Authors note: Just a reminder too that italicized word are her thoughts. If the are italicized and underlined then they are someone else speaking to her in her mind. Alright enjoy guys!

⚠️Trigger Warning⚠️

This chapter will contain blood, violence, death, and anxiety/depression episodes. Please read at your own risk.

Illiana POV

"The Cullens are gone... for good."

The packs faces morph into one of happiness at my revelation minus Sam, Emily, Leah, and Paul. I keep my face blank as they start murmuring to each other. Sam sees my face and stands up quickly. "ENOUGH! She came here with information not gossip, so shut up or get out" he yells before taking his seat. The pack instantly settles down, bowing their heads at their alpha. I nod a thanks and continue as if there isn't a giant black hole in my chest. I hear a small whimper on my left and throw a confused look at Leah. She avoids eye contact and fiddles with her hands

I clear my throat and make eye contact with Sam. "Now what I'm going to tell you may seem like a lie but I can prove otherwise if needed." He quirks a brow but nods at me to continue. "When I was in the hospital after I died.." I see Paul and Leah wince but continue "I had a lot of visitors. One of them being the Black's." I nervously pick at my fingers once again feeling the blood trickle down my hands. "Billy didn't do anything in particular but Jacob... he threatened me." Embry snorted and I make eye contact with him. Two growls sound out beside me. "Something you wanna say mutt?" I ground out. Sam snorts but covers it with a cough.

   I shoot Sam a smirk then turn back to Embry. "We'll go ahead, speak up." I arch a brow at him and he shakes his head before sinking back into the couch. Leah and Paul snicker at him then put their arms around me. I huff but ignore the contact even if it sets my skin on fire. "Anyways, as I was saying. Jacob threatened me. The idiot thinks I killed Is-" her name once again dies out on my lips and a sharp pain hits my chest. I gulp harshly before continuing. "My uh sister and his mother." The feeling of overwhelming guilt hits me again but I shake it off, shoving my feeling back again. "Obviously I didn't do either but he threatened to kill me. I'm only telling you because if he comes at me, I will kill him." I said with finality.

I turn to Sam and speak lowly. "Billy also kept my family grimoires for a very long time. I wanted to know if you were aware?" He looks shocked and shakes his head no. "I'm sorry Lils, I had no clue. If I did you know I would have gave them to you." I let out a sigh and send him a small smile then turn back to the pack. "Now the other part. Billy told me that he confessed. Is there anyone who doesn't believe me? Other than Embry." I raise a brow and look around the room but no one speaks up. "Okay, good. That's it Sam. I need to go train but I'll be in touch." I say while walking to the front door. Leah and Paul sigh as I leave.

Embry stands up quickly before I reach the door and blocks my way then yells "are we really going to pretend like she didn't kill Sarah?! I bet Billy is just covering her ass so she doesn't kill him too!" I narrow my eyes at him then yank my arm back before throwing a punch that Calli would be proud of. It connects with Embry's face and I hear a satisfying crunch. Howls of laughter is heard around us. "Ow! You fucking bitch! You broke my nose!" Blood drips down his face and his eyes are wide. I hear a few growls this time and turn to see Sam, Leah, and Paul growling at him. I smirk then turn back to Embry.

My eyes turn black as magic thrums through my veins and I step closer to him. Embry frantically steps back, away from me. "Don't you ever and I mean ever speak to me like that again you asshole! I did not kill Sarah!" I'm shaking with rage and have a hard time putting together the next sentences. "I loved her. She was like a mother to me. So don't you ever say it was my fault! If you want to blame anyone, blame Billy! Did you know he had been drinking? And Jacob was mad at me for something my sister lied about. He made both Billy and Sarah take me home so he could spend time with just her! So if it's anyones fault it's theirs!" I scream with so much venom that everyone flinches. My chest is falling and rising harshly while tears threaten to escape.

