Noah’s P.O.V- Losing All Control (LOL)

I finished washing all of the bubbles from Wesley’s small body, trying desperately not to disturb him as I did so, but when I pulled the plug from the bath I realised it’d be rather difficult to get him out of the bath safely. Just a small note to myself for the future though, never… ever agree to a joint bath again. I’m going to need an ice-cold shower now, thanks to him. My main priority right now is to get him out, dry and warm. I’m never going to force him to do anything… as much as I want to, I refuse to persist the issue. It’s up to him, whenever he wants to take that step further.

    I cradled him securely in my arms and then attempted to stand… oh boy, bubbles… bubbles are slippery… concentrate. It’s funny this, I’m telling myself to concentrate with a super sexy guy in my arms… totally naked. Brave move, Noah. Okay… step… step… I almost lost my balance and then glanced at his angelic face as he slept soundly, cuddling into my chest. I whispered playfully smirking.

     “This is your fault, you evil human.” I lifted my leg over the side of the bath to the floor and quickly brought the other one over, stumbling slightly but catching my balance…. ahaha! I’m awesome. Okay… towels. I scanned the area and found a white robe… that’ll do. I pulled it free from the hook and draped it around Wesley as best I could… I’m going to have to make a break for it to his parents’ room before everyone catches sight of me… that’s a horrible thought. I pulled open the door, pulled the robe up on Wesley a little more and glanced up and down the hall. Okay… go! I bolted from the bathroom and made it into the bedroom, slamming the door. This is too exhausting and now… that bed looks so comfy. I walked over to it and gently placed Wesley down, covering him up.

 He stretched and rolled over with a small sigh. In that moment I felt my heart jerk slightly… crouching down, I gazed at him. I am so confused with all of these emotions… he makes me feel too much at once and it’s frightening. How can one human being do that? It’s incredible… I love feeling like this, not knowing or understanding it… every moment is like a precious gem that I want to contain in my heart forever. I’m not too disappointed by the fact that I only managed to bite his toe… I’d have liked more, of course, I’m a guy… but somehow I’m satisfied. It’s so strange…

      “All it took was you. I feel so complete even after losing so much.” Upon standing, I smoothed his hair and kissed the top of his head. Dammit, he smells so good. I’m definitely finding that shampoo and taking the fucking lot. I climbed over him, then got into bed, going right behind him and embracing him gently. I rested my hands on his lower stomach, running my fingers over it as a form of comfort. It kinda soothes me somehow, I used to do it to myself as a kid… stroking my tummy. It’s a weird habit.  

Wesley turned his head and looked at me,"I forgot to say goodnight."He said tiredly. I gave him a sleepy smile, kissing his nose.

          “You don’t have to worry about that. Just sleep, and I’ll keep all of the monsters away.” I smoothed my hand over his back gently.

 "I love you."He rolled back over and fell asleep again. I pulled him into me as close as I possibly could, hugging him tightly, whispering in his ear.

     “I love you, too. Goodnight.” I pecked his cheek gently. Just between us… I think I’d allow him to call me Will… mainly because it’d feel special as no-one else would ever dare to do it. I am slowly warming up to it because of the way Wesley says it… it sends shivers down my spine. On these thoughts, I found myself drifting off to a peaceful sleep… drowning in that wonderful smell.

The following morning

      I groaned as that annoying ball of gas made itself known by hitting my eyelids with a violent burst of light. I turned over and pulled the duvet over my head, then groaned louder when I heard a familiar, yet somehow comforting, routine.

     “ISAAC! Even in an apocalypse, COME ON!”

  I heard a cruel laughter and a light response.

     “Not fast enough, Izzy. Are you sure you’re not infected?”

  I chuckled… I love my brother and sister and I had taken it for granted. Whereas this would have literally angered me, once upon a time… now I found it soothing. I sighed in contentment.

"Why the sunlight."I heard Wesley complain then he sat up ,"Zayne what time is it."

"Eight!"we heard from down stairs. I couldn’t help but murmur tiredly.

   “So lively… I need sleep or I’m dead.” Right at that moment the bedroom door burst open and a familiar, girly shriek bellowed in complaint.

