At the end of it all, there is an odd calmness
A hope that this silence is not volatile
A hope that the emotional turmoil is dealt with
A hope that this is the calm after the storm

So many things I thought would never happen to me
They have all happened to me.
From my fears and weakness came the events
That led to my fear becoming true.

I cannot remember how I felt before; I do not wish to.
I do remember how he felt before;
Perhaps that is why his present conclusion
Is so confusing.

I do not know what to think
I do not know what to feel
I do not wish to have fun
I simply wish to make the most of my time.

I wish to apologise to myself
For being so hard on myself.
Learn from the pain you feel,
And be glad that you have existed.

Try to become your best self
Try to be good to everyone
Try to be wonderful to those you love
And be wonderful to yourself.

Now you're sure that you do not know
What the future holds.
You simply must do the best you can
With all that comes to you.

You gave him all of your love
And he seemed to love you too.
He is a good person, perhaps once confused,
And despite your mistakes, you are good too.

Remember to learn from this,
Remember to become a better person.
Remember to move ahead in life, and,
Be brave.