Before I start crying, I quickly turn around and stomp to the door until a hand reaches out to grab me. A warm hand barely touches my arm before I jump back not registering the sparks. "D-don't touch me!" My breathing starts speeding up again but I manage to keep my face blank, holding back the memories that still plague my mind. Paul puts his hands up in surrender with a look of pity in his face. "I just had some questions. Honestly, I think we all do. Would you mind staying a bit longer and answering them?" He says in a calm voice. I weigh my options because I just know the questions will be personal. Emily gives me a pleading look then scoots over so there is room between her and Sam. Reluctantly, I make my way over to them and sit down.

All eyes are on me but I turn to Paul. "Go ahead. Ask whatever you want but I'm not promising that I'll answer every single question." He nods and licks his lips before speaking. "So uh is the tribe legend true?" I let a small smile take over my face while mentally thanking him for not asking a personal question and nod yes. "I guess it is. I am the Superno Regina or Supernatural Queen. Legend goes that I will rule over all supernatural beings but I have a separate legend for just the pack. The Swan's have always been strongly allied with the pack, as you all know." Embry snorts and I turn to glare at him, reading his mind. "Listen here you little cockroach, if you have something to say fucking speak up. I will not tolerate your shit just because you still believe the Black's." I say harshly. There are snickers around the room at his expense and he turns red.

His face then turns to one of confusion and a smirk plants itself on my face. "Oh didn't you know? I can read minds. I actually got a lot of fun little things when I died." My face morphs into a dark glare and I visibly see him gulp. Jared raises his hand and I smile at him. "Yes Jared?" He's basically bouncing in his seat with excitement. "So what are all of your powers? And can you show us them?!" I let out a small chuckle and look to Sam.

He gives me a 'go ahead' look so I get up. "Let's go outside because Emily would kill me if I messed up her house." Emily smiles at me and throws a arm around my shoulders. "You? Never. The boys? Definitely!" I let out a genuine laugh as the boys protest. Leah finally speaks up with a small smile on her face. "Hey! I don't count as one of the boys do I?" Emily shakes her head no and kisses her on the cheek. "Never my dear cousin." Leah beams at her before she takes off out of the front door.

We all file out to the yard and everyone looks to me expectingly. I take a deep breath in and center myself before calling on fire. I feel my skin prick up my arms and I know when I open my eyes, my true form will show. I let a smirk slip onto my face and open my eyes to see my arms engulfed in orange flames. The pack all look with wide eyes except Jared, he inches closer. "This is obviously fire but with a flick of my wrist-" I flick my hand and the fire turns different shades of blue. "I can make regular fire turn into hellfire."

Jared bounces on his feet and walks closer. "Can you like shoot it?" I giggle and nod yes before creating a small fire orb then shooting it at a tree. The tree immediately goes up in flames but before it goes any further, I flick my wrist and water pours down from the clouds above me, putting out the fire quickly. The clouds stop pouring rain and the sun begins to shine. I turn back to the pack who all watch with wide eyes. Though Jared is literally jumping around at this point with a giant grin on his face.

He runs up to me but doesn't touch me. "What else can you do Lils?" I smile at his genuine curiosity and grab ahold of him. As soon as we touch though, I feel a peculiar bond form. Almost as if he is my brother. I'll look into that later. He squeaks before I use wind to shoot us into the air. I level us at the top of the trees around us. "Woah! This is so cool!" He says with wide eyes. I giggle and pull him closer.

"Okay be careful, I'm going to put us down" I state. Jared shakes his head yes and holds my waist. I let my black mist help lower us to the ground and our feeet gently plant in the grass. I hear a two growls as we touch the ground and feel Jared tighten his arms around me. I furrow my eyebrows and look up to him confused. "What-" I'm cut off by someone roughly grabbing me and pulling me from Jared. My mind races and I let out a scream. My powers overtake me and pushes everyone back roughly.

