Wesley-Animals thoughts.

I open my eyes, too bright. My head, nothing.whiteness.thoughts clouded. What? What's that noise I hear. I climbed to my feet. This place.shattered glass...red stuff. Walls.

Confusion. I have to go somewhere. But why?

Sounds groaning, sliding, crashing. No.no.my name?

What am I called.

Smells.oh gross.   I jumped out .sky dark.night? What is this. I started to run down the street. I stop.angered voices. Where? There. That place. That monster thing. Big metal. Wheels? I came up to a window . I peered in. Three boys...two girls. I accidentally tapped the glass.

They all look at me, I back up when I see the look in the tallest boys eyes. They look empty. Red. Swollen. (Input? um… lol this is quite hard.  

I stepped up to the window curiously. The boy. He fascinated me. I tap on the window.purposely. the boy he looked at me. I wave. My nails.long.Sharp. the boy. He jumps up. He comes to the window.slid it open. He speaks.

       “W-Wesley… is that… I thought you were dead.” He stared at me, confused. I look at him. Wesley? Is that me? Must be.

"H-u rr u."it mostly sounded like growls though. All I wanted to know is who he was. He looked at me, frowning, like he didn’t understand.

          “Wesley… you know me, right? It’s me… Noah.” His eyes became wet and pleading.  

  "No-uh." I thought for moment. I shake my head."no." He took hold of my shoulders gently and spoke desperately.

        “No, you can’t do this not now. I won’t let you. It’s me, dammit! Noah, we went to school together, we were always attacking one another verbally… until we… please Wesley, please. Don’t look at me with the eyes of a stranger, you know me!”

"I .don't.know."I said clearly,"who. Am. I?" His hands dropped from my shoulders in defeat.

       “You should rest… over there, by the window. That’s Zayne, he’s a nice guy. Over there is Allison, Isaac… and Bella. We’ll make sure you’re safe. Just um… no, nevermind.” He walked over to the front and sat down, staring outside.

I climbed through the window and then shut it. I wonder who he is to me to have so much sadness. Who am I and why can't I  remember? I curled up on the couch and looked around.they were staring at me.

I looked away feeling guilty that I couldn't remember. "Sorry." I said. The girl called ‘Bella’ spoke softly.

     “Don’t be sorry, we’re just happy you’re okay. Even if you don’t remember, Isaac and I will never forget what you did.” There was a scoff from the front, and he sat with his arms folded, staring out of the window. Then he asked absentmindedly.

      “Seen as the location is pretty safe, who wants some quiet music?”

I looked at him curiously, and blinked as my mind kept unfogging."Noah I'll remember.please don't be sad." He fiddled with something at the front, then turned to me, his eyes were back to being empty.

      “Just concentrate on getting better first. Are you hungry?” There was a gentle sound filling the R.V now.

"No." I laid down and fell asleep.

Noah’s P.O.V

To the group I probably looked like I was sleeping, but I was trying to ignore the fact that Isaac and Allison were huddled together, as were Zayne and Bella… a number of songs had played through the stereo but my eyes flickered open upon hearing a familiar song that always captured my soul. I smiled a little, murmuring the lyrics quietly to myself.

     ‘I cannot hide what’s on my mind, I feel it burning deep inside. A passion crime to take what’s mine. Let us start living for today...’ I should sue the radio company for playing this at such an ironic time. From behind me, I heard Bella ask in a quiet tone.

     “Um… Noah, I’m hungry.”

  So now she wants me to play ‘big brother’ oh well, I have nothing better to do. I got up from the drivers’ seat and walked through to the small kitchen. I asked absently.

    “I’ll make sandwiches, is anyone else hungry?”

Wesley sat up and looked at me with his red eyes,"may I please have one ?" I stopped buttering the bread and gazed at him. Okay stop it… you’ll freak him out. I tore my eyes away and smiled.

     “Of course. What would you like, there’s cheese, a bunch of different meat… some weird green stuff that I just don’t like the look of… and… peanut butter? Allison, seriously what the hell did you bring?”

"Um peanut butter please." Wesley said softly. As I gathered more bread and began to prepare Wesley’s sandwiches, I gently began to rave to the rest of the song… ignoring the fact that I was getting eye-balled from Isaac and Bella. She ended up giggling, shaking her head.

    “Noah, you’re such an idiot.” I frowned at her, launching a piece of cheese.

