Yea the winners were announced.. My mutuals were in the honorable mentions.. I wasn't...

None of my mutuals who took part in it acknowledged mine. They ignored me and praised others for theirs.. It's okay.. Really it is..

Hovering my finger over the deactivate account button on twitter just to feel something.. Honestly I may seem like I appreciate the people I've only met on Twitter but not as much anymore. Fuck this shit. And fuck them.. Levis, Beep Boop, and a couple others are the only people I appreciate a lot.

I feel like my hard work had gone so unnoticed.. I worked really hard.. I know everyone also has, but still. It kinda breaks me.. I don't know.. But honestly the winner was pretty amazing.

I'm self doubting myself again.. I keep getting into art block too many times. Is a career for art even for me anymore..? No matter how hard I work and how much effort I put in, basically nothing happens at the end, my luck was always like that. There are times that I have confidence in myself, but moments like now.. Not so much.

Wow.. Now I actually know how it feels to be mentally drained by that bird app~