WHITE LIES IN YOUR ARMS TONIGHT!
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EREN JAEGER ∕ FEM OC

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ARAMINTA HAD THREE QUESTIONS SHE'D liked to be answered before she died. One, as a lover of flowers, Araminta is dying to know which flower has the best smell; two, what the fuck are Titans, anyway, (and why are they so ugly); and three, what does it mean to love someone? The first two were very crucial to know, of course, but it was the last one that was the most important to her.

For a long time she thought she knew the answer when she looked to her parents, with their heads on each other's shoulders as they sat on the couch, and their hands laced together as they walked in front of her. But as she got older, it became much more apparent how they had fallen out of love, maybe even before she had been born. The two of them loved Araminta though, and they loved her older sister Marina.

But since the day Wall Maria fell, since she watched her father's guts spill onto the cobblestone pathways of Shiganshina District as a completely clueless, stupid, ugly Titan crush him under his ugly foot, and since she heard her sister's helpless cries for help as she was plucked from a crowd of people like a flower from a huge garden, then heard her bones crushed between a Titan's rotting teeth, she hadn't felt the warmth that came with love.

Yes, her mother had survived alongside her. She had been the one to drag her small, numb body through the city, she was the one whose sobs would haunt her memories for the next four years. But, Araminta would say she lost her mother that day, too. From then on, she became only a shell of herself, a ghost of who she once was. Deep, deep down in her empty body, Araminta believed her mother still loved her, and still loved Marina and her father. She just didn't have it in herself to allow herself to remember the pain that came with loving them.

Joining the training corps was an easy decision. Araminta was young, she was healthy, and she really didn't have much else going on for her. Plus, it would be a great way to answer one of her big questions--what are Titans? So, at 12 years old, she joined the training academy to become a soldier, leaving her hollow skeleton of a mother behind to eventually die in the small apartment they once shared.

Eren Jaeger was... Weird. Yeah, weird. Never in her life had Araminta met someone with so much pent up anger, someone so passionate about something. The raging fire that burned inside of him attracted Araminta like she was a measly moth drawn to his flame. Eren loved his mother, he loved Mikasa, and he loved his friends. He loved what he fought for. And maybe, just maybe, he could help Araminta to answer her third and most important question.

The Battle of Trost was the day she once again saw the titans, the day she saw friends from her own class get slaughtered like cattle and the day she heard the horrifyingly familiar sound of their bones being shattered and their murderous crowd echoing, was the day she remembered what it was like to be scared, and fearful. But, it was also the day she was reminded what it felt like to have hope. A Titan was on their side, and for the first time since the Titans had spawned onto Earth, the humans could claim victory.

Eren Jaeger was weird, definitely, but he gave Araminta hope for a future where her questions could be answered. All she needed was to survive long enough to see that future, long enough to love someone and have that love returned.

Araminta Holm
XV. Shiganshina. Scorpio. INTJ.

Playlist.

I. Arms Tonite ━━ Mother Mother.
II. Warriors ━━ 2wei & Edda Hayes.
III. Fearless ━━ Taylor Swift.
IV. A Pearl ━━ Mirski.
V. I Know the End ━━ Phoebe Bridgers.
VI. I Can't Handle Change ━━ Roar.
VII. Call of Silence ━━ Hiroyuki Sawano.
VIII. The Scientist ━━ Coldplay.
IX. Black Mambo ━━ Glass Animals.
X. Baby Come Home━━ The Neighborhood.
XI. Little Lion Man ━━ Mumford & Sons.
XII. Violent Delights ━━ Chvrches.
XIII. All I Ask ━━ Adele.
XIV. Red Swan ━━ Yoshiki.
XV. Glory and Gore ━━ Lorde.
XVI. Haunted ━━ Taylor Swift.
XVII. Line W/O a Hook ━━ Ricky Montgomery.
XVIII. Almost Home ━━ mxmtoon.

AUTHORS NOTE      wow 😍 this is my second time taking this fic down to edit it jsjsjsjsj that's what happens when it takes u 2 1/2 years to finish something !!! you come back and there's more changes to be made !! i love this fic though so much it's my baby and araminta is my daughter so i hope you enjoy reading <333

DISCLAIMER      i don't own attack on titan or any of the characters in it. i just own my own original characters and the plot lines i create. all the graphics in this story were created by me, but the coloring belongs to jungrainsoul on deviantart!!

WARNINGS     this story will contain mature themes such as graphic depictions of violence and death, strong language, abuse, depictions of ptsd and depression, some brief talks about suicide, and more, so read at your own risk !!!