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Hope you guys remember me :P I got time, so I have written this update. Please don't expect good update. I don't know what I wrote and in which mindset I wrote. I hope you guys will like... I'm not sure about this update. Thanks for being here to read MY updates... I miss you... and I hope I will get same response and support as before...

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..Sri..

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"Khushi betiya..." Khushi looked at the door to see everyone of their families looking at her. She smiled a weak smile at them closing eyes in weakness. She looked around with fearful yet hopeful eyes, to see the particular person, whom she craves now, whom she wants beside her, whom she wants like her breath. A tear rolled down from her eyes not seeing him there. She closed her eyes again in pain, missing him much.

"Khushi..." she heard him calling her in low voice not to startle her, but enough for her to turn her head and look at him. She is lying on the bed, she looked like a living corpse. For a fraction of second, her eyes smiled at him before turning to panic remembering the happenings of their previous meets. She tried to get up, but her weakness is not helping her. She got up little bit and fell on the bed again. She looked around with fear in her eyes, worrying others. She couldn't decide how to feel around him. She feels happiness, hurt, pain, sadness and fear. She wants to forget everything but her heart couldn't. Her heart couldn't forget the truth that her Arnav ji mistrusted her, he left her when she needed him without hearing her or giving any chances for her to prove her innocence. She can easily understand whatever he did why he did. She can never be angry with him for his sudden proposal of marriage or forced marriage, because she can understand his love for his sister and the extents he would go for her happiness. But what she can't forget and forgive is the hurt and pain he caused her by mistrusting her after she told him the entire truth, the way he left her for her sufferings, the way he looked at her with hate filled eyes at the airport not trusting her. She can never forget or forgive... she closed her eyes more tightly. Her heart beating rapidly in fear, worry and pain

"Khushi" everyone came to her to help.

Arnav can see her getting panicked, rushed towards her and held her firmly

"Shh... Khushi... relax... please relax... don't get panic. Everything is okay now... I'm sorry please... relax. Please Khushi, don't get panic. It's not good for your health. Please... relax..." Arnav tried his best to make her calm.

But leaving him unsuccessful, she fell unconscious again... Arnav held her tightly when Akash ran to call the doctor. Seeing doctor, Arnav left Khushi reluctantly.

"Mr. Raizada... can you come here and hold your wife?" doctor asked, looking at Khushi's face.

Arnav gladly went to Khushi and held her tightly in his arms. Arnav immediately noticed Khushi getting stiff in his arms.

"Doctor... please check her... please..." Arnav called doctor.

"Sure... please come this side" doctor said and Arnav left Khushi and stood beside the doctor.

"Mr. Raizada, can you hold her hand again? I need to give injection" Doctor asked again, which Arnav obliged with confused eye. He held Khushi's hand and he knew she is still tensed. Doctor looked at both Arnav and Khushi.

"Nurse, you hold her hand, Raizada, you please stay out" Doctor said in stern voice surprising everyone.

Everyone left the room, seeing doctor giving some injections and testing Khushi.

"Doctor, is she fine?" Arnav asked doctor, when he saw doctor coming out from Khushi's room

"As long as her fears stay away... she will be fine" doctor said looking at Arnav

"What do you mean by that, doctor?" Mami asked

"I had my doubts when I treated her before. Now, my doubts are clarified. I know this will hurt Mr. Raizada badly, but this is the truth" doctor continued seeing Arnav's questioning glare. "She is scared of something and I'm sure you know the reason for her fears. You have to be careful whenever you are around her Mr. Raizada. I suggest you to stay away from her as much as possible, till she recovers completely"

"What do you mean by that?" Arnav asked

"She fears you Mr. Raizada... she is getting anxious whenever you are around her. She can feel your presence around her in her unconscious state too. She is getting worried with you around her. I don't know what the issue between you both, but she is getting scared and worried. I don't think she will be comfortable with you" Doctor said...

