Chapter 11: A Fear of loosing you

Coldness in the night igniting the atmosphere. At the same time, the couple in the room were gaping at each other experiencing each other so close for the first time. She close her eyes tight as he inch closer.. so closer that there is no space left between them. No matter how much he tried, he cannot stay away from this girl. This is probably the most disastrous winter in Delhi but couple is burning with heat inside the blanket. Warmth of his palm burned her skin. She smile shyly hugging him after sharing a passionate kiss by her husband.

Arnav: Are you okay..?

When she didn't reply, he raised her chin. He could feel her body is burning due to fever..

Khushi: Hum thik hain..(I'm fine)

She hugged him resting her head to his naked chest, she close her eyes in relaxation getting being in his resistible warmth.

Arnav: No.. you are not okay..look at me..(He try to move but she didn't let him.

Khushi: I'm fine Arnavji..(Her tremble lips touching his chest making him to clenched his fist to suppress the feelings bubbling inside her.)

He was fighting for self control but as soon as his intense dark eyes met her innocent one something strong passed through him. He pressed her against the bed and his mouth sealed her ravishing her completely and senselessly. She arm wrapped around him for support. She was hesitant initially but then reciprocate him slowly and steadily.

They were loving each other when suddenly she heard something vibrating behind her ears. He move downward and suck her neck.

She tilted her head giving him full access of her, her hand reached at the desk where his phone is placed, a number appeared on the screen while Arnav was too busy in nibbling her exposed skin.

Arn..v..ji..

Arnav: Hmm..(He ignored her and placed his mouth on her chest..)

Khushi: Apka phone.. He throw it away moving up and look into her eyes all lost.

Damn Asr..Where are you? Please pick up my phone!

What are you doing Lavanya, its been long 3 years, probably he had changed his number or shift to other city,,i need to be little patient, once i get fully recovered and able to walk properly, i myself go and meet him..Oh my god i can't wait for that moment..Asr how you have been!

Thousands of thoughts coming to her mind. Then a unknown fear arise in her brain.

What if some other girl come to his life? She brushed it off her mind knowing well he can never broke his promise.

Stop it lavanya, he promise you, he only love you, no damn girl had that capability to match my standard..he is only yours...Asr..just few more days and then your Lavanya right there in your arms..i will never let you go..EVER..you are MINE and I'm yours..

~~~

He tilted his head down and kissed her lips passionately. A sudden storm make the window to burst open, she get scared and grip him tightly.

''Arnavji..''

He come back to his senses with offended bewilderment and realized what he had just done.. His face went stiff and he look up at his innocent wife. There is so much love in them that is making him guilt conscious.

Khushi: Woh apko koi baar baar apko phone kar raha toh maine..(She smoothened her hairs behind and steal a side glance with shyness.

He disconnect the call seeing the unknown number and then switched it off.

Arnav: You are not well khushi..sleep.. (He got up from bed and took pillow moving toward recliner but she held his hand.

Khushi: Don't go.. (He look at her face and then back at her hand holding him. She was trembling.)

How can he deny her sweet request. He can't admit but he love being close to her)

He took her near him and hold her into his embrace gesturing her he is right here. She cuddle to him with a bright smile flashed her face.

Why you love you this much..? He wondered staring at the sleeping beauty under his arms..

After some time, she peep her one eye and caught him staring her. He immediately shifted to other side before covering her with blanket.

~~~

Arnav open his eyes lazily and the first thing he found was her charming face. He got up and look at her face that is glowing.

Good morning Arnavji..Your tea.. (She extended tray for him. As he scan his eyes upon her from top to bottom, he get quite surprised.

Arnav: You in saree?

Khushi: Strange na..I learn it when you were avoiding me..To divert my mine, i learn all the household work and see I made your favorite pasta also..Di told me i become a good cook..she taught me everything..Everyone will be faint in my house if they know i started cooking..You know last time when i entered in kitchen in my home, i burn buaji hairs (She giggle narrating her crazy antics to trouble buaji, she continue to blabber non stop)

He hold her hand and made her sit beside him.

Arnav: I must say khushi you are really a good learner but you don't have to do all that for me..I have no problem if you didn't do all the work even my family have no problem with that..Don't change yourself..I like the way you are..

Khushi: Arnavji please..I love doing all this for you because you are everything to me..This marriage meant nothing to you but for me its everything..

