My name is Eros Corciato, one of the humans that occur to be born in the 21st century, the plainest and most boring century, where you are not able to conquer earth because it has already been conquered, nor conquer and discover the universe because our technology is yet primal. It is quite understandable because we are level 0 on the Kardashev scale, basically neophytes.
I wish that one day, we, as in the human race, collectively step up our game and level, stop fighting over silly matters, like pieces of land and political issues, and follow the true and golden purpose of our beings which is seeking scientific development, creating utopia on earth and the conquest of the universe while unfolding its mysteries, and the mystery of our existence as a whole, true left Accelerationism. But with our NPC (non-playable character ) mentality I highly doubt that one day, we will miraculously lose our egos and greed for power and status in general.

I lost hope in humanity, which is why I do not identify as a human being anymore, I am an Übermensch. There is no common or tangible meaning to life, that is why  I made my own.

Daily I seek mental and physical perfection. Some might disagree with me and say that perfection doesn't exist or that it is relative, or say something even worse, which is that 'we are perfect the way we are and we don't have to seek constant change. WRONG, you should always be BEAST, a hungry fiend when it comes to accumulating knowledge or becoming physically strong, fit, and beautiful.

After all Socrates, one of the founders of ancient philosophy said that "It is a shame for a man to grow old without seeing the beauty and strength of which his body is capable"

Following what dear Socrates said you should consider that your body and mind are a big piece of marble, ready to be shaped, and you are the sculptor, NOT any random renaissance sculptor, you should consider yourself as Michel-Ange, your work should be perfect, optimal and not taken lightly, it is your duty and the work of your life after all.

Your marble stone shall turn into Michelangelo's DAVID, a chef d'œuvre that any other sculptor, artist, or art enjoyer would stand in awe while admiring it. Each piece of information you add to your brain and each workout will add definition and detail to your presence as a whole. After all, what is the point of living if you're just sitting there doing nothing, not trying to better yourself in many fields and enjoying life to the fullest? Don't get me wrong, I have got no hate towards the people who do nothing, it is just that I want you to be like me. You should know that you live once, so when you lay on your deathbed, you might regret being constant like an object. 

The thought of death excites and terrifies me at the same time. That is because I am too fond of myself to imagine a world without me existing in it. After all, I feel like I am the center of the world l, yet at the same, I think that at the same time knowing that I could die at any moment frees me to enjoy everything from science to art, physical activities to sleep, pain to pleasure to the fullest. Enjoy everything like a child who is curious to try everything for the first time, interested in everything in his entourage.

Although sometimes I feel like our lives aren't real, we could be living in the matrix or something like that, or I am already dead and DMT is kicking in my head and organism, making me relive memories of my already complete life story.

Speaking of this, I have been reading about this interesting thesis, called the "Boltzman Brain". Boltzmann states in this that there is a chance that a quantum brain could arise due to random fluctuations of spacetime, out of thin air and it being full of fake memories.  Even if it happening is very remote, it is still possible that I am right now living a false life, or even worse, Botlzman says that this brain could arise as a hypothetical entity, and the chance of this entity creating our universe is most likely higher than the universe creating itself randomly without a creator, thus we could have been created by this hypothetical entity, and we could be living in his brain or his dreams, quoting H.P Lovecraft's creation, the idiot god Azathoth. This particular entity is sleeping and his dream manifests itself as us, the universe, and its components.

Azathoth is sleeping because of his mindless flute and drum players, if he somehow wakes up we will all cease to exist, the universe will collapse and everything will disappear as it has never happened before. Perhaps I should stop, or else you will be having an existential crisis because of me. Life in general is quite logical and boring, but I prayed every day for the past 10 years that one day something chaotic would happen to us on earth, something spicy enough to the point it would flip the world, like an apocalypse, or a rare cosmic event that would ruin humanity and show its true nature.

I kept praying and manifesting these thoughts while I was laying on my bed, zoning out into an unknown realm inside my mind. Until I heard something moving in my room,  so I quickly jumped out of my bed and turned on the lights...