"How dare you? How dare you ask me to stay away from my Khushi? She needs me more than anything else or anyone else now. She won't be good if I'm not with her. In fact my absence in her life was the reason for her situation. What do you know about our relation? Huh? How can you suggest me that? How dare you?" tears rolled down Arnav's cheeks. His heart pained hearing Khushi scared of him and his absence helps her in recovery.

"Whatever it is Mr. Raizada... I said whatever I observed and whatever happening with Mrs. Raizada. She will be fine as much as you are away from her... please excuse me now..." saying that doctor left from there, leaving everyone in shocked.

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"Chote..."

"No nani... if she can feel me around her, then I'm sure, she can feel my apologies and love as well too. I can't stay away from her Nani. I already did a blunder doubting her. Not anymore..., I already harassed her enough. I know what she wants, she herself told me. Whatever happens, I will give her what she wants and what she deserves. If she really wants to stay away with me, then I will go. Only Khushi can decide on this. Not me, doctor or any other person. Till then I'm not going to leave her"

After that, Arnav too observed how much scared Khushi is around him. He felt tug in his heart seeing her like that. He felt killed seeing her painful weak face. He can see how much pain she is in. He cried silently for pushing her to this extent. He cursed his own self for doubting this pure soul. He apologised to her for leaving her in that situation, he asked forgiveness for not trusting her. He tried his best to push her fears away, though he is not successful. He is unable to understand how to mend the situation and the relation between them.

He knew he is selfish, but still he wants her, he needs her in his life. After reading her letter few days back, he realized how wrong he was. But the damage was done by then. He is repenting badly, but who will mend his deeds correct?

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"She is not coming with you. I don't allow you to take her with you. I will take her to our home" buaji words left Arnav shocked

"Buaji?"

"Enough babua... whatever she faced, enough for her life time. I thought you will look after her as you loved her. But I'm wrong... I don't want her with you"

"But she is my wife! How can you say that?" his heart beating in fear

"I very well can say that, after whatever you did. How can you babua? How can you doubt my Titaliya? Don't you know about her? I thought you understand her well, but I'm wrong... I'm wrong... I'm wrong all the time. I'm wrong when I allowed that man in our house. I'm wrong when I liked that man as my son. I'm wrong when I thought about marrying him with my Titaliya. I'm wrong when I forced her into this relation showing shashi's health. I'm wrong when she married you, thinking she disobeyed us. I'm wrong thinking she disrespected us. I'm wrong, I'm wrong all the time..." with that buaji broke down. Everyone cried with her realizing how unfair they are with Khushi. "But not anymore... i don't want to do any mistakes now. I will correct my doings. I will take her with me now and I will make sure she won't get any pain or fears come in her way. She won't come with you... I'm taking her with me..." buaji declared her decision

"Please buaji, don't say like that. Give me a chance to rectify my mistakes. I know whatever I did, it's difficult to mend. I know I almost kil... killed Khushi with my behavior. But please trust me this last time, give me a chance. Please buaji, I want Khushi in my life... I need her to live my life like a human being. I know I'm being selfish... but I can't help when it comes to Khushi. Please buaji... don't do this to me..." he is guilty for whatever he did. He wants to make every wrong as right. He sat on chair and closed his face in his palms to control his bubbling up emotions.

Their argument was stopped by sudden loud sound from inside... they rushed inside and shocked by the scene...

Khushi was lying on the floor looking at the door, from which they all are entered. Akash and Payal rushed towards her and made her sit on the bed carefully. Before they make her lie on bed, she held Payal's upper arm and shook little. She said something but no sound came from her. Khushi looked confused and week. She gestured with her hand as she trying to say something. But nothing came out. Payal, who is looking at her sister, burst into cries seeing her not able to talk. Getting worried, Khushi shook Payal vigorously. She felt her head spinning due to weakness. She leaned on Akash who is holding her securely. Khushi looked at him and pleaded him to answer her. Akash looked away not able to see their innocent Khushi in this condition.