Arnav: Who told you this marriage nothing to me..

Khushi look at him blinking her eyes innocently.

Arnav: I mean..you are perfect in every way..any man can fall for you.

Khushi: Really? She tucked her hair with happiness feeling overwhelmed getting compliment from him.

I wanted to be a good bahu and a good wife..(He continue to stare her thinking how much she care for him. Di was right! She is truly has some magic. She is an angel in disguise..)

Arnavji.. (She shake him)

Her melodious voice brought him back to senses, he look at his beautiful angel and then back at the food being presented in front of him.

He took the fork and put it into his mouth. She bite her nail nervously waiting for his reply.

Arnav: Hmm..Its really good..

Khushi: Really..Oh my god.. (she jumped from the bed and do happy dance. By next moment, she slammed her lips on his cheeks.

Her mouth open wide as she recovered and looked back at his serious expression.

Arnav: Woh hum..Main.. (She turn her back fidgeting her dupatta) Khushi..

He touch her shoulder letting her to turn.

Arnav: Last night..we..I mean..

Khushi: Ji..aye..(he try to say something but she immediately flew away from his sight)

~~

Khushi went dumb-folded when she felt his warm breath on her neck.

Aap.. Her eyes narrowed seeing him in kitchen.

Khushi: Ap yaha kya kar rahe hain..(What are you doing here)

Arnav: We need to talk..

He make her turn but she pushed his hand off gesturing him that Hp is here. He least care about other all he wanted was her little attention so that he can express it in words what he wanted to tell her since morning.

This girl is not letting him speak, that made him hell frustrated. He commanded Hp to get out. Sheepishly he moved out giving couple privacy while Arnav grabbed her forearm.

Khushi: What are you doing Arnavji..i need to make breakfast..Everyone is waiting..

Arnav: Do hell with your damn breakfast..Hear me now..(His tone was quite high by which She shifted backward. Her face turn sad.

Gloomily she moved out from kitchen to living room while he followed her behind.

Why are you following me..i have lot of work please go..

She try to push him with embarrasement noticing everyone can be here anytime, but he was in no term to listen. He turned as noticed something. His eyes widen in shock. She was about to stepped in the dining table to greet everyone but her legs halted as he pull her hand with sudden force taking her in the corner away from everyone gaze. Brushing her bare waist, he pull her close while she landed against his chest.

Khushi: Yeh aap..

Arnav: Shut up just shut up..

Khushi: Lekin hum..(But I..)

Her words melted in her throat as soon as she felt his finger brushing her lips. She trembled by the way he gave her a hot hug. There is an intensity, passion and possessiveness by the way his hand roaming behind her exposed back. Her legs wobbled, she felt his hand moving lower and lower. With nervousness, She clasp her hand around him in order to stop his movement. But he is in no mood to stop. He pull her aggressively closer and put her hairs on one side revealing her exposed skin to his naked eyes. She gasped

Her heart was beating violently. In no time she felt him tying the dori of her blouse that probably left open.

That mean he is trying to cover her from everyone and she thought he? She cursed herself thinking he is trying to..

Woh hum...I thought..You..(she managed to say and he keep drowning look into heaven staring her innocent eyes )

Unsure of his own intention and not to cause more distress to her, he moved back giving her space to adjust herself around him.

She prepare to leave, but stopped as she found her pallu being stuck somewhere..She squeezed it to take it back. She turned only to get utterly surprised to see him gripping her saree pallu in his steel grip. Giving a small tug, she landed back into his arms. The surrounding was so silent that she heard her own heartbeat. Unable to take the heat of his gaze she turn her back giving him ample view of her back. He lean near her ears and whispered something that turn her deep red.

Arnav: Next time don't wear such kind of saree because you husband is not pleased when someone eye at his wife's modesty..

