Sam has anxiety
He has depression
He feels like he's not good enough to be apart of his own hoe squad
He's loosing self confidence
He feels like someone is basically a better version of who he once was
He's on the verge of getting rid of all his crop tops and feminine clothing
He's going back to his button ups and slacks
He thinks he isn't sexy anymore
He feels like he's tied down and has to be responsible
Samuel starts to suffer from stress
Samuel starts to suffer from insomnia
He feels old when he's barely 18-21
Sam has almost resorted to drinking his feelings
Sam doesn't feel like he once was
He doesn't feel energetic anymore

He admits he's jealous
Even though who he's jealously is the same age
He just feels like everything that person is doing is just rubbing in his face that that person is better and Sam can no longer have fun

I don't know but I just love having Sam suffer is it for pity of him probably but I keep doing this and every time I make Sam cry I cry

Fun and confusing