Chanyeol's POV

"So, why did you call me?" I ask

"Funny how the table turns huh?" Oh Sehun says

"Yeah"

"How's baekhyun?"

"Why ask me when you can just go and see him?"

"Don't you see I'm giving you a chance?"

"He's getting better.... "

"So, are you two now back together?"

"Do you think Baekhyun would be that easy? He still likes you a lot" I say

"But he has you in his heart... all these times" oh Sehun says

"What are you? His therapist?"

"No.... He just shows that he misses you a lot... every time he gets drunk"

"But.... I think he is traumatised because of me"

"Yeah... I just found out on a day when he first met you again"

"So... are you sure you don't like him?"

"Are you kidding me? I like him a lot... more than a sunbae hoobae"

"Then?"

"I told you right? He still likes you"

"So you sacrifice?"

"I'm not. If you ever hurt him again... at that time, I won't let him go and make him mine"

"That time... will never come"

"What a confident brat"

"I'm .... Leaving to Singapore in a month"

"What?"

"And I'm taking him... with me"

"Is that so?"

"But only... he fall for me for real again.... Right now, I'm not confident. Baekhyun likes you a lot...."

" And as I said earlier.... The one in his heart is.... You.... Fuck.. so cringe"

"Perhaps you have some kind of psychological trauma that you can't be in a relationship?"

"Why? You gonna send me to a therapist?"

"As if"

"But when I asked him to follow me.... He said 'no'. That really hurt... because he looked so disgusted by the idea. So Oh Sehun, what if I ask you to take care of him?"

"Are you giving up?"

"As I said, I'm not confident"

"Why not wait for him to make his decision? Let's give him some time.... Because if you let him go now, I won't ever give him back to you"

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With many thoughts, I arrived back at my house.
Like... a lot of thoughts.

I'm starting to believe that love comes in different form.
And I can feel that Oh Sehun here really loves baekhyun in his own way too.

I'm not confident.... Actually.
I feel very .... Still very guilty and wrong.
What if I end up hurting again?
Can I even make it up to him now?

He wants me to stay beside him but... he still doesn't like me.
Was that even sincere?
Why am I so scared and not confident right now?

The way Oh Sehun loves baekhyun is a right way of love?
Letting him go for his happiness.....

What if Oh Sehun was wrong? That baekhyun happiness really is actually Oh Sehun.
Should I let him go then?

Why did I even approach him again without thinking so much deep into it?
I'm very different from Baekhyun's real ideal type.
Baekhyun is into guys who are mature and serious like Ssaem and Oh Sehun.
I now know why baekhyun likes Oh Sehun.

"Ya.. catch" Jongin throws me a can of beer

"What am I? A dog?"

"Why are you so quiet and lost in thoughts?"

"I'm not very noisy and annoying type like you... so, have you met kyungsoo?"

"Yeah... seems like he really hates me. Like we are back to square one. And actually I don't know how to make him loves me. I have never... tried and put effort to make someone love me. So, I'm not confident. I like how things used to be back then between him and I. That's why..... I don't know what to do"

"*sigh* why are we so bad at love?"

"Why are things not working out between you and baekhyun too?"

"I don't know... I really don't know"

"I see... same here"

This is... tiring
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"Sir... it is only 7am" Mr. Han is surprised since I came to work very early.

"Yeah. Couldn't sleep last night. Tell me the schedules"

"Nae .. 9am -2nd meeting with Department heads. 11am- need to meet shareholder Jung. Lunch break with our new appointed temporary MD. After lunch break is shareholder meetings again. And.."

"Okay... Mr.Han. Can I run away for today?"

"Do you want to Sir?"

"Yeah"

"Nae. I will postpone every appointments"

"Good.... I will go rest at hotel near the company. Since my friend is at my house and he's hella annoying"

"Nae.. Should I send you there sir?"

"Okay. Let's go"
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I want to run away.
From everything.
Evens from you, baekhyun ya.
Because, I don't want to hurt you anymore.

Last night, I got a call from my parents since they also found out about me leaving.
They were also shocked and said it's not necessary for me to leave.

Do you understand how I'm feeling right now?
Like, I don't know what to do.
I'm not mature enough to take things this seriously and cautiously.

I'm tired.
That's how I'm feeling.
Very tired.

*Phone Ringing*

Caller ID - Mother

*sigh* again?

C - Mom

Mom - son! Please tell me, is something wrong? Do you have some problem?

C - no mom.. I don't

Mom - then why? Why are you leaving all of sudden? Why my precious son?

C - it is not like I'm going to disappear forever

Mom - son! Where are you? At office?

C - umm... yeah

*sigh* lies after another... I lie down on my hotel bed

Mom - son.. do you want me to come to Seoul?

C - Mom, I will come soon. So don't. And if you have nothing more to say, I will hang up now. I'm busy

Mom - okay okay.... *sigh* just come back home okay?

C - imm.. okay

*End Call*

I should get some sleep ... I haven't able to rest or sleep properly yet....
Or should I take some sleeping pill.... 

I feel like dying from drowsiness.

I wonder if baekhyun will look for me today?
He won't probably right?
I miss him.... I miss him so much.....
I miss baekhyun....

"W....what?" I say to myself as I wipe my tears away... "haha.... Hahahaa... fuck..... I'm so wasted..."

I miss him
But i don't wanna hurt him anymore.

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*knock knock*

My head aches

*bang bang*

Fuck.... Who's that !!!

*knock knock knock*

I will really swear the hell out if they say wrong room.

As soon as I open the door,

"Why are you avoiding me?"

"Baekhyun ya..."

"Why ... how did you know? I mean... yeah ... Mr. Han."

"Aren't you inviting me in? Why are you at hotel? Don't you have home? Why are you avoiding me? Why aren't you answering my calls and texts?"

"Wait...wait baekhyun.....first, yeah you can come in" I say

He gets into my hotel room and looks around

"Im at hotel because that fucker...I mean... Jongin is currently staying at my home. And yes, I have home.

And I'm not avoiding you. I am just busy and tired.
I wasn't answering your texts or calls because as I said, I was taking a break from everything and, I even asked Mr.Han to send me email only. Because I won't be able to be on my phone.

So, I think I did answer all your questions"

He's here again.... Making me more tired and giving me false hopes.

"So why are you here baekhyun ya"

"As I said, you didn't answering my calls and texts"

"We both know it is not the reason"

He can't even answer.
Look how confuses he is.
Let's not push him so hard... and in myself too.

"Okay... don't answer if you don't want to. Have you eaten yet? I can order room service if you want something"

"Chanyeol"

"Hmm?"

"Let's visit my parents house together tomorrow evening"

"O..Kay... but why out of sudden?"

"You are leaving soon right? You haven't met them in a while and I haven't too."

"Imm... okay"

"And I will sleep here today"

"Baekhyun.."

"Why? You are leaving so why don't we spend some time together? You said we were best friends. Shouldn't you spend some time with your best friend before you leave? Just like old days"

What exactly are you playing baekhyun?
For real.

"Sure."

Best friend....
So this is your answer huh....
Now I should be prepared to leave him.

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