The atmosphere becomes so awkward and silent.
And Baekhyun's face telling me that he didn't understand any of my confession and...

"Chanyeol.... I think, you are mistaken"

"Wha..."

"Things happened and changed a lot to you since this summer... your Hyung, your best friend me, and kyungsoo who confessed to you...

A lot of things happen beside you that, you started to think wrong of yourself ... you are getting carried away by how those gays things.

This is not you chanyeol ya...
I'm your best friend and just because you knew my sexual orientation, you started to think of me in romantic way.

Actually, your feelings towards me are purely friendship. I know you don't swing this way.

I'm sorry... I'm sorry to make you feel wrongly.... I'm sorry for being a gay friend and make you deluded.

I'm sorry chanyeol ya..."

He thinks... I'm being... delusional?
Just because I'm being influenced by my Hyung and my best friend being gay?

"You talk so ..... lightly for someone else feelings... Byun baekhyun"

"Chanyeol ya.."

"You know how much of my courage that I have to gather to confess?"

"You don't ... like me that way... I know you like me a lot as a friend and that's pure friendship... you are not gay!"

"I am not gay! But I like you...."

"Chanyeol......."

"Then..." i say and stand up... since we are sitting face to face in this Ferris wheel capsule, I walk towards him and ... lean in and ....

"This will prove to myself..." I say as kiss him...

Just a quick peck since... I don't dare too... I'm afraid he might hates me... that I stole his... first kiss..

And this is my.... First too.

"I like You... and I don't think I can be your friend any more" I say after parting our lips

And thanks god.... We finally can get off from the Ferris wheel

I quickly get out of the capsule and walk away fast

"Chanyeol!!!"

Don't look back chanyeol....
He doesn't  feel you that way...

"Chanyeol!!!!!"

I'm stupid... he likes Ssaem...
I'm just...

"Ya!!!" He grabs my hand and stops me "we are not done talking"

"I have said everything..."

"What do you mean we can't be friends anymore?"

"I feel you that way... I like you... whenever I am with you, I keep wanting to hold you, hug you, caress you, kis..... but you don't feel me that way... I will always be feeling guilty whenever I'm with you.

That's why I wanna stop... being friend with you"

"Chanyeol...."

"Next time you come and see me.. I will think that you like me.... So come only if you feel the same way as mine"

After that...
I just left him there...
I want to.. send him back home..

Urgh....I feel so wrong....
This is bad... park chanyeol....
He has always felt you as a friend...

He likes... Ssaem...
He loves Ssaem..

I get into cab right away... I don't want to face him ever again.

*ph ring*

Caller ID - My Hyung

Hyung - heyyy ... are you home? Hyung will be back tonight so come back if you are at Baekhyun's place

C - Hyung....

Hyung - yes chanyeol? What happened? Are you okay?

C - no.... I'm not..

Hyung - what happened chanyeol?

C - Hyung... can I take this year a break from school?

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Baekhyun's POV

Things.... Happened..
A lot happened..

I was kissed by my friend
And I'm dying here because of Guilt

I have never felt guilty of my sexuality before.
Right now.
What have I done to him?

Park chanyeol...

If only I didn't tell him of my sexual orientation..
no..
If only I have never opened up to him.

He would never .... Mistaken and delusional like this.

Now I'm going to lose one friend now huh...

*ph ring*

Caller ID - Ssaem

B - Ssaem...

S - hey...what are you doing this weekend?

B - ah... I.... I went out today.

S - really? Where did you go?

B - amusement park

S -  hmmm...perhaps with Park chanyeol?

B - ....... Nae

S - so my baekhyun had a lot of fun without me today huh. Ssaem is being lonely somehow

B -  Ssaem....

S -  hmm?

B - if I ask a question that is overboard... do you wanna answer?

S - I will answer baekhyun ya

B - ................. did something happen between you and your girlfriend? You look so lonely these days.

S - my baekhyun is smart huh... yes baekhyun ya... we are on a break. Being in a relationship for too long just end up getting tired of each other ... especially when one person is too busy

B - I see

S - but I don't hung out with you because I'm lonely... I really love to hang out with you baekhyun ya..

<*Baekhyun Blushes*>

B - Ssaem...

S - yes baekhyun?

B - can I.. come over for lunch tomorrow?

S - always welcome

I... don't want Ssaem to feel lonely.
I don't know how love in adult life feels like.
Ssaem always mentions love and relationship at young ages are lively.

And I'm more than satisfied of what I'm having right now.
Ssaem and I have become a lot closer this year as much as I recall.

He is really gentle towards me.. kind... caring.. like a big brother.

But I don't think he has feelings for me.

How can a man with a girlfriend probably have feelings for a boy?
Ssaem is not that kind of person.
And I'm trying not to be greedy too....

*remembers about chanyeol kisses him*

"He must be crazy" I say to myself

How to face him at school starting from this week?
He told me not to come and find him unless I feel the same as him....
That's impossible... we will never be able to talk again park chanyeol

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Monday again,

This weekend was a chaos but, yesterday, I went to Ssaem's home and have lunch.

I had a great time...

Wait.... He doesn't come to school today?
Park chanyeol.....

May be he's too awkward to face me huh.....
I do the same too... *mentally sigh*

Monday first period is always Ssaem's maths period

It is so great to see him on boring Monday.

...

"So I will end the class here, hope you have a nice week" Ssaem says "and Baekhyun ya, come and see me at Teachers' office now" he says

Teachers' office?

Does he want to ask me to do something?

I follow him right  after the class.

"Is there something up Ssaem?" I ask him as we arrive at the Teachers' office.

"That's ....." he sighs "this morning, I received one letter of dropping out of school this year...and it is from chanyeol...."

What...... does this ...mean?

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