Part 35:

He searched for her in library. After searching in all sections, he found her in the corner of the shelves looking for some books. He went to her and stood at her back. Leaning little towards her ear, almost touching her back with his front he whispered "Khushi...!!"

She turned back with fear and about to shout. Arnav immediately closed her mouth with his one hand and pinned her to nearby wall while holding her from her waist with another hand... His hard chest is pressing her soft curves. His one leg is in between her legs making her unable to move. But Arnav is not aware of his position. He also doesn't know what his position doing to Khushi.

"Shh... Shh... Khushi... it's me Arnav... don't shout. It's me... don't be scared. Relax..."

Seeing Arnav's face, she relaxed a bit. But when she remembered their position, she tried to move from his grip. Arnav is in no mood to leave her before he asks forgiveness. He tightens his hold on her waist and mouth. She shivered with his touch. She looked into his eyes.

"Relax... it's me... Arnav... I just want to talk with you. You are not going to shout when I take off my hand. Are you?"

She made a sigh with her eyes saying something.

"What? Why aren't you saying anything? Will you shout?"

She again made some sounds and sighed with her eyes

"What?"

She pushed his hand with force and said "How can I talk when you close my mouth? And can't you understand this much?"

"Oh... Ah... Umm..."

"What is it Arnav Ji? Are you ok?" she can notice the discomfort in him

"Ah... Umm... Khushi... I... I..."

"What you?"

"I... I just want to know that how you feeling now. I mean... are you fine?"

It irked Khushi a lot... She couldn't understand this man. Sometimes caring and sometimes angry and this irritated her like hell. She lost her patience and said

"If I'm not fine also, you no need to be concern. I can manage myself. I can take care of myself. You just relax..." Her words made his anger rose instantly. Before he says something he heard her saying again "I have to learn this, right? Nobody will be there with me, right? Nobody is going to help me, right? I will be alone all the time, right? I have to learn to take care of myself alone without YOUR help, right? You won't be there for me, right?" by hearing these words his anger come down immediately.

"Khushi... I didn't mean to..."

"What you didn't mean to....?" she pushed him hardly on his chest for which he looked unbelievingly at her.

"What you didn't mean to Arnav Ji...?" she pushed him hardly on his chest again. But this time he held her hands softly but firmly.

"Khushi I didn't mean in that way."

"How can you Arnav Ji...? How can you say those words? How can you say that you won't be there? How can you?" she cried holding his shirt tightly.

"I didn't mean in that way Khushi. I just want you to be careful all the time. I just want you to be more alert every time. I just want you to be strong all the time. I don't want you to be weak and dependent on any others"

"I know... I know what you meant. But Arnav Ji... how can you use those words? Do you have any idea how much those words hurt me? Do you have any idea how I felt these days? Do you have any idea how much lonely I felt these days? How can you say those words Arnav Ji? How can you?" she cried tightening her hold on his shirt while keeping her head on his chest.

Arnav couldn't see her tearing like this. He immediately hugged her tightly. He couldn't believe his words hurt his angel to this extent. He cursed himself. He promised to himself not to hurt her anymore.

He hugged her for some time, trying to sooth her by patting her back.

"I'm sorry sweet heart. I'm really sorry... it won't happen again. Please angel... Don't cry... shh... shh... please dear... I'm sorry... shh...." he said trying to calm her. "It won't happen again... calm down... relax... I'm sorry"

She looked at him breaking the hug with so much innocence in her eyes. He hated himself for letting the tears form in those beautiful innocent eyes of her.

"Really? Won't it happen again? I mean you will not talk like this, will you?" she asked innocently.

He cupped her face and looked deep into her tear filled eyes. He couldn't see her like this. He wiped her tears with his thumb. He gulped the lump formed in his throat, seeing her crying like this. He shook his head.