The pack and Emily flies back into trees or the hard ground. Emily lays motionless beside Sam while the others are groaning and holding various injures. My hands fly to my mouth and I'm breathing harshly. I've done it again. I've hurt innocent people. I stand quickly and run to my vehicle. Unknowingly, pouring white magic from myself. The bright magic trails to the pack and settles on Emily as I jump into my truck. I start it and peel out of Sam's driveway, not glancing back . My foot is pressed all the way down on the pedal and my speed increases until I hit well over 100 mph.

Once I get closer to the county line, I let my speed drop but still no where close to the speed limit. I'm not sure where I'm driving but I keep going until I'm at their house. Of course my mind takes me here. I huff and put my truck in park before laying my head on the steering wheel. I let a small tear fall from my eye before harshly wiping it away. I don't deserve to feel sympathy. I'm evil. I hurt everyone I care about. I fling my head into the steering wheel repeatedly, telling myself I'm no good.

After a few minutes of self loathing, I pull my head up and notice movement inside of the Cullen's house out of the corner of my eye. I immediately jump out thinking Rissa or Jas has returned. I sprint up to the front door then walk in, failing to notice the broken lock and the fact that the door was left open. "Rissa?" I call out but no one emerges. "Jas?" Still no one answers. I make my way into the kitchen and yell out again.

"Is anyone here?" But the only thing I'm met with is silence. Oh great. I sound like every idiot in a scary movie that dies. I feel the hair on the back of my neck stand up and turn around quickly. A beautiful woman stands behind me. She has long black hair, deep almond colored skin, and long toned legs. The most striking thing about her though is the large doe eyes that are a deep blood-red color. Vampire.

A cruel smile takes over her face and she steps towards me. I immediately let flames engulf my hands and level my black eyes at her. "Don't even think about it bitch" I snarl out. She narrows her eyes and goes to lunge but another voice cuts her off. "Oh no, not yet Amaya." I turn to the voice and see a dark skinned male. "Who the fuck are you?!" I growl. He lets out a deep laugh before turning his burgundy eyes to me. "I am Laurent and you are Illiana or as some call you Superno Regina." I quirk a brow at him and he sticks his hand out. I let out a humorless laugh and shake my head. "Oh no, I don't think so. What are you doing here?"

His face turns dark and he goes to Amaya, wrapping an arm around her. "Well, we were here to scope out the place and-" his let's a cruel smirk slide onto his face. "We are here to kill you." I raise a brow at him and chuckle. "Yeah I'd like to see you try and who sent you? Because if it was James and Victoria, they broke their vow and I will absolutely love ripping their hearts out. Well after I torture them." I say with a nonchalant attitude, knowing it will piss them off. I see the obvious anger taking over their features and I know if I continue they will loose control, making it easier to kill them. My smirk widens before I push them over the edge. "I'll have them on their knees begging for death."

Laurent lunges first but I'm quicker. I shove my hand out and use my magic to rip his heart out. It flies into my hand and he grabs the giant hole in his chest. Blood pours from him as he makes a choking sound. Then he gasps before falling to his knees and finally hitting the floor face first. Wow. That was pretty cool. I toss his heart in front of the woman and it hits the floor with a loud thud.

Amaya growls and speeds towards me. I smirk and flick my hand, setting her aflame. The bright blue of hellfire engulfs her and screams echo around the house. Her charred body falls to the floor and I extinguish the fire. I scrunch my nose up before covering it. That's got to be the worst smell in the world. The sound of glass breaking makes me turn around with fire in my hands but I quickly put it away when I see who it is. The pack is in wolf form and running up to me. They screech to a halt when they lay eyes on the bodies next to me.

The wolf in front turns his head, motioning to the living room and the pack disappears to change into their human forms. I stand there impatiently, wanting to go home. Sam comes stomping in with an angry expression and I lift my hands again in fear. Oh gods, he's going to kill me for hurting Em. I flinch back and back into the counter. "I'm sorry about Emily. I really didn't mean to hurt her!" I ramble out quickly.

