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"Khushi... my heart needs you...” he said it aloud and closed his eyes. He lied on the bed remembering past two months.

These two months Arnav really tried hard to concentrate on his work and people around him. He tried a lot to mingle with Lavanya. He tried a lot to accept Lavanya as his future better half. He tried a lot adjust with Lavanya. He tried a lot to love Lavanya. But he never could do that. In fact he never felt the ‘LOVE’ he felt somewhere else. After coming from Sydney, whatever happened there, he told everything to Anjali – Khushi's care, Khushi being orphan, Khushi's braveness and Khushi’s attempt to save him keeping her life in risk with the help of police. When Anjali asked why he didn’t bring Khushi here or offer her a better life with them, he silently slowly said about her financial status in low voice, which made Anjali hell angry on him.

He never saw his sister that much angry on anyone, forget about him. He tried his best to please her. But she bluntly refused to forgive him saying ‘I never expected this from you Chote... how can you doubt her intentions after whatever happened? Do you really think that she did all these to hurt you or to use you? If she is really wanted to hurt you or use you, she never ever kept her own life in risk. She never ever allowed you to come to your family members. You lost her Arnav... you lost a pure and innocent love. You will never get that love from the person you think you are in love. Nobody can replace that love you got there. I wish you stayed there as her Arnav Ji. I wish you never ever remembered us. Or I wish she never loved you. I wish she never happened to you” shouted Anjali

“DI...” shock is the understatement after hearing Anjali mentioning him as Arnav rather than Chote.

“You disappointed me Arnav. So many times I said don’t do this you will regret it. I thought you will. But no, you proved yourself as a heartless person. You had hurt an innocent soul saying all those words to her and left. Who will do all these things to you? Who will take care of you as your mother? Who will take care of you as you are her life, in fact more than her life? Who will take care of you when it is really difficult for them? Who will send you back to your family when she is madly in love with you? Who will give you happiness burying her own happiness? I never ever thought you will become this Arnav. I never ever thought you will take Akash’s words this seriously and won’t think before hurting one innocent soul. Did you forget from where you came? Did you forget from where you become this rich arrogant heartless ASR?

If you think poor people can hurt then you should hate me, nani, mami, everyone in this house and lastly yourself, because you were a poor boy Arnav. We were poor when we were thrown out of our house. We were poor in our childhood. Let me tell you one thing, if you really think poor people can hurt – then after having all these wealth, you are really a poor man Arnav, because you hurt an innocent and pure soul, who is living for you. You disappointed me Arnav. I’m really feeling ashamed for being your sister” saying this Anjali ran towards her room crying hardly.

She had enough of her brother’s behaviour towards innocent people. How can he think that every poor are bad? She tried a lot to make him think about his opinion on poor people. She tried a lot to change him, but he never changed. He became arrogant and rude towards everyone except his family and his status friends. Aman is the only person Arnav talks without hatred. Anjali really irritated with Arnav's behaviour. Nani, Mami, Mama, Akash, herself and Shyam everybody tried their best to change him, but he never changed his attitude. He had hurt everybody in the family in this process. Everybody hurt with his words. But now, he almost killed everyone’s hope that he will change.

Arnav sat there with a thud hearing his sister hatred towards his thinking, towards his doings, towards his attitude, towards his arrogance and lastly towards HIM. He looked at every family member, who is leaving to their rooms with dejected and defeated faces. He saw his Nani leaving from there with tears in her eyes with slumped shoulders. Shyam is helping her to move towards her room. Arnav ran to her and held her shoulder

“Nani...”

She slowly waved his hand from her shoulder “I am sorry Arnav... I can’t forgive you for whatever you did. And I am also sorry for not giving you good moral values. You disappointed us Arnav. I can’t forgive you. You destroyed one innocent soul leaving her alone. I’m ashamed” saying this Nani Ji left from there crying with Shyam’s help.

After that incident slowly reality hit him hard. The reality – where money stands, what is important in life, what to take to heart, what to give priority, whom to respect, how to respect people around him, what to see in people, where he stands, what he needs, whom he needs and finally what is life and where he can get?

From that day to today, no one talked with him, including Anjali and Nani ji. If they talked with him then it would be office matter or some other, which only he can do that. But Nani and Anjali never talked with him. He couldn’t understand what to do. He never wanted to say those words to Khushi. He was hurt and angry with the fact that Khushi was ready to send him far from her. He was angry with the fact that Khushi proved him wrong.

He tried to talk with her before leaving. He was so confused at that time. He needed Khushi's support in that situation; he needed her suggestion at that time. He needed Khushi beside him. He wanted to be with her. He wanted her beside him. He wanted her in his life. But when she didn’t allow him inside and didn’t give any chance to him to talk, it angered him more. He said all the things which he shouldn’t. Only he knew how much he regretted for hurting Khushi. Only he knew how much it hurts him seeing Khushi hurt. Only he knew how much she matters to him.

