I can't anymore....... I fucking hate my step father.

He is horrible, selfish, and does not deserve to live on this planet that we call a home, when really, this planet is just a freaking cage that keeps me trapped here, keeping me alive, when really, THERE IS NO POINT TO MY EXISTENCE, AND I MAKE NO IMPACT ON THIS DUMB WORLD WHAT SO EVER!!!!! SO WHATS THE FREAKING POINT ANYMORE!!!!

NOBODY CARES WHETHER IM ALIVE OR DEAD, AND HONESTLY, IT WOULD PROBABLY MAKE THEIR LIVES BETTER BY MY LOSS OF EXISTENCE!!!!

NO ONE KNOWS WHO I AM. NO ONE KNOWS WHAT I AM. NO ONE KNOWS WHAT PAIN AND SUFFERING I GO THROUGH EVERY SECOND THAT PASSES. NO ONE KNOWS THAT IM BASICALLY MENTALLY INSANE!!!!! THEY THINK I DONT CARE!!! THEY ALL THINK THAT I DONT CARE WHAT THEY SAY TO ME!!!! THEY ALL THINK IM JUST SOME DUMB KID WHO DOESNT CARE ABOUT ANYTHING!!!!

NOBODY EVER WANTS TO LOOK DEEPER THAN THAT!!!! CAUSE EVERYONE DOESNT GIVE CRAP ABOUT HOW I ACTUALLY FEEL!!!! NO ONE CARES ABOUT WHO I AM AS A PERSON!!!!!!

ILL BE BETTER OFF DEAD AT THIS POINT!!! AND IF MY PARENTS FOUND THIS I PROBABLY WOULD BE BECAUSE OF MY CUSSING!!! BUT I DONT CARE!!!! WHAT THEY WOULD DO TO ME THEN, WOULDNT MAKE MUCH OF A DIFFERENCE TO HOW THEY ALREADY TREAT ME!!!!

I WAS IN A GOOD MOOD TODAY, BUT FAMILY ALWAYS RUINS EVERYTHING FOR ME, BECAUSE THEY ACT AS IF IM JUST A STRANGER!!!! MY PARENTS TOLD ME THEMSELVES THAT THEY WANT ME TO BE A NORMAL PERSON, WHEN IM NOT!!!!! IM NEVER GOING TO BE!!!! THEY DONT TRUST ME!!!! THEY DONT THINK I CAN DO ANYTHING BUT SIT ON MY COMPUTER ALL DAY!!! BUT THEY NEVER ASK WHAT I DO ON MY COMPUTER!!! THEY HAVE NO IDEA HOW MANY PEOPLE ON THE INTERNET PROBABLY CARE ABOUT ME MORE THAN THEY DO!!!!!

THEY DONT UNDERSTAND!!! THEY PROBABLY THINK ITS A DUMB PHASE, AND THAT IM GOING TO CHANGE!!!!

But I'm not. This won't ever change. My life will always be this way. I don't want it to be. I don't want my parents to just shoot me down like they always do, like for example....

'Oh, you want to do art? Maybe you should do something else because you don't get money off of it!'

Thanks parents!!! That really motivates me to actually do something with my life!

And-

'Why do you want to take a video game design class? You should take algebra because that's where smart kids are going.'

Wow. So I'm not smart just because I take a class that will probably help me for a future job I'm probably gonna do that doesn't involve math and algebra what so ever?

And-

'Why can't you just be normal like every other 8th grade girl?'

BECAUSE I CAN'T!!!!!

I CANT BE NORMAL!!! WHY SHOULD I HAVE TO GIVE UP THE THINGS I LOVE TO DO FOR THINGS I HATE THE MOST!?!?? WHY!?! WHAT THE FUCK IS THE POINT!?

I JUST....!! I just can't.....

Don't bother trying to cheer me up in the comments either..... it won't make a difference......