    “NOAH, do something about that retarded brother of ours! He’s hogging the bathroom again and it’s not even his house!”

    “Oh dear god! Will you stop… go and wash your hair in the sink or something.” I chuckled peeping out of the duvet. Then she blushed, as she realised she’d burst in without knocking.

     “I don’t even WANT to know what you two did last night.” Then she stalked out of the room, slamming the door. I sighed and sat up, realising myself that I wouldn’t get back to sleep now. I wrapped my arms around Wesley’s stomach and rested my chin on his shoulder.

     “Well good morning, sexy.”

  "Turns out mornings are never going to be pleasant again."He sighed and looked at me then slipped off the mattress and wrapped the robe around himself."I need clothes which means i need to kick Allison and... no wait...." He walked out and knocked on the bathroom door."Isaac get out of the bathroom now and let Isabella in!" He shouted. Then turned and started to his room. From the bathroom, Isaac’s voice echoed as he screamed in protest.

      “I’m having a piss! You want me to piss on your lovely carpet out there? I don’t think so.” I couldn’t help but laugh… I think mornings will be perfect.

    "Piss outside dog."Wesley laughed,"who's cooking?!"

   "I am."Zayne said.

   "Good at least I know you won't burn the house down." I don’t know why but when I heard that, I got a mental flash of my house on fire, but instantly shook the image from my mind. If I thought on that, I’d have to think about my parents… and I can’t right now. I’m definitely going to have to ask how Bella and Isaac had gotten separated from them, at some point. I quietly got out of bed, and glanced around… clothes? Oh no… I grabbed the sheet off of the bed and wrapped myself in it as I went in search of my bag. Isaac stepped from the bathroom then, a towel around his waist. I frowned.

      “Isaac… dude, put clothes on, I don’t want to see that this early in the morning.”

       “Don’t cry, Noah. Besides, Allison does.” I shook my head… he’s fifteen! I grabbed him before he walked off and sniffed his hair.

        “Okay… that shampoo has lost all of its erotic smell, thanks a lot.” I shoved him playfully as he gave me a wink, then stalked back to the other room.

   A second later I heard,"Isaac get out of my room!." Wesley shoved him out shirtless he had black skinny jeans on. "Go change in the downstairs door nob." Isaac flipped him off and frowned.

     “Don’t shout at me, last time I checked Allison was in here! God! I thought gay people were supposed to be nice!” He huffed walking passed me… I could only watch the activities in awe. However, I managed to call to Isaac cheerily and with a smile showing my teeth.

     “I’m nice!”

      “No, you’re a jerk!” Isaac called back. What a mean little shit.

      Now… where is my stupid bag of clothes?  (You)

 "Noah your clothes are in my room."Wesley called and walked back in his room.'i am not a morning person.' He sighed. I mentally chuckled ‘I noticed.’ I walked toward his bedroom and lightly knocked on his door, calling out quietly.

        “It’s me.”

  "Come in."He said, he had that odd grey shirt on."He looked at me,"were going to have to figure a way to run this place." I walked in and instantly found my bag, approaching it I nodded, and pulling out a black shirt and red t-shirt, I turned and shrugged.

       “I lived like this for a long time. It’s quite funny. I mean we’re all safe, kind of… I agree I need to tone Isaac and Bella down a little. I feel I should say sorry.” I turned back to my bag and pulled out some black skinny jeans and underwear, then began to get dressed.

 "It's fine."He sighed,"it's just I'm worried. They are attracted to loud noises." He looked up. I fastened my belt then pulled on my t-shirt, I’d forgotten about that… I need to be more responsible now. I can’t keep expecting my mom and dad to calm them down now… I lowered my head and responded, heading for the door.

      “It’s okay, don’t worry. I’ll handle it. You need some breakfast.” I stood on the landing and shouted not too loudly, but loud enough for two rowdy teenagers to hear.

     “Isaac, Bella… I need a word, now!”

Wesley kissed my cheek then ran down stairs. Isaac and Bella came up the stairs together, looking innocent. I found myself struggling a little… I’m their brother, not their father. How would I even go about this? They folded their arms together and Isaac asked me.

       “What is it?”