     “Do not insult my dancing. I am the master of the rave.” I winked over at Wesley, and told him politely. “Don’t worry, you’ll hopefully get used to that kind of thing. We argue all the time… well, Bella and I… and Isaac. I’m rambling… I’ll shut up. Here’s your sandwiches.”

He smiled at me and poked my nose,"yay food ."he smiled at me. My heart can’t take much more. I gave him a small smile, ignoring his eyes completely, and not even acknowledging the fact that he’d just done one of my favourite things. I continued to make a bunch of different sandwiches so that they could all eat them when they wanted to, then cleaned up. Bella asked me with a full mouth.

     “Are you having some?”

      “I’m not hungry. There’s plenty though if you want more. I’m kinda tired.” I headed back to the front of the R.V and sat down.

 Wesley then climbed in front with me,"Noah."He looked at me with wide eyes,"tell me, who I was to you.please." After glancing at him for a brief moment after he’d asked me that question, I looked at my fingers. What can I say? I don’t know what his reaction will be if I just blurt out ‘oh yeah well you and I made out a few times, we got into a relationship… I’ve seen you naked.’ That’s the ultimate freak-out. I sighed and shrugged.

      “Well… I suppose we… we were very close um…. friends.”

    "Are you sure? It didn't seem like we were just friends." He looked at me. I became slightly uncomfortable and could feel this serious amount of pressure building within my chest… his eyes weren’t his eyes anymore… it was as if he was this amazing stranger.

     “You were… very important to me. I cared about you a lot… I still do.” I busied myself with the stereo, trying to find a different station of rock music.  

  Wesley opened the stash and took out several CDs."any of these?"He gave them to me and smiled, "I wish I remembered. I feel guilty.that I don't." He sighed running his fingers through his hair. I glanced over the cases, briefly gazing over at him as I smiled a little.

    “Please don’t, it’s not your fault that you don’t remember me. I’ll never blame you. When you’re in love with someone it’s all about compromise, and as strange as this sounds to you right now, I don’t care how long it takes… I’m not going anywhere. Here, you choose.” I handed the stack of CD’s to him unable to make a choice because the artists were all incredible.

 "But that doesn't stop me from feeling that way, I'm probably a completely different person than I was before." He looked down at the CDs then picked out 'Three Days Grace'.

    “I won’t argue with you, god knows we spent most of our high school life doing that. I wish you could remember, I won’t lie but there’s not much we can do about it. We were dating… we’ve actually kissed a few times, snuggled together… I’ve even bathed you. I’m not going to stop loving you, Wesley just because of one small problem. What is it they say… oh yeah, in sickness and in health… I’m not going to give up on you.” I took the CD from him and placed it into the player, hitting ‘play’ and then brought my feet up to rest on the dashboard, humming away.  

    “Then I hope that you don’t mind that I look completely different.” Wesley smirked and leaned back in the chair then gazed out the window. I leaned my head back, shutting my eyes as I replied only half-joking.

        “It’ll probably take some getting used to, but I adjusted to your last change quite quickly.” I grinned to myself. There’s only one small thing I’ll be forever keeping to myself, and that is that I will always remember the adorable, little ‘emo’ look he had in school. I’m not entirely sure why… but to me, that’ll always be the real him.  

    “Now did ya?” He smirked at me then stood up and immediately sat down on my lap, “Your eyes are like the moon.” He smiled, as he brushed my hair out of my eyes. I was stunned by his actions at first… even with another appearance change, his teasing never falters. I balled my hands into fists placing them at my sides… one step at a time I guess. Although I really enjoyed his small touch… I cannot swim in that feeling, not yet because it’ll lead to more hurt and… well I don’t think I’d survive that.

      “The moon?” I smiled softly, a somewhat confused look on my face.  

“Yup, metallic almost.” He sighed then looked outside, “Those things out there, think they’re all over the world now, or just in the states? because I’m sure those things can’t swim.” He leaned against me,”You make me feel safe though.” He said softly almost that I didn’t quite hear it. I was struggling with this, both mentally and physically… it’s terrible torture. However, ignoring the vicious voices in my head, I distracted myself by answering him.