With that he remove his coat and put it around her shoulder. A smile adore her face as she saw his retreating figure.

~~~

Next few days passed quickly with Arnav started to fall for her more hardly. His day started with her infectious smile and end by her good night kiss. As the time passes their relationship keep growing. They become good friends and shared good bond understanding each other well. First time in his life he was unable to concentrate on his work on office. Every time he keep waiting for day to end so that he go back to home and able to see his lovely wife.

WIFE! This word stir something inside him. There was a time it anger him when someone claim her his wife but now he can't imagine a second without her.

It was midnight, Arnav came home late due to his busy schedule at office. He place his bag, remove his coat, untie the collar and proceed to walk ahead but stopped seeing her laying her head on the dinning table waiting for him.

He sighed and went to wake her up.

Arnav: Khushi..

He patted her cheeks.

She get up and greeted him with a warm smile.

Khushi: Arre aap aa gaye.. (She grinned like a 4 years child and gesture him to freshen up.)

Arnav: Why are you sleeping here like this.. I told you to not wait for me..

Khushi: Hame apka intezaar karna acha lagta hain..(I love waiting for you)

Arnav: You are unbelievable, khushi..

Khushi: Jab ap kisise pyaar karte hain uske liye ap kuch bhi kar sakhte hain..(When you love someone you can go to any extend to make them happy)

He didn't say anything and move to his room to change his clothes.

After sometime, he came back wearing T-shirt and trousers and they started to have dinner together like every other day.

Arnav: I don't like when you skip your dinner because of me..

Khushi: How can I ate without you..i have habit to eat being you by my side...

She began chattering and they started to have their dinner together.

Her love made him guilt conscious. She put plates in the kitchen sink and came back to him and then what he said next trembled her.

Arnav: You have to change your habit because some day you have to LIVE WITHOUT ME..(His words literally tore her heart. Sooner tears make their way down her face as his words ringing her ears again and again. He cursed himself saying all that and noticed her marching away.)

She waved his hand from her shoulder and moved away. He come forward blocking her way.

I'm sorry..

He took her hand tenderly and kissed them. She close her eyes and more tears rolled from her cheeks. She clutched her mangalsutra possessively. A pain began to arise her chest. She getting vulnerable like someone had snatch her wedding chain from her that is very precious to her.

Arnav: Please stop crying..I didn't meant to hurt you. (He took her into his embrace and patted her back in a way of calming her.

If his small word has that effect on her what will happen when she realized about their contract marriage. He cannot imagine to hurt this fragile doll. She is so innocent. How can he do this to her.

Kissing her forehead repeatedly, he lifted her into his arms and made his way toward his room while opposite person smile broadly witnessing the scene.

Shyam came to Anjali and saw her staring at something specifically. He guided her inside and made her lay on the bed.

Anjali: Did you see shyamji..my chotte is in love..He love khushiji...he love her..i can clearly see it..(She is grinning happily. Suddenly she began to cough terribly. Blood started to come out from her mouth.)

Shyam: Please don't talk.. (She smile weakly and gesture him to hold her.)

Anjali: Ab hum maar bhi gaye toh hame koi gham nahi..hum jo chahte hain hame mil gaya..Hamare chotte ko uska khoya hua pyaar mil gaya..(I didn't regret if I die because what ever I wished it get fulfilled..my chotte got his lost love..)

Shyam: And what about me? Did you ever thought how I will survive without you..

Anjali: I know shyamji you are very upset what doctor told you but someday or other this is ought to happen..

Shyam: No nothing will happen to you..did you understand!

Anjali: How much? (He stare her back distraught) Please shyamji tell me how much time I have?

Shyam(With difficulty): 10 days..! He hugged her crying out loud.

That doctor is good for nothing..He don't know anything..Nothing will happen to you..Nothing..I would take you to best physiotherapist and treat you at any cost..

Anjali: Accept it Shyamji I cannot survive..(He got up wiping his tears and rose on his feet.) Where are you going?

Shyam: To tell saalesaheb about your health..

Anjali: You are not going to tell anything to him.

Shyam: I can't hide it.

Anjali: Did you saw na how much he is looking happy these days..i didn't wanted to spoil his happiness because of my illness..

During this last stage I wished to spread happiness not sadness..Promise me you won't tell anything to him.. (She extended her hand.) Promise me?

Shyam: But..

Please shyamji ek akhri baar hamari baat maan lijiye uske baad toh hum.. He stopped her saying further and made her to sleep. Once she she went to deep slumber, he moved out from bed and made few calls. He can't let her die like this. He decided to take her to shimla for her further treatment as been consulted by physiologist.

~~~

MANALI!

Arnav was quite taken aback for a moment. He didn't know how to react. This one word has so many scars buried inside him. This is the only place he lost his first wife and decided to never return to that place where he lost HER. Khushi pressed her hand understanding his inner turmoil.

