"Are you sure I don't need to drive you back home?" Chanyeol asks me as he's about to get into his car

"Imm... I need to talk to my parents plus I need to meet some people too... you know."

"Okay... can I be with you tonight then?"

He's such a big puppy..hahah... I can see his tail wiggling

"Sure but invite me to your house. I haven't been to your house yet. Can?"

"Yes! I will text my address so I will be waiting at home" he says and kisses my cheek "See you Bambi" and he gets into his car and set off

I can't help but, grinning like a crazy..

Now..... mom and dad  *poof* <realised that they heard what happened last night>

"Aghhhhhhhhhhhh this is sooooo embarrassingggggggggggggggg"

Okay... calm down... poker face.... Let's play cool

I should go up now.
Today I plan on telling mom and dad that I'm following Chanyeol and also, meet sunbae ... and tell him my decision... and meet Namjun ssi.

May be I can meet him tomorrow..
and kyungsoo too... he must make a chaos .. he's so against of me getting back with chanyeol

Since last night... my chest is feeling a lot lighter....
May be this is what the answer has always been and I been searching else where like a crazy

"Son, come eat breakfast" Mom says as soon as I get back home "why does our chanyeol need to go back early?" She adds

My parents love Chanyeol may be more than me

"He's has a company behind him, Mom" I say as I sit down at dining table

"That's right, he must be busy preparing things for leaving right?" Dad says

"Eh.. invite him over again before he leaves, my son" Mom says

"Nae Mom.... And.... Mom and dad....actually..."

"Congratulations, my son, your face is looking brighter than yesterday" Mom says even before I tell them

*blush*

"We are really happy for you... both of you. You both don't know how much we want you two to get back together." Dad says

"Nae.... Thank you....Mom and dad.... And.... I'm planning to follow him... to Singapore"

Mom and dad just look at each other and smile back at me .... Yeah... why was I even worried about?

"Son, whichever way you pursue your happiness, your mom and me will always support you. Of course we will miss our beloved son but... you can go without worrying us son" dad says

"That's right. Mom will always be with you .. so contact me often .. more often .. okay? We both really love our one and only son" Mom says

I.... Am really happy.... "Thank you ... mom and dad.... Really... thank you. I will be happy... no, me and chanyeol will be happier.. from now on"
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Every decision has a little risk to it.
We just have to overcome only by facing the risk.

The heartbreaks, the lost trust, the traumas.
They can only overcome when we face it.
Running away will just grow deeper pain inside us.
I made this decision not only for me... for chanyeol too....

Meeting Ssaem again was a great luck for me.. not because I still have feelings for him but... he really light up my dark thoughts.

His mature words made me feel very guilty and showed myself my selfishness upon Chanyeol... or should I say upon everyone.

Right now, I'm back at my company to meet sunbae... and if Namjun ssi is free I want to talk with him too...
He must be really.... Hurt..

"Baekhyun ya!" My team manager greets me

"Nae... long time no see.. hehe" I say

"Yessss long time it has been huh. Finally, our cutest newbie is back to us?" He asks

"No, actually I came to meet Chairman Oh"

"Is that so? Do you have time? Let's have lunch with team"

"Nae sure..."

And while i was talking to my team manager ... I can see Namjun rushing towards us.

"Oh, our intern is missing you, baekhyun ya" team manager says

Namjun's face..... I can even read his thoughts. Everything is showing on his face.

"Namjun ssi... can I have time after lunch?" I ask

"Nae!" He answers quickly.

"Imm.. see you" I say and head to Chairman's office 

I'm nervous. Will sunbae be sad? Or happy for my decision?
Or will he just... act cold and brush off?

Will he blame me ? Or hate me?
I want to be with him like his favourite hoobae or younger brother.
I don't want this relationship with him to end in hateful way.

*knock*

"Come in" I hear sunbae's voice from his room and I enter his office

"Baekhyun ya?" He looks shocked and quickly stand up from his seat

"Sunbae... can you spare some time for me now?" I ask

"Sure... come and sit"

"You should have called me so that I could take you out for lunch" he says

As usual... he is very caring and warm towards me.

"I just needs to say something... we can go for lunch or dinner with kyungsoo later on"

"Okay...so, what's that you wanna say?"

"That's......." I take out an envelope of resignation letter "This" I give it to him

He slowly takes the letter and... "Congratulations" he says and gives me his warmest smile

"You knew? I mean.."

