Chanyeol's POV

"Chanyeol ya?"

Kyungsoo snaps me out of my thoughts... we are walking back home after our last day of exam.

"Aw... Wha?"

"Was studying together with me good chanyeol ya...? and .. was my explanation clear enough for you? I'm sorry... I'm not very... smart..."

I keep... thinking about him....

He really left that day ... just like that...
And didn't contact me ...

Actually... yesterday, I went to his house ... but saw him getting onto Ssaem's car.

Seems like that evil man is playing him well..
he's going to cry like a crazy one day.
Wait....

He cried... only because of me so far...
I made him cried... twice already.

"You..."

"Yes?" Kyungsoo asks

"You used to like me ... right? What's .... I mean... how do you usually feel... when you like someone?"

He stares at me for a few seconds...
Why? Was my question too weird? Out of nowhere?

"You feel everything... happiness, sadness, loneliness, comfort-ness, jealousy, anger, worrisome ..... every of those feelings just concern with that only person.

Only that person can manipulate your feelings in so many ways...

That's when... you like someone..."

"Ah........... is it?"

"Chanyeol?"

"Wha.."

"Do you perhaps.... Like someone?"

That question left me hanging for a few seconds... may be I went quiet for a minute...

I like someone?

And that.... Someone is...

Impossible...
No....
Wait.....

Happiness, sadness, loneliness, anger..... jealousy?

It was jealousy?

The day when baekhyun first went out to meet Ssaem.... The day I was so bored at home waiting for him .....

When he finally came back, I was so angry and... I spoke