          “It’s hard to tell, I mean think of it like this, if you had one person from say… England, they travelled over here and somehow got infected without actually knowing… say from an insect bite or something, and then they travelled back to England… the possibilities of infection spreading is really big. I suppose if we stick together and find somewhere secluded, we’ll be okay.” I leaned my head back, shutting my eyes… exhaustion taking over my body. (You :D

    “You should get some sleep Noah.” Wesley said softly looking up at me then climbed off of me, “Oh and the reason I barely remember anything is because I died.” I shot my eyes open and instinctively grabbed his hand, gently. I shook my head glancing over at Bella and the others.

     “I knew it, Bella and Isaac told us you’d died… but, I don’t understand how because you’re like immortal, they gave you an immortal shot of that virus thing. I’m so confused with all of this.” I abandoned his hand, glancing over his features as I whispered. “I’m sorry I didn’t mean to grab you like that.”  

He simply smiled, “It’s okay, but you know everything thing has a weakness, even if you are immortal, you can still die, although you will come back someone different... I guess in my case that’s true.” Wesley looked at my with his soft yet strange red eyes.

 “I guess…” I didn’t know what else to say… I’m not going to admit that it’s tearing my heart in two just being near him right now. I’m angry, I’m upset and hurt… and even though there’s my twins, and Allison and Zayne… and Wesley… I still feel alone. I’m looked up to now, kind of… for my brother and sister at least. I cannot afford to think about myself right now, because to do so… would probably put them all in danger. So there we go… suffering in silence.  

Wesley looked back at me and smiled. ‘Stop being sad Noah I’m remembering. The first memory I remember of you. You were standing there with your’ friends’ Freshman year. your friends were checking out girls arses yet you didn’t look interested in it. You made me double take look at you. Your beautiful black hair carelessly tousled in the wind and your mysterious grey eyes. I might have not known it then, but I’m pretty sure that’s when I started falling for you. ‘ He smiled,’So don’t be so sad in the dark, even if I don’t quite remember now I’ll certainly start remembering soon.’ I blinked slowly… wait, he’s still connecting through mind… and hold the fuck up… WHAT! I clumsily brought my legs down from the dashboard and faced him in my seat.

  ‘Wait… what? That was a bazillion years ago! You remembered all the way back to that? Isn’t that the day I ended up tripping you in the hall?” 

‘Yah, and then I hid your cell phone in the girls locker room.’ He smirked. ‘I guess I’m remembering beginning to up till now. And yes I took your phone out of your locker then walked in the girls locker-room and hid it.’ I thought back to that day and frowned… so it was him that took my phone, what a sneaky little… and hang on!

‘How in gods’ name did you get my locker combination? More to the point, why my phone, why not a book or something stupid?’ I grinned a little and folded my arms, resting back in the seat.     

‘Phones are more personal, plus I’m the one that texted you random messages during classes because I knew your phone was on ringer. Oh and how I got into your locker, well I’m a genius at unlocking anything. So I guessed the code. 34-12-10. I also was the one who wrote fake love notes to you for a joke.’ Wesley winked at me cutely. I glared at him.

‘You evil person… seriously I was really happy with those love notes. Not many people know this but I actually sat up most nights, re-reading them… wondering who my admirer was. That’s insanely cruel.’ I chuckled after a moment, shaking my head. Seriously I can’t believe I wasted my time on those notes now, what a waste.  

‘Actually at first they were fake, but then I actually started putting heart to them. So all in all you didn’t waste time.’ He smiled at me,’Later they became more true than when I  started them. That’s why I kept on writing them.’ I smiled back at him, my heart ached but I suppose this is an improvement. I couldn’t hide the feeling of wanting to be back in the past… I wish we could time-travel back to those moments. Or wake up from a disastrous nightmare. I don’t mention it to anyone but I always make wishes on stars… shooting stars, and they are stupid most of the time… except if there was a shooting star tonight, I’d wish for the past.

‘Thank you for that… I feel happy that you remember bits. Perhaps we should rest, I’ll probably have to drive again soon.’

“I... know how to drive Noah-William.” He smirked, and leaned in and kissed my cheek, “ Go and sleep up on the bunk kay?” I dragged my body up from the seat and lazily walked through the RV… only then did I realise… I turned back to face him, frowning a little in amusement.

“I’m guessing you’ll be the death of me one day, so here’s a little heads-up on what to place on my tombstone… ‘Here Lies Noah William Mason, Easily Teased But Loved Every Minute.’” With a wink I shifted over to the bunk, lay down and became lost in a sleep filled with not dreams, but memories… memories of my past.