His expression changes into one of guilt and he stops in his tracks. "She's fine not even a scratch on her, okay? Plus your magic healed her and the pack." I give him a quizzical look but he ignores me. "Now Illiana, are you okay?" He asks in a soft tone. I snort and look to the bodies then back to him. "Yeah I guess. They were sent by Is-" her name once again fizzles from my mouth. "Uh my sister and her mates sent them. They broke the contract we made so if they come around.." my face turns dark. "They're fucking dead." Sam's eyes widen but confusion overtakes his face. "What deal Illiana?" I hear Paul growl out. I jump and snow starts falling around us. "Damn it Paul! You scared me."

The rest of the pack comes up behind him and surveys the damage. "Uh why is it snowing?" Leah asks. "You can thank Paul for that one." I narrow my eyes at him but he looks back with a glare. "What. Deal. Illiana." He demands. I pick at my fingers again and shake my head no. Sam looks between us but moves towards Paul and crosses his arms. "Tell us now Illiana" Sam commands. I snort and raise a brow at him. "Is that a command? Because I'm not one of your subordinates Sam" I seethe and he flinches back. "Plus, why is it any of your business?" I ask stalling. Mentally I open a connection with Calliope. Calli? Hey! Where are you?! The Cullen's. I need you and Sage ASAP. The pack is here but I'm not in any danger. We will be there in five seconds. Thanks.

I quickly close the connection and look at the pack. Sam opens his mouth but is cut off by a bright light. "What in the actual fuck is going on you pack of mangey dogs?!" I hear Calli yell. A smirk appears on my face and I wink at Sam. "Excuse me? Who the hell are you?!" He demands. Calli lets out a cruel laugh and Sage narrows her eyes. "The grim reaper if you don't explain why you have my bestfriend cornered" Sage warns, a viscous look in her eyes. Sam's mouth drops open and the others take a step back. "Y'all have about five seconds to tell me what's going on before I cut your heads off!" Calli screams.

Her magic flares out and you can feel her anger. I let out a small snicker and she sends me a smile. Sam's face turns red and he starts to shake. "We are trying to get answers from Ms. over-powerful there!" He grounds out, sticking a fat finger at me. I stifle a laugh and turn to her. "I was attacked by friends of you-know-who. I killed them quickly but they broke the deal. The pack wants to know the deal but I don't want to share." I state simply while gesturing to the two dead, well re-dead, bodies behind me. I slide a glare at Sam "and put that grubby little finger down before I bite it off bitch!" Sage scrunches her nose in disgust while Calli sends me a thumbs up with a proud look in her face.

Calli grabs my hand and squeezes it gently. I hear a growl and look over to see Leah glaring at us. "Oh knock it off pup. That's my soulmate and they're just good friends" Sage snips. Calli pulls me closer to her and Sage before speaking. "We are leaving. She has told you enough already." Before we can leave though Paul yells out "No! We deserve to know if it has to do with vampires!" Calli shrugs and looks at me like 'they're right'. I glare at her and mouth 'traitor'. She snickers but stops when Sage smacks her on the head. I huff while rolling my eyes but walk back over to the pack. "Fine. When I died, it wasn't a accident. I made a deal. My life for the protection of this town." Sam's mouth drops open and several members of the pack gasp.

I continue before I get cut off again. "Is that it? Because if so I'd like to get home and get this blood off my hands before my father gets home. He's been through enough and I don't want him flipping over my kill count." No one says anything so I take Calli's hand and she leads me to my truck. I jump in and pull away from the Cullen's house quickly. "Hey Cal, do you mind shooting a text to Jas and letting him know what happened?" I ask quietly.

She nods and sends a quick text. Not even a minute later my phone starts ringing. She picks it up and puts it on speakerphone. "Lils?! Are you okay?" Jaspers deep voice sounds out and then another voice rings out "Lils?! Oh gods I never haiidk have left. Please tell me you're okay!" I almost break down at the sound of Rissa's voice and have to hold the tears back. I quickly pull myself together and clear my throat. "I'm fine Jas. I took care of them but I am concerned that they will just keep sending people. I hate to ask but-" he cuts me off "I'm already on my way with Ris. Emmett and Rose are on their way as well."

