Authors note: this will pick up where I left off in the movie timeline. So it will be the sunny day and then they go shopping. That being said, we all know what almost happens in the shopping scenes. So please be aware before reading! I put trigger warnings but this chapter will be more intense than the one on her backstory. And will have SA scenes. Thanks again guys 💕

⚠️Trigger Warning⚠️

There will be suicidal ideation, PTSD tendencies, violence, death, and SA (sexual assault). Please be safe while reading and reach out to someone if you need help 💕

Illiana POV

    I wake up Monday morning to my alarm blaring. Ugh. School. Rolling over, I turn my alarm off and rub my eyes. Groaning, I get out of bed and then make it. I pad to the bathroom and take a quick shower. Then dry myself off before going into my closet. Hmmm. It's going to be sunny today. I could wear that dress Alice got me and those shoes Rose picked out. They'd love that. I just have to make sure I take a picture of my outfit. I go to the very back of the closet and grab a black dress with gold details all over it. I go to grab the heels Rose got me but decided to wear those another day. Instead I grab my black combat boots and finish getting ready. I dry my wavy hair and throw on a bit of makeup.

Her outfit

    I grab my jewelry and spritz myself with perfume. Then I get my backpack and leather jacket. I pick up my phone and go to my full length mirror, taking a picture of my outfit. I don't think I've worn a dress in years.

✨ The plastics ✨

La La 😈
I know y'all won't be at school
today so I made sure to take a
picture of my outfit ❤️
I hope y'all have a good day
XOXO

Emmy Bear 🐻
You look hot!

Ro Ro 🌹
Em stop being a pig! You look
beautiful Lils!

Allie 🔮
Ooooh! I knew that dress
would like amazing on
you Lily!

Jazz 🪖
Wow darlin', they are right.
You look stunning!

Rizzy 🧜🏻‍♀️
Oh! I'll wear a dress too
and we can match!

Grumpy Giraffe 🦒
Now I wish we could go to
school today. You look so
very beautiful sweetheart!

La La 😈
Awhh! Thanks guys! I gotta
go tho or I'll be late. See you
guys tonight! And see you
at school Ris

   I quickly stuff my phone into my purse and run down the stairs. I grab my keys and sprint out of the door, hoping into my truck. The drive to school is quick and soon I'm parked beside Bella's truck. I get my things and walk to first period. Today is going to be so long.

    My classes pass quicker than expected and soon I find myself outside sitting at a empty picnic table during lunch. Rissa has her head on my shoulder as we bask in the sun. I pick up my old worn out copy of To Kill a Mockingbird and zone out. I have this bad feeling. Something's going to happen today I just don't know what.. I'm startled out of my thinking by someone sitting down beside me. I look to see Bella, she sends me a half smile, then waves at Rissa and grabs her own book. But instead of reading, she starts looking around. Who is she looking for? I get my answer when Jessica and Angela set their lunch trays down. Huffing, I go to get up with Rissa but get pulled down by Bella. I send her a questioning look but she gives me a "wait and see" look back.

    Jessica starts talking to Bella and Angela looks over to me. "Hey Illiana and Clarissa, it's nice to see you both again." Angela says nervously. I shoot her a small smile. She's always been so sweet. "Oh you too Angela! And you can call me Lana or Lils, if you'd like." She beams back at me. "Okay. What are the two of you doing after school today? Because we are all going prom dress shopping and I'd love for you two to join us- I mean only if you want obviously.." Angela trails off.

    I send her a reassuring smile "I don't think I'll be going to Prom but I wouldn't mind helping you pick out your dress." Rissa looks at me with pity while grabbing my hand underneath the table and squeezing it lightly. She then clears her throat "I am goofy to prom with our boyfriend Edward, so I'd love to come!" Angela grins at her while Jessica just scoffs. The bell rings and we all gather our things, heading to our next classes.

      The last bell rings and I'm out of my seat, quickly walking to my truck. I see Bella and Rissa at my truck waiting for me with Angela and Jessica headed their direction. I walk up just as the others get there. "Hey so I figured we could take your truck because it has the most room, if that's okay?" Bella's ask. I nod yes and intertwine my hands with Rissa. "Okay. We're all going to drive to our house and drop off our vehicles then leave. Sound good everyone?" Everyone replies with yes's or nods. I get into my truck and drive home. I move my backpack to the truck bed since it's covered and then hop back into the drivers seat. The girls all get in and head to Port Angeles for dress shopping. Yay! Literally kill me.