"It won't happen again dear. If I say also, you scold me or you shout at me or even you slap me. But please don't avoid me, don't stop talking with me and most importantly please don't cry like this. I can't bare tears in your eyes. It hurts me a lot Angel..."

She looked at him while fresh tears formed in her eyes with his much concern. Shaking his head he kissed her left eye saying sorry and he kissed her right eye saying one more sorry. After kissing her eyes and sucking her tears, he kissed her cheeks muttering sorry. He brought her more close to him. His hands are still cupping her face in a protective way.

"I'm sorry Khushi... I didn't mean to hurt you. I just wanted you to be a strong girl. I just wanted you to be the girl, who can face the world with utmost confidence. I didn't mean what I said. I'm sorry"

"I understood what you mean Arnav Ji... but those words you used..." she couldn't control her tears.

"Shh... I said I am sorry... I won't repeat it again. Please don't cry..."

She looked into his eyes with lots of hope as asking 'you won't say those words, will you?'

"How can you think that I can and will let you go away from me Khushi? How can you think that I don't want you in my life? How can you think that I don't want to spend my whole life with you? How can you think my life doesn't depend on you? You are my Angel... you are special... you are the only one special person in my life. You are different... you are innocent... you are pure... I don't want anybody spoil these qualities. I don't want anybody come near you. Just remember YOU ARE MINE... just mine... I don't spare anybody near you except Aman, Akash, NK, your dad and your brother. Remember..."

She felt overwhelmed with joy with his indirect confession. She doesn't know how to react. Her eyes filled with happy tears while a smile adoring her face. She looked at him with lots of joy and hope in her eyes.

Seeing the joy and hope in her eyes and her quivering lips with effect of controlling her happy tears, he, unable to control himself bent his head lower to catch her lips. But before that he looked into her eyes asking permission. When she closed her eyes with anticipation, he took that gesture of her as 'yes' and took her lips in a sensible kiss. His one hand moved to her back of neck to position her to comfortable posture for their kiss, not making her feel discomfort. His other hand moved to her waist, to keep her close to his body not letting her to go. He deepened his kiss little after not finding any repentance from her side. Unable to control himself and urge to taste her more he bit her lower lip.

"Sss... Ahhh..." she hissed in pain and pleasure.

He is ASR... he is the best in using the opportunities he gets. Whatever the situation is... he is the best. Same like that he used this chance too... he used her pleasurable helplessness and entered his tongue in to her sweet mouth. He tasted every corner of her. He waited for her to kiss him back. He tightened his grip on her waist and neck as asking her to kiss him back. She hesitated for few moments and started kissing him back. He knew this is her first kiss. Hell... not only for her in fact for him also. He never felt this urge for any girl. He felt proud of himself for being her first and making her his first. They kissed for few more moments. They broke their kiss to breathe the required air. They are panting heavily while their foreheads attached to each other. Both of their eyes are closed.

"You are mine... only mine... remember this..." he whispered

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"Arnav... Khushi... where are these two? Long time back they both came here. But where are they now?"

Their trance broke with the voice of Aman, who is searching for them. They looked at each other intently still in hugging position. Arnav's one hand is at back of her neck and other at her waist pressing her to him. Her hands are clutching his collar tightly while pressing her chest to his. When they both observed their position, they left each other immediately and stepped back. Arnav looked around to find someone watching them.

"Thank god... nobody is here" he said looking at Khushi.

She looked everywhere but him. She felt her heart beat rising into abnormal pace seeing him nearing to her. He can see her cheeks gaining a deep red colour which adored her more. A small smile on her lips, her down casting eyes and blushing cheeks – my beautiful Angel – he thought.

"Khushi..." he called with his husky voice sounding huskier.

She shivered hearing her name in his voice. 'Is his voice every time this huskier or am I feeling only now?' she thought.

"Khushi..." he called her again.

"Hmm..."