And now he is still angry but not because of the fact that Khushi matters to him, not because of the fact that he can’t live without Khushi, not because of the fact that he loves her. He is still angry because he didn’t take any step to contact Khushi. He is angry because he let her send him back. He is angry because he left Khushi. He is angry because he hates his deeds.

Whenever he sees Lavanya his heart automatically compared her to Khushi. After seeing Lavanya’s so called love, he couldn’t believe what they share. After when he returned from Sydney, everyone in the family cried their heart out thanking god for bringing him back with life. But, Lavanya’s words literally shook everyone in the hall.

“Oh don’t make such a scene everyone. He is back, he is fit and fine now. Whenever he spends his time with Lavanya or other family, his heart reminded him about Khushi. Why are you behaving like this? And ASR, you should have been little careful. How can you lose your phone? I don’t think you remember that you got that phone from me as a gift to you. I never thought you will be this careless. I’m disappointed ASR” she left from there. Everybody looked at her retreating figure. Arnav's heart immediately remembered Khushi who brought him a MP3 player. She never ever complained anything about him, except not taking medicine and food. A small smile appeared on his face, remembering her angry and irritated voice.

His train of thoughts disturbed with the knock on the door.

“Arnav baba... Aman Bhai came for you” informed HP

“Send him in” said Arnav sighing deeply knowing the reason for what Aman is here. He sat on bed waiting for Aman. Within few seconds Aman entered into the room with the doctor. After checking Arnav, doctor informed them that the reason is stress. He advised Arnav to take complete rest for at least for 10 days. After giving some more instructions and new prescription doctor left from there. After sending doctor, Aman went and brought the medicines. He also ordered HP to prepare some soup for Arnav. When he comes back, he gave soup to Arnav along with medicines. After Arnav finished everything silently, he made him sit comfortably on the bed

“How are you feeling now ASR?”

“Fine... Um... Aman... why are you helping me? Even Lavanya is not ready to take me to hospital, they why you? You know I hate people who are less than me in status. Then how can you help me Aman? Why don’t you hate my like all?” asked Arnav not to try to mask his emotions. That is first time Aman seeing ASR as Arnav.

“I’m helping you because I promised Ms. Khushi that I will take care of you. I don’t want to break the promise which I gave to her. She is such an angel ASR. She is so pure and innocent. And mostly she loves you. And about hating you, I can never do that ASR, because I think, I feel you as... as... you are... you are my best friend. I feel you as my family. I see you as my role model. I see you as my idol. How much you hate us, we – me or Khushi Ji – never can hate you, because we know you, we can understand you. Hmm... Leave all these ASR, just take rest. Don’t strain yourself much. Call me if you need anything. I will be just a phone call away. Bye... Take care” saying this Aman left from there.

Before Aman leaves from there, he heard Arnav saying

“Will Khushi forgive me for my words? Will she accept me with my flaws? Will she...” he gulped hard and continued “Will she come to me again? I need her in my life Aman. I know I did wrong hurting her and... and... hmm... but I can’t live without her. Now I knew what I’m missing, now I knew what I want, what I need – Khushi. Can you help me to bring my Khushi back to me, Aman? Please for your friend, for your ARNAV... please Aman” tears are flowing from his eyes.

That is the first time Aman saw Arnav in vulnerable condition. He sat on the chair next to bed and said in a low voice “After spending almost around two months with her, you are asking this? Is this what and how you understood her? I never expected you to ask this. Fine, the answer is she won’t. In fact there will not be any question of forgiving, because she can never be angry on you, she can never hate you. I am really feeling guilty for asking her that one question. Now, I know her, I know how much she loves you. You are everything to her ASR. But still I can’t say anything about her coming back to you.”

“What do you mean?” asked Arnav sensing something is there which he didn’t know till now

“After leaving from there, I asked our manager to keep an eye on Khushi. But whatever I heard from him, make me worried”

“What’s the matter Aman? Is she fine? Is she safe?”

“She is safe... she left the job. She stopped coming out of the room. She stopped talking with everyone. Our manager saw her only three or four times in these two months. He said something is wrong with her, but she is safe. He only saw NK is going inside her house and coming out after spending one or two hours there. Sometimes, NK went in there with a couple, whom might be NK’s parents. And the thing making me worried about Khushi is, whenever she came out of the room, NK had to carry her in his arms and took her to some hospital”

“Hospital?” asked horrified Arnav

“Yes, hospital. I asked him to enquire about which doctor Khushi met. He... he said... he said...”

“What’s wrong Aman? Shoot it damn it... How is she now?”

“She met with Dr. Jayson, her psychiatrist”

“Psychiatrist?” whispered shocked Arnav. 

Again, sorry for making you all wait. Its just that I'm enjoying motherhood after a long wait. So taking time to post

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