheh