'I feel like... if it is you... it will be worth it. And this will be my first time... feeling all those feelings' Namjun

If it's me, it will be worth it huh?
How foolish of you... kid.

It hasn't been too long that we get involve But he already growing feelings?
Am I that attractive? *mentally sigh* i haven't even have sex with him yet... this is scary.

I still don't want to get into a relationship, probably because I have known from the start that I might end up hurting the other person.

My mind has been a chaos.... There's chanyeol in it.... There is sunbae in it too....

Whoever tries to come into my life..... my chaos will hurt them.
Now this kid, what should I do with him?

"Sleeping peacefully huh? Wake up... time to go to work" I wake him up

"Mmmm.... Already ?"

"Yeah.." I say

"Are you going to our company or your client company.... It's your ex's company right?"

"Yeah... I think I will go to his company for about 2 or 3 days a week. It's only for 2 months anyway..."

"I see....... Can I come over tonight too?"

"Sure .. if you want to. I don't want to sleep alone too"

"Okay... thanks god"

"Why?"

"No.... I mean... I'm just shaken a bit"

"Shaken?"

"Imm.... Knowing your ex and .... You know.... I mean.. you have nice and high and mighty men beside you.... I just feel so small"

"That's very cute of you to think that nonsense" I say

"Baekhyun ssi"

"And Namjun ya... why don't you start calling me 'hyung'? I think you are 2 years younger than me"

He went quiet for awhile...
Eh... did I hurt his ego?

"Haha... sorry.. you d...."

"Hyung..."

"Oh oh... so cuteeee hehe"

"What's the probability of you falling in love with me?"

Probability?
I haven't... really think about it seriously ....

"I just like how things are right now.....im sorry..."

"Okay.... Got it...."

Did I hurt his feelings?
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*phone ringing*

Caller ID - Park CY

For god sake... I'm still on taxi and you already calling me? Isn't it invasion of private time?

B - what?

C - shouldn't 'Morning' comes first?

B - as if... what! Why are you calling?

C - right? Miso or Miyeok-guk? <a:n: Miyeok-guk is Korean seaweed soup>

B - huh? What the f.. heck..

C - just choose

B - ah... hmm......miso

C - okay... come safe.. breakfast will be waiting

B - w...

*end call*

Urghhhhhh
I'm really being dragged around by himmmmm

Just... be patient for 2 months... Yess... just 2 or 3 days a week...
Just ... be patient

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Chanyeol's POV

Name is Kim Namjun.
Two years younger than Baekhyun and me. Currently 24 years... freshly graduated from university and not enlisted in military yet.
Ex - none
One night stand - none
Gay ? Not sure.

"What a boring guy" I say

"May I know who is that guy President?" My secretary Mr. Han asks

"Another pest beside baekhyun"

"Ah... I see"

"I ask starting to doubt if it is one of Baekhyun's charms" I say

"What do you mean President?"

"You know... I was also like this kid here... before I started going out with baekhyun... I didn't have crush, ex, or that I emotionally attached to or one night stand...

That goes same for Oh Sehun ... he has also clean record like me but he has grown interests in Baekhyun

And this boy..."

"I see"

"So I doubt if it is Baekhyun's charm to make emotionless people to fall for him....don't you think?"

"From the facts, I agree with you President."

"Mr. Han.... I think I'm having a lot of competitors..."

"Why do you think they are even on a same level as you?"

"You are just thinking so high of me. But this is just all depends on Baekhyun.... Do you think he might still hate me for all the things happened? In the past?"

"Byun Baekhyun ssi is a very difficult person as me, the outsider's perception"

"He indeed is"

*knock*

Mr. Han goes and open the door

"Morning" I say

"Nae..morning" he finally arrives

"Excuse me, President. Have a good day Mr. Byun ssi" Mr. Han says as he left

"Are you this hype every morning?" He asks me as he sits down

"Hype what?"

"Like arriving work very early?"

"Ah .... I just feel like it these days... that's it. Now let's eat. I've been waiting for you with empty stomach"

"You should have just eat tho"

We start having our breakfast..... he has become more relax these days... don't you think?

I don't see him so tense up...when we are alone of course.

I want to keep him beside me just like this.
But I still couldn't... get over with how he cried yesterday.

What has he been stressing out lately?
His works are not that stressful.... It's not like I'm giving him trouble too...

Oh Sehun?
Did something happen between them?
I don't see him calling baekhyun or texting.

"Ya"

"Sorry..did you say something?"

"Let's do meeting early"

"Sure.. I will call the team later"

"Okay"

"And baekhyun"

"What?"

"Are you dating with the boy i saw yesterday?"

"Why are you nosy?"

"Okay.. sorry, I was out of line"

"Well... I'm not really dating but we just casually hangout "

"I see"

"But...."

"But?"

"He asked me what is a probability of him becoming my boyfriend"

So, That kid is smart huh?
Knowing he can't possibly get baekhyun into relationship with him so fast yet...
He is still scared that baekhyun won't ever choose him.
Knowing that he will get hurt but still wanna involve huh?
How dangerous.

Judging from Baekhyun's expressions and actions ... I think the one on his mind now is Oh Sehun.

In this game,

Oh Sehun is now holding the cards of "Yes" or "No"
Rather Oh Sehun has romantic feelings towards Baekhyun or not.... I don't see him a chance of throwing out "Yes"

Because he's smart. He knows a lot about baekhyun. And he sees things through beforehand

Kim Namjun on the other hand is just a Brave Blind soldier...  knowing the truth but wanting to choose the pain. Smart but stupid. He doesn't have a lot of moves in this game

Same goes for Me ... I will just keep treating baekhyun right and making efforts ... like repaying my debts and waiting for the doomsday.

The game where all the players are smart...
The judge, baekhyun, is quite numb and being a lost lamb 
He knows what the answer is but... he keeps running away? Denying? Or.... I don't know.

But in the end......

"Ya!"

Baekhyun snaps me out of my thoughts again.

"No fun in opening up if you are going to keep spacing out"

Opening up about you being confessed to your ex?
Don't you think how I would feel? You cruel bambi

"Well, I don't know Much about that boy so.... Care to tell me more about him?"

Right now... I will just play around quietly.

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