My heart warms at the mention of my mates coming to help me. "Thank you but I don't think Clarissa should come. It's dangerous" I whisper. I hear protests on the other end as I stop at a red light. Calli, hearing the conversation, grabs my phone taking it off speakerphone and gestures to me to focus on driving. "She's fine you two. And I agree with her on Clarissa's safety. Plus I think she needs more time, she is hurting from all of you."

I can't hear what he says to her but she smirks and thanks him before hanging up. She grabs my hand and places a kiss on it as Sage kisses my cheek. "Thank you both. I don't know what I would do without y'all." I feel tears start welling in my eyes but I force them back. "We will always be here for you Lils" Sage says. "Always and forever babe" Calli adds. I relish the warmth of their hands on me, as if they're filling me with strength. My mind wanders as I drive home, thinking about everything that's happened.

I let a few moments of silence pass before I clear my throat and look over to Calli. "I don't think I'll take the Cullen's back when they return even if they are my soulmates. Maybe even Rissa too" I mumble. They both look at me confused before Calli speaks up. "Why?" She asks softly. I sigh, contemplating telling them but as my best friends, they know when something is off.

   "Because they left me! And I don't think anyone could love all of me. They love versions of me. They love the good parts of me, the versions that paint me as a hero, the versions that show my humanity. They love the easy parts of me, the good parts of me. But no one loves the dark parts, the versions that crave violence and revenge. The one that so badly just wants to be understood. The parts that beg for death; that crave the calmness of it all. The parts that are truly me. No. No one fully loves me." I say in a whisper before clearing my throat again.

   "Except of course you and Sage. I know y'all love all of me even all of the dark parts" I quickly recover. Idiot. That just made things worse. Sage gives me a worrying glance before meeting Calli's eyes. They share a conversation with their eyes but before either one can speak up, I turn onto my road, speeding up so I could get out of this awkward conversation.

I pull into my driveway and we get out. I notice that dads cruiser isn't here and let out a sigh. I unlock the front door and we make our way upstairs. "I'm going to take a shower then we can talk about everything okay?" They nod and I walk to my bathroom. I turn the shower on and quickly get undressed. When I get into the shower the water immediately turns red from the blood on me. I grab the soap and harshly clean my hands but they're stained. Stained with death. I keep scrubbing as hot tears start streaming down my face. I let out a little sob and slip down the tub. I let out all of my emotions as the scolding hot water cascades down me, warming the cold and empty parts of me.

Everything over the past few months flashes before my eyes and the gaping hole in chest rips me in half. And I swear, it tears so loudly that the world should have heard. They should have heard me break. The world should have shook with the large hole that consumed my chest. A hole of pain, emptiness, and memories. An endless cycle of grief. A muffled sob escapes and I cover my mouth so the girls won't hear me. The dark friend I call grief drags me down and holds my heart, drowning me from the inside out. I feel the darkness consume me and wash away the pain until a numb feeling takes root in my chest. I look at my reflection in the gleaming metal of my shower rod and I don't recognize the girl staring back. My emotions slip away until all that's left is a hollow feeling but it doesn't stay that way. A fire creeps into my chest and that's when I know.

The old me is dead. Now stands a girl hell bent on revenge and fueled by rage.

And I'm scared of her.

Authors note: So how did everyone like this chapter? We are getting close the the end of Part two. Mainly because there isn't much I can do to lengthen the plot of New Moon and because I really hate the second movie. Plus the third part is the final bit. So we are almost done!

• So you think Illiana is mad at Rissa?

• Do you think Rose, Emmett, Rissa, and Jasper will notice anything wrong with Illiana?

• How do you think the rest of the pack will react to some of the Cullen's returning?

• When do you think Paul and Leah will finally be brave enough to speak to Illiana?

• How do you think Calli and Sage will react?

• And how do you like the dynamic between Sage, Calli, and Illiana?

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