Khushi looked at everyone in the room and noticed no one is meeting her eyes. She slowly stood and walked to Nani, buaji; asked them what's the matter by holding their upper arms and shaking them little, but they didn't say a word. Fear gripped her heart. She held left side of her chest and looked at everyone's worried faces. Then her eyes caught the person, who leaned on the wall looking at her while tears rolling down on his cheeks. Seeing Arnav in that condition, fear gripped her heart. She slowly walked to him and held his biceps and asked what's the matter with her face gesture. Not getting any answer from him too, she shook him holding his collar and collapsed in his hands getting unconscious yet again. Arnav lifted her securely in his arms and made her lie on bed. He couldn't see Khushi in this condition. He burst out crying holding her hand. Everyone felt miserable seeing Khushi like this. They felt horrible about the happenings in their lives.

That evening

"You are a strong girl my dear. I know that... whatever happened to you, is not at all a serious problem. It's just weakness you fainted. When you got faint, something hit your head which is causing and making you temporary dumb. For now you can't talk dear... but I'm sure, you will and can talk normally in few days. Can you remember or feel any pain in your head? Or in any part of yours?"

Khushi shook her head slowly in no, trying to grasp Doctor's words. After doctor explained, inreal lied few things about her health, making her relax knowing her condition is near to normal, but she needs rest. She smiled little thanking doctor for his service. Patting her head, Doctor left from there. He gave injection to Khushi for much needed sleep and left her.

"She is fine... As you all heard what I said to her, follow that. Make sure, you don't stress her or reveal anything to her. She needs to be kept in dark, till she becomes completely healthy. Having two minor attacks and one which is more than minor, is not good thing. Make sure, she stays relaxed and stress free. I will go now..." doctor left from there.

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After two days,

Payal, made Khushi wear her dress and combed her hair. Anjali helped her in eating her breakfast. Everyone looking at Khushi with so much love and sadness. Khushi stopped reacting to anyone of the family. She felt something wrong with her, she couldn't take theirs pitiful and sad eyes. To avoid any questions about her illness, she stopped talking with anyone, not knowing everything came out in front everyone like a morning sun. If she communicated with anyone means that person would be NK, who stood beside her in all the times. He made her relaxed and smile. He helped her having fruits and juices diverting her in talking. Whatever she says with her hand and head gestures, he understands clearly. Their friendship became strong in all these days. They became best friends forever.

Arnav came inside after completing her discharge formalities.

"Nani, Di... we can move now..." he said looking at Khushi.

"Is the car ready? I don't want Khushi to stand outside" said Anjali

"No need for the car, I already called the cab to take her" Buaji said, leaving everyone shocked "Don't look at me like that, I already said I'm taking Khushi with me. I won't allow her to stay with you all anymore. Whatever happened and whatever she faced is enough... it's enough for lifetime." Buaji said not meeting anyone's eyes. She felt bad saying all these, but she wanted to say. Otherwise, she can't take Khushi with her seeing the pleading eyes of Arnav.

"Bua ji... please... I beg you... please don't do this" Anjali pleaded folding her hands.

Arnav stood there looking at Khushi's non responsive figure. He slowly went towards her and try to make her stand. She held the bed not wanting to move. Arnav looked at her expressionless/emotionless face.

"Khushi...?!" he whispered. His voice is shivering with fear. "Please Khushi... don't... I can't..." he said looking into her eyes. But she didn't look at his eyes. He slowly left her and stepped back with tearful eyes, lower lip between teeth to control emotions.

Buaji who saw everything came front and held Khushi securely and tried to made her stand. But Khushi didn't move a bit.

"Titaliya...?" everyone along with Arnav and Buaji felt surprised and confused seeing her non responsive

Khushi slowly removed Buaji's hand from her and looked at her. Nodding her head, Khushi slowly walked to the empty side of the room opposite to all Raizada-s and Gupta-s, trying to show them what she wants.

"Khushi...?!!!" came Arnav's panicked voice, understanding her unsaid words... He moved towards her but she stepped backward leaving Arnav more worried. "No you can't leave us all and go damn it..." he shouted

But Khushi is serious about her decision. She nodded her head saying that's what she wants, prefer...

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..Sri..