   After the girls found their dresses, they go to the counter and start checking out. "Hey uh, can Illiana and I meet you at the restaurant down the street? I want to check out a book and would rather not travel alone." The girls nod yes and I follow Bella out, my dress billowing behind me. I wave bye to Rissa, as she's still getting her dress measurements done. Why can't she go by herself? No wait, I'd rather be stuck with her than Jessica.

    We arrive at a familiar book shop and intense. Why is she going to this store. It's for witches. The clerk waves at me as we enter the shop and I smile at him. "Hello Mr. Rebird. Nice to see you again" I say with a smile. He nods his head with a small smile and eyes Bella. I shrug just following her around as she looks for the boo she needs. It doesn't take long to find the book. We check out and start walking back my truck. Bella holds the book tightly to her chest and looks around as if waiting for something. And something tingles in my chest. Something is wrong.

   My stomach starts to churn and I feel the hair on the back of my neck stand up. Oh shit. Fuck me. I know this feeling. I grab Bella's hand and pull her towards my truck but two big men step in front of us. "Where are y'all going?" One shout. "C'mere you pretty thing" I hear from another as five more men step out. "I'm warning y'all motherfuckers, if you touch us you will die." I yell. That's all it took for them to come after us, forming a circle around us and blocking us in. I try to use my magic but it's blocked. Just like last time. Oh god I'm going to die this time. And with my younger sister no less. I'm supposed to protect her. I lock eyes with Bella and she looks guilty.

⚠️MAJOR TRIGGER WARNING⚠️

SA Warning!!
Please read at your own caution!

    The next thing I know, I'm pushed into the men and Bella is running away. That bitch left me. She left me to die. I stifle a sob as the men grab me and start ripping at my clothes. The first man pushes me down to the ground while his buddies hold me down. I'm kicking and screaming, trying anything to just live. I can't do this again. I just can't.

    The man slaps me hard, making my face sting in pain and puts his hand over my mouth. My breath catches in my throat as another scream rips from my mouth. "Shut the fuck up you stupid bitch!" I rear my head back and open my mouth, managing to bite him. Blood pours down his hand as he curses under his breath. "You stupid little bitch!" He screams as his friends hold me down tighter and he punches me several times.

      I feel the blood pouring from my nose and I see black spots in my vision.  "Oh I'm going to enjoy this!" One of his hands goes around my throat, cutting off my breathing. My breathing gets harsh and heavy, as my lungs burn. The other hand trails down my body and rips my underwear off. Smirking, he shoves himself on me and I try to scream but nothing is coming out. It's like my body is failing again and I just freeze.

  
    I scratch at his hands, willing myself to try harder; try to fight but I just can't. I'm weak. I'm worthless. I deserve this. My eyes glaze over as the men take their turns, my mind taking me anywhere but where I actually am. A coldness seeps into my very core, any and all feelings leaving my body; falling completely numb. I focus on that cold feeling, begging for death. Begging for it to be over. After they finish the beatings begin.

⚠️MAJOR TRIGGER WARNING OVER⚠️

   They throw punch after punch and start kicking me. Pain erupts in my stomach and I curl up into the fetal position, hoping that they leave soon. Blood pools from my mouth as I frantically heave air into my broken lungs. Each blow they deliver brings me closer to death. Please just take me already. I beg the gods as my body shakes violently but the pain begins to recede.

    The men quickly run off while laughing and making jokes. I don't know how long I stay in that position, hoping-praying that I will die quickly. Maybe I'll finally see Sammy. My body gets colder and colder; and I curl further into myself. Just take me, I'm done. I can't live any longer. As my vision starts going black I can only think of one thing. Finally. Finally I'll be at peace.

And as I slipped away,
a smile made its way unto my face.
No more pain. No more fighting. No more nightmares.

I'm free.

Author's note: I really wasn't sure if I should do this part or not. But then I started thinking about my personal experiences. I never got a voice. I never got to let out my emotions. So in a way, I feel like I was able to let go of a piece of that while writing this.

Now, I apologize to anyone that may have been triggered or hurt by this chapter. I tried to put enough warnings so you could read it without that part. If this did trigger you, please find someone to reach out to. I'm a complete stranger but I have no problem helping anyone out. Please be safe out there readers

And just to throw this out there because I just know someone will ask. Alice can NOT see Illiana's future. All will be explained later.

I will not be doing any questions on this chapter for obvious reasons. Thanks for reading and please reach out if you need to.

Anyways, thank you for reading dears and please reach out for anything you may need. Also no meme on this chapter dears

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