"That Park chanyeol is leaving to Singapore and he planned to take you with him? Yes... we met a few days ago. When I met him that day, he really didn't have any hope left in his eyes... but I'm happy for you two"

"Sunbae.... Thank you.... For everything. For all those years, I had leaned on you and relied on you for this and that and almost everything. And I made you uncomfortable these days by crossing boundaries between us because I mixed feelings.

I'm sure it definitely is hard to deal with me. So I'm very and sincerely sorry.

And sunbae, I will always love you.. as my Hyung and as my guardian"

"Baekhyun ya... all those things I did for you, I never felt burden at all. I did because I wanted to. And even, now or later, even if you leave Seoul, I will be here for you always.

So come back if you feel sad, I will be waiting for you to comfort you, give you a hand. Hmm?"

"Nae...sunbae.... Thank you"

"Aigoo... come here" he says as he opens arms

I can't help but go and hug him .... I have many things to be grateful to him... I can't even pay him back enough.

"Come visit me sunbae"

"Sure... I will come and also bring kyungsoo too"

"And let's have dinner together"

"Yes, you can ask your boyfriend to join too"

"Boy...friend..."

"Haha.." he says and breaks the hug "of course, your boyfriend, Park chanyeol"

"Nae"  I say and..... give a peck on his cheek "I feel like I might regret if I didn't do this. So bye sunbae.. I will schedule dinner with kyungsoo and let you know. I will go have lunch with my team now. See ya!" I say and quickly leave his office

*KakaoTalk Message*

'Are things going well? Have you eaten lunch?' - Park CY

Right, I need to change the contact name.
What should I put this time? Hmmm...
DPB?
Desperate Perverted Boyfriend 🌝
Haha... I'm a genius

I quickly text him back

B - things are going well... and I'm going to have lunch with my team here

C - I see... you will come to my house tonight right?

B - yes, I will come. How about jongin?

C - don't worry, I already kicked him out

B - what? Ahaha... okay.. see you

C - and password is 0404 . In case you arrive earlier

B - okay.. see you

C - I love you bambi

B - love you too DPB

C - huh? What's DPB?

B - secret 🤫

C - meannnnnn!!!

B - hahaha.. see you

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I had lunch with my team and of course, Namjun was there too.
As I told them that I resigned from company and will leave Seoul in one month... they all look sad.

Right now, I'm at cafe together with Namjun...
Well, he knows quite a lot now so, I don't need to tell him much.. I guess so.

But he's been quiet since we started seated in this cafe and keep sipping on his coffee

"Namjun ssi.."

"Is that with your ex-boyfriend? That you are leaving ?"

"Imm... I decided to get back with him."

"Are you confident? That he will not hurt you again?"

"No... I'm scared. But I'm more scared of losing him forever so, I decided to take risk. Couples are two different people and will fight and communicate...  and make up again. That's what 2 people who are in love do. Someone taught me that.

So I'm trying to believe that motto and follow it."

"I see. That's how all those people who are blindly in love do then"

"Namjun ssi.... I'm sorry..."

"I wish you will not be happy.... But at the same time, I wish you are happy too... I'm hurt but I chose to hurt myself from the start knowing you won't choose me, I still decided to stay by your side.

Being with you for those few days made me learn feelings. Sadness, fluttering, happiness, warmth... care.... Loneliness, lust... everything, baekhyun ssi.

I really wished you would choose me but, I guess not.
I would do my best to make you happy....but then...

I guess this is goodbye, isn't it? Baekhyun ssi?"

"Namjun ssi.... You will be a great boyfriend to your partner. You know how to meet the standards and qualities that one good boyfriend should have.

It's not that you are not interested in anyone but, you have just lots of thoughts inside you that's holding you back.

I wish you believe in yourself and meet with new people. Rather it's boy or a girl.

Liking me doesn't make you a complete gay, Namjun ssi. You are not sure about yourself yet so, try meeting girls too.

I believe you will be one good boyfriend to whoever is beside you."

"Saying good things to me doesn't make me hate you less and wish you happiness"

"I didn't mean that way tho" I say... *sigh* he's really... angry at me.
Of course... he would. He really treated me nice.

"I hope you really find happiness" I say

"Thank you, and good bye Baekhyun ssi. I lowkey hope you would regret. So, excuse me" he says and leaves

*sigh* what have I done to a nice kid.... 

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