Finally have part two of this Sara/Thea thingy out! Woo! Enjoy!

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I can't escape this hell
So many times I've tried
But I'm still caged inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself

When Sara came to visit her due to her blood lust problem, Thea didn't know what to think at first. For the longest time she had tried to ignore her own blood lust. It was easy most days, but still...it was inescapable. It was hell. She was an animal, trapped inside a cage. It was a nightmare.

So, the two sat on the roof, talking over their problems like a bunch of saps. Because Sara was the only one who understood Thea, and vise versa.

Thea hadn't had any major problems in a while, but she still felt the pull of the lust. Every day. It was getting harder and harder to control herself. For Sara it was even worse. She mentioned something about a death totem and almost killing her whole team.

"I couldn't control myself," Sara sighed, shaking her head. "And I don't think I can keep it locked away anymore. Not with this time demon running around. I just had to get away for a little while."

Thea nodded slowly. "It's rough," she agreed.

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one would ever change this animal I have become
And help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal
(This animal, this animal)

Thea shrugged."At least we have each other," she said. "And we're in the same boat, so it doesn't matter if you see the darkest side of me. Or vise versa."

Sara tilted her head to the side. "I guess so," she said quietly. Thea smiled at her lightly. She knew no one could ever tame this animal that was caged inside her. No one could change it. So, everyone just excepted it. No one judged her for the men that she had killed, when she was still on Team Arrow. No one judged Sara for the people she'd hurt, when she was in the League of Assassins. But still...they didn't know how hard it was.

"I guess having normal lives just wasn't in the cards for us," Sara said sadly. "I'm a monster. Death. The totem just proved that."

Thea wanted to tell her that wasn't true. That the blood lust didn't define her. This wasn't the real her. But Thea had been feeling the exact same thing. She was an animal. And no matter how many times she wished it was possible, no one could tame it.

I can't escape myself
(I can't escape myself)
So many times I've lied
(So many times I've lied)
But there's still rage inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself

Thea couldn't escape herself. She'd lied to herself so many times. She'd lied to her friends, to her family. But there was still a burning rage coursing through her veins. Whenever she passed strangers on the streets, she felt the urge to slit their throats, to jam the nearest sharp object into their chest. She longed to wrap her hands around their neck and squeeze until they stopped breathing. As far as anyone else knew, it was all over. The effects of the Lazerus Pit had officially worn off. But it wasn't true. It was just a lie she told them all to make them feel better. But the real reason she had left the team, the real reason she had retired from the vigilante business was because she wasn't sure she could control herself anymore. Every time she went on the field someone got badly injured or dead. She couldn't control herself. She couldn't escape the nightmare.

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one would ever change this animal I have become
And we believe it's not the real me

Thea wished she could help Sara feel better about her problems, but the truth was she couldn't. Not when she understood how much it sucked. When she understood that there was nothing she could do. Ignoring it didn't help. There was no way to fix it. Giving in wasn't an option. It was utterly hopeless.

Somebody help me tame this animal I have become
And we believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal

Maybe together they might be able to tame the animal. Someday Thea might even be able to believe that she was more than just a raging beast. That this wasn't truly her. But it seemed as though they had tried everything. Having hope that that day would ever come seemed completely pointless.

Somebody help me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
Somebody wake me from this nightmare
I can't escape this hell

Sara's nightmare was even worse. She'd been through so much more than Thea had. She had thought herself to be a monster, even before she'd come back from the dead. Thea wished she could help her get through this nightmare. She wished she had some magical answer to solve all her problems....but how could she save her friend, when she couldn't even wake up from this nightmare herself? They couldn't escape this hell...

(This animal, this animal, this animal
This animal, this animal, this animal, this animal)

The two women simply sat in silence, letting the others presence comfort one another. There was nothing they could do or say to fix things. So, the company was good enough. Maybe they couldn't get rid of the animal inside, they could never tame it. But for now the others friendship was enough.

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
And we believe it's not the real me

So what if Sara saw the darkest side of her? What if Thea saw the dark side of Sara? No one could ever change this animal raging inside. They'd become animals. But Thea had to believe it wasn't the true her. She had to believe it, even if she knew it wasn't true. Or else she just might lose her mind.

Somebody help me tame this animal I have become
And we believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal

Together, Sara and Thea would look for ways to tame the animal, to get rid of the monster for good. They'd have to. Neither could keep going like this. And who better to help tame the animal than someone who knows what it feels like? Even if it was a lost cause...

(This animal I have become)

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I was too lazy to edit, so let me know if there's any mistakes. Hope you enjoyed this two parter one shot!

That's all for now!

Toodles!

Elsie