   I became slightly nervous…

       “You both need to calm down.” Bella dropped her arms and frowned at me.

       “What do you mean? We are calm.”

        “No, Bella I mean this morning shit, it’s got to stop. It’s really getting out of hand.” I looked at her feeling guilty. Isaac stepped up to me a little.

        “It wasn’t a problem before though?”

        “We weren’t in danger before, idiot! Have you forgotten what’s out there?”

       “Well excuse us for wanting to add a bit of normal to our lives again! Cut us some slack will you, we’ve lost our parents, we’re scared… so forgive us if this is how we handle it! Come on, Izzy.”

    I watched them walk away holding hands, and I panicked chasing after them.

     “Where are you both going, it’s suicide if you leave here? Besides, you’re my only family… I need you here with me!”

      “No, we were trying to make things seem okay and normal, but you’re just that boring older brother that never belonged in our family to begin with!”

      Wow… well that’s embarrassing… I glanced around the kitchen, feeling really small. I’m three years older than these two!

  Wesley walked up,"that was a shitty thing to say. plus we’re in this together, and the fact that he's only worried for your well being."  He sighed, and glared at them,"You two may think you're the only ones who are scared, but you're not. I am, so is everyone else, this is not a time to be oblivious if someone tells you something to do."

       Wesley turned and walked away.

       "Listen to Wesley you two."Zayne said softly,"he's right."

  I couldn’t believe that Isaac and Bella were behaving in this way… I mean what am I supposed to do? I couldn’t even bring myself to look at them after that remark. At least now I knew how they really felt about me. Bella turned to Zayne then and smiled softly.

       “Fine, we’ll be quiet.”

   Okay seriously, what the fuck? I’m their brother and they listen to Zayne… that’s how little they think of me. That actually hurts. I shook my head, fighting with myself to not cry right now, and turned on my heel, leaving. Isaac’s tone carried across the room though, and as I was walking up the stairs I heard.

       “I’ll be looking after Izzy. Noah isn’t capable of even looking after himself.”

   My brother is a jerk.

  "Isaac."Wesley said,"say another word and I'm shoving you in the walk in freezer."  He ran up beside me and took my hand,"I'm sorry." I let out a small sigh and shrugged.

    “It’s not your fault. I think everyone is feeling the pressure of the harsh reality, and I’m an easy target where Isaac and Bella are concerned. Don’t worry, I’m okay.” I smiled slightly, looking at our hands, smoothing my thumb over the back of his.

He smiled up at me and smiled softly,"come on we can go to my room." He said. I nodded glancing behind me, the sound of laughter echoing from the kitchen. Typical… they don’t even feel the least bit remorseful. Am I that bad a big brother? I followed Wesley to his room and asked quietly.

      “What exactly do you have in mind, Wesley?” I chuckled.

    "I'm craving  chocolate and i have a stash in my closet."he smiled,"plus I wanted to cuddle." We got to his room and once inside, I closed the door. My wonderful little tease strikes again. I lowered my head in slight disappointment, but quickly shook myself out of it.

      “Well it’s always nice to cuddle. And if that lot find out about your stash of chocolate, it’d be gone in seconds.” I smiled, sitting on his bed. (Youououou :D

 "My chocolate!"he hissed playfully. Then threw me a chocolate bar."only my squishy gets one." He jumped on his bed with me. I held it in my hand and after eying it briefly, I brought my attention to him and questioned in amusement.

      “I’m squishy? Should I be offended?” I lay back a little, resting my head on the headboard smiling at him.

  "Nope William."he smiled cutely,he opened his chocolate and started nibbling on it. I watched him quietly, and then set my chocolate to the side. It’s strange… not watching Wesley eating chocolate, that’s not strange… but, all of these feelings and emotions just for one person. It’s like… nothing else matters. I’m really glad that I went back for him in school… I’d probably be a vicious demon type thing, still answering to orders from Finlay. I smiled and subconsciously spoke.

       “Thank you.”

  "I love you."he responded with a smile,"something bad is going to happen."he said looking out the window.(You :)

     I brought my attention to the outside too, and even though the sun was shining and it looked like a beautiful day… I understood.

           “You felt it too? What should we do?”