"What did you do to me Khushi? How can you make me lose my control? Haa... tell me... Angel... How can you..." he was stopped by Aman

"Arnav... Khushi... you guys are here? We are searching for you everywhere. What are you doing here for this long?" asked Aman in response gaining a deadly look from Arnav.

"What? Why are you looking at me angrily? What have I done?"

"Nothing..."said Arnav and turned to Khushi and said "I'm sorry Khushi for whatever I said. I didn't mean to hurt you. I just..."

Khushi and Aman looked at Arnav, shocked but with different reasons.

'Is he really apologising to Khushi?' thought Aman.

'After all what happened between us, he went back to start and apologising to me?' thought Khushi. She looked into his eyes with confusion.

Understanding her doubt, Arnav gestured her towards Aman with his eyes which she understand exactly. She knew he won't like to share their private moment with others. Nodding her head she bent down to collect her books for which both Arnav and Aman helped her.

"Thanks" she said

"Choti... are you ok? Did you guys fight again?" asked Aman

"What the!!!"

"No Bhai... we didn't. I was just tensed when I saw him here. That's all. Any way I need to go now. I'm already late to class. I will meet you later. Bye...," saying this she excused herself and went out from library, but not before looking back at Arnav, who is waiting for her to turn back. He smiled heartily which is noticed by Aman.

"I think your apology accepted Arnav."

Arnav smiled happily and hugged him tightly.

"Yes... she accepted. Thank you Aman... thank you for making me understand the value of sorry. And most importantly, saying sorry directly. Now I can understand her completely. Now I know how she feels for what. Thank you so much Aman... thanks a lot..."

"No need for that Arnav. We are friends. And I thought I should help you as I'm the elder one. As I'm elder and matured one than you I feel it's my responsibility to lead you in correct way. So..., I said what I should. That's all. Anyway, I'm happy that you guys cleared things between you. And one more suggestion... she accepted your sorry, but that doesn't mean you can do or say anything to her and ask her apology and she will accept. Don't lose her Arnav... she is an..."

"Angel... My Angel..." continued Arnav.

Aman smiled and nodded his head patting Arnav's shoulder.

"Yes... she is indeed an Angel. YOUR Angel... come let's go... it's time for classes. Come. We will meet her later," saying this he led Arnav to their classes.

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She couldn't believe she kissed him. He kissed her... They kissed each other... A deep red came to her cheeks remembering their mind numbing kiss. She bit her lower lip to control her shyness.

'Hey Devi Mayya... how can I go in front him again? How can I see his face directly again? How can I face him with this shyness?' thought Khushi.

She performed well in her class today. She felt herself in very happy mood. Thanks to that particular Lad Governor. When she entered in college she is so nervous about what everyone asks her about her injuries. But thanks to Payal, who told everybody when they entered the class room that she met with a small accident. But after that also she is felt so tensed. Not felt actually she is still feeling tensed. Her thoughts got disturbed by Payal's tap on her shoulder.

"What's wrong Khushi? From morning onwards I'm seeing you. You are looking so tensed. What happened? Are you fine? Or are you in pain? Should I inform Arnav Ji?" asked Payal

"No... Payal... thank you... I'm fine. I'm feeling just restless. No need to inform him. Otherwise he will make this a big issue. Anyway I'm hungry now. Let's go and eat" saying this she led Payal to canteen, successfully avoiding her questions.

"You sit here. I will go and bring the food for us. You relax..." Payal went leaving Khushi alone and letting her drown into her pool of thoughts.

When Khushi playing with the glass of water and thinking about today's counter attacks and events, suddenly her eyes got wide remembering his words

"You are my Angel... you are special... you are the only one special person in my life. I don't want anybody come near you. Just remember YOU ARE MINE... just mine... I don't spare anybody near you except Aman, Akash, NK, your dad and your brother. Remember..."

'Did he call me Angel? His angel?' she questioned herself. Her heart raced in high speed with a memory of a conversation flashed in her mind

"NO... I'm not... Sorry"

"What you are not?"