Arnav: Why suddenly ..? Here Di treatment is going on smoothly..

Shyam: Her next chemotherapy session need to be done by Dr Dikosta, he is the best physiotherapist, I heard that he successfully treated 100 of cancer patient and I think we should make it done for your Di..

Arnav: Okay..When is the flight..?

Shyam: Within a hour.

Arnav: So soon..What's so hurry jiju..I think We should wait..

Shyam: Time hi toh nahi hain hamare pas.. (We don't have much time to waste)

Anjali immediately climbed downstairs comprehending where this conversation leading. No way she let Shyamji tell him the truth. He couldn't able to digest that.

Arnav: Tell me Jijaji..i am listening..is everything alright?

Shyam: No nothing is fine..I want to tell you something..[Paused] Actually your Di is..

Anjali(Interrupting him): Shyamji You here..i search you everywhere..

What happen Di you need something..I was just telling Jijaji to postpone your Shimla stay..What you wanted to say jijaji, is anything serious?

He open his mouth to say but she cut him in between.

Anjali: Huh..your jiju only know to worry unnecessarily, he is shying to reciprocate in front of you..Actually chotte..Your jijaji wanted to spend some time with me so taking me to shimla (Shyam shot an angry glare to her but she pleaded him through eyes to remain calm, not to say anything to him.

Arnav: Di i can't let you go..I and khushi too accompany you..

No!!!!! She said it out loud in an instant and then recovered immediately acting normally.

Anjali: Chotte tum bhi na samjha karo..your jiju is getting desperate to be with me alone..You should learn some lessons from your jiju how to do romance..

Arnav look at his Di with bewilderment. He moved back in embarrassment giving his nod to let them go while Shyam show his glare, he didn't like her idea to hide this truth, he will be totally broken when he know about her current status. Not only that Anjali convince their family doctor to not tell anything to chotte. That made him hell mad. But he was silent for her sake.

Arnav: Di please take care of yourself okay.. (She nodded while packing her bags.)

Khushi: Do you need any help..

Anjali(caressing her cheeks): You just be with your husband..and chotte in my absence don't trouble my pyaari bhabhi else no one spare you..(Khushi smiled and put warm clothes for her.)

Anjali gesture her to come near and whispered in her ears that made her to become crimson red..

Technically it should be your honeymoon and look at your boring husband, he is sending old couple to honeymoon..When i'm not here you and chotte get privacy so take full advantage of the situation ( She blushed and walk away making some excuse. While Arnav raised his eyebrow in wonder.

~~~

Arnav: Take care Di..jiju if you need anything rang me.. Both exchanged glances and then departed toward the exit.

Bye chotte.. (She wave her hand to her brother before walking away.)

~~~

Aman stare him with astonishment. He can't believe that Asr wanted to beech the contract of 6 months when it is near its ending. He was happy to see her love bringing changes in him which he never witness when he was in relation with Lavanya.

Arnav: Do what I'm an saying Aman..call the lawyer RIGHT NOW..

Aman continue to stare him that made him hell frustrated.

Arnav: What are you looking me? Do what i'm saying.

Aman: I wish I could Asr..

Arnav: What Do you mean you can't?

Aman: Your and khushi bhabhi divorce papers already submitting to court and once contract period over, your relations will be over FOREVER.

Just shut up!!!!!!!!!!! He pull him and clasp his collar angrily.

Arnav: Khushi is my wife and no bloody court can change that..

Aman: I'm happy to know you started accepting her your wife but it was too late..

No!!!!!!

Your shouting not going to change the truth.. Only 2 weeks left for contract period to get finished and then..

''Arnav..ji..'' Arnav turned out astonished as he heard a trembled voice from behind only to found khushi standing at the door.

~~~

Anjali finished her chemotherapy session and now sitting in a bench outside. Shyam went to meet the doctor while she is waiting for him.

Getting bored, she roam her eyes here and there. She keep waiting and stare the nurse and patient all around.

When he didn't arrived, she got up and began to walk. She went to the inquiry section to ask doctor's cabin. She proceed forward and reached near a ward where she saw a nurse inside injecting a patient.

He move in the room to ask the direction. Her body froze like a statue the moment she observe the patient's face.

Lavanya!!!!!!! She pressed her mouth totally in shock unable to gasp the reality.

To be continued!

Please give votes and comments if u like the update.