"The twins don't listen, but my brother and Allison do."he sighed, and stood up. He walked to the window."look zombies..." I got up from the bed and joined him at the window, taking in the hundreds of zombies making their way toward the house. I shut my eyes slowly, those stupid twins. I thought to myself in disappointment. I kept my eyes on their limping bodies as I spoke quietly.

       “We need to gather up supplies and get out of here, fast.” (You

"Yeah."he turned on his heel and ran out of the room and down stairs,"Zayne, Allison gather food now..twins gather clothing." I walked down the stairs too watching as Allison and Zayne shot up from their places in the kitchen, ripping food from the cupboards rapidly. Isaac and Bella still sat at the kitchen table… this is enough. I’ve had enough. I boiled with anger as I snapped harshly.

     “Isaac, Isabella you’ve been asked to get some clothes, now fucking do it! Or we’ll leave you behind!”

     “Relax will you? They’re zombies… they’re not going to run fast.” Isaac grinned, eating a piece of toast. I literally growled and marched over to him, slapping the toast from his hand and shouted.

      “I’ll leave you here, I swear to god. Now GET THE FUCK UP!”

       “You’re not my dad, Noah! I don’t have to listen to you!”

I grabbed his shirt then and pulled him from his seat, earning a gasp from Bella as my anger became worse.

        “Thank fuck for that, because if I was your father, you’d be getting a belt across your face. Mom and dad are dead, so as the ONLY person who actually has a say over your well being, I am ordering you to move your lazy stubborn arse, get some clothes… AND DO IT WITH A FUCKING SMILE!”

   I shoved him back from me, and stared him down until he finally took Bella’s hand and headed up the stairs to get clothes. I let out a sigh in relief… thank god for that.

 "Will."Wesley said softly,"help me with storing stuff in the RV ." I blinked and then turned toward Wesley, still shocked that Isaac, of all people, had actually listened to me. I’m stunned. What’s come over me? In a quiet tone I nodded.

       “Okay.” I picked up a few boxes of food which Allison and Zayne had packed, and headed for the front door.

 Wesley smiled at me then jumped up the stairs to the really nice RV,"my parents and my brother, and I would have left last week for a camping trip to Florida. So we have a lot of things already packed." He looked at the closed garage door."if anything happens just get everyone out. Even if I'm not there." I frowned at him, and stopped putting the box down.

      “Don’t say that, you are here. Allison and Zayne will be here shortly as will the twins and then we can drive off… there’s no reason for you to leave my side, do you hear me?” My chest tightened, and it was becoming difficult to breathe. Why is he saying that all of a sudden?

 "I hear."he looked up at me then froze as we heard shattering glass,"get my brother and Allison." He ran past me and I suppose went to go get the twins. I  jumped the steps and ran into the house, calling out frantically.

      “Allison, Zayne… we need to go, NOW!”

 We had all gotten in the RV except for Wesley.

"Where's my brother?"Zayne asked the twins.

"He...didn't make it."Bella said. For a moment it didn’t register what she’d said, so I did a double-take and an entire U-turn around the conversation again. I scanned the group… Wesley… I felt sick.

   “Wait, what?”

    “Wesley didn’t make it, he told us to just go… there were too man…”

    “And you FUCKING LEFT HIM!” I jumped up from my seat and grabbed Isaac, demanding harshly. “What happened!? Did you purposely leave him, to get back at me? I swear to god I will tear your…”

     “Noah please, stop it. We didn’t want to leave him, but he insisted. It’s not our fault. Please don’t be angry.”

 Zayne sighed,"that sounds like him, if he's still alive he'll get out.But right now we need to leave Noah.and you're the only one who can drive."he shut the side door and locked it. He threw me the keys. I glanced at the house momentarily… I can’t… I shut my eyes when I remembered what he’d said to me just moments before. Opening my eyes, I scanned the group all of them gazing at me, their eyes so dependant. I took a deep breath and because I had no other choice, I simply let my mind forget about Wesley…. until they were safe.

        “Fasten your seatbelts, and hold on tight.”

Everyone did as they were told. Zayne pressed a button and the garage door came up. I pressed on the gas and we zoomed out of there.