"Im Lost, can you direct me to happiness?" - Wings 2013

So..

Vent
Time

Uhmm..

Today I was in art class, and I showed my friend a peice of art.

I

I was basically destroyed at what she said. I remember it so so badly

"Its so bad! The lines aren't even straight and it kinda looks like a pig!"

I just

Wow

I ended up going to my teachers storage room and crying my eyes out. My teacher lets me go in there since my anxiety and depression has acted up lately.

Honestly I was destroyed.

I threw all my art in the trash

Destroyed all the art I loved on my wall

And just

Broke down

I tried to be happy today like "oh, its just one person, its just one person like come on!"

But no

I realized alot of people not only hated my art

But me

I am the loner

We have to do a project with a partner?

No one likes me.
I work alone

Trying to find a table at lunch?

NO ONE LIKES ME
I SIT ALONE

ALONE

ALONE

ALONE

EVERY
GOD DAMN FUCKING DAY

IM SICK AND FUCKNG TIRED OF BEING THE LONER! NO ONE WANTS TO TALK TO ME! All my other friends have left me...

Because of me

Am I not good enough? Like I should go see a real art professional and take classes?!

OR JUST FIB IT LIKE I ALWAYS DO?!

JUST KINDA MAKE UP WHATEVER IM THINKING?!

DO I?!

DO I REALLY NEED FUCKING HELP FROM THE PEOPLE WHO HATE ME?!

CAUSE IM TIRED

OF EVERY THING

I...

I need sleep..

I need a hug..

But all im hugging is nothing

Cause no one even wants to touch "the weirdo who cant draw shit"

I CANT EVEN SHADE

WHY?!

CAUSE I WAS NEVER TAUGHT HOW TO

YOU SEE ALL THAT ART?!

I DREW THAT, I TAUGHT MY FUCKING SELF

NO ONE

NO ONE HELPED ME

BECAUSE I WAS SO DAMN ALONE AND DEPRESSED THAT I STARTED DRAWING AND DRAWING

AND I FUCKING LEARNED

I LEARNED BECAUSE I WANT TO BE A FUCKING ARTIST

BUT NO EVERYONE HATES ME

I-

DO YOU HATE ME?!

I FEEL LIKE EVERYONE CRINGES WHEN THEY SEE MY ART

I WILL NEVER BE LIKE TAXEY OR SWIFT OR NEKO OR RAYE OR LIGHT OR CHANCE OR WOLF OR THALIA OR ANYONE

I WILL NEVER BE A GOOD ARTIST

I WILL NEVER BE A GOOD WRITER

I WILL NEVER BE ANYTHING GOOD

I-

Im done

Im gonna go sleep...

It off..