"I'm not yours. I'm someone else's"

"NO you can't be... you are mine that is all"

"Sorry to say... but it is true... I'm already in love with my angel. I can't lose her anyway. Sorry"

"You are joking right? Please tell me the truth..."

"Look Sneha... I don't know what made you love me. But I'm not meant for you. I'm deeply in love with my Angel. So better you should drop from your feelings" messaged Arnav

"Oh shut up you devil. How can you say that I should drop? Who gave you right on me? It is my heart my feelings... you don't have any right to ask me to stop my feelings. I'm serious about you. I love you and I will... you made me cry today... I hate you... but still I couldn't stop loving you..."

'That means... I'm his Angel... he was talking about me... ME... Oh my God... what a fool I'm... I thought he loves other girl. I even thought he loves that... that... Sheena. But I'm his girl... his Angel. Oh My God...' she thought.

She is smiling like a crazy girl. 'Can't he say directly... that I love Khushi...? Lad Governor kahike...' she thought. She couldn't stop her happiness. She looked around her to spot the particular man. But she couldn't. But she saw some people looking at her craziness. Immediately her smile dropped and she smiled sheepishly at them and bent her head down. She kept her hands on table and her head on her hands. Therefore nobody can see her face. After keeping her face down she started smiling. She got tears in her eyes due to smiling non-stop.

Payal, who is coming back from kitchen, saw Khushi sitting with her head down and may be 'wait... is she crying?' thought Payal. She ran instantly to Khushi, kept her lunch on the table and came to Khushi's side. At the same time all their friends too came there. They got surprised to see Payal running to the table where Khushi sat with her head down and may be 'wait... is she crying?' they thought and ran to her.

"Khushi... Khushi... are you ok? Why are crying?" asked Payal.

Hearing her friend's terrified voice Khushi looked at her and nodded her head in no.

"Payal... I'm fine. Don't worry. And I'm not crying. What made you think like that?" asked Khushi

"Choti... your head is bent down and your shoulders are moving. And you have... tears in your eyes. What happened?" asked Aman.

Then only she realised the tears.

"Oh... these are nothing. I'm sorry to make you all worry. I'm fine."

Suddenly Arnav came to her side and asked with so much concern

"Khushi... tell me the truth. Are you really ok? Are you in any pain? Tell me... shall I take you to the hospital?"

"No... No.. I'm fine actually..."

"Then what about those tears in your eyes, Khushi Ji..."

"Oh... these are Khushi ki aasoon NK Ji..."

"Yeah we know... Khushi ki aasoon. If those are in my eyes then they will be NK ki aasoon, right? But still, Khushi Ji... why are you crying?"

Khushi slapped her forehead and said... "I'm not crying... in fact I'm smiling like hell. That's why I got these happy tears in my eyes" she said sheepishly.

Everybody looked at her unbelievably.

"Sorry..." she said with a pout.

"Unbelievable... if you are smiling then why your head is bent down?" asked Akash.

"Everybody here is looking at me like I'm a crazy girl. But I couldn't stop smiling. So I chose best option."

"You are indeed a crazy girl Khushi. You almost took our breath out. I almost got heart attack thinking that what would have happened to you" shouted Payal. She sat beside Khushi feeling relaxed.

"Sorry Payal... I didn't mean to make you guys tensed. Actually I'm very happy that I couldn't control my happiness. So..." she looked very innocent to others.

Payal hugged her seeing her innocent face. Everybody sat there to have their lunch.

"So... tell me Choti... what made you this much happy? That you couldn't control your smile" asked Anjali.

"Nothing Di... I'm happy because Payal helped me in answering people's questions about my injuries and I performed well in my class for what my sir appreciated me. And I think today is really a good day for me..." she finished her line looking at Arnav who is smirking at her.

She controlled her blush and smiled at him along with others. Everybody smiled and had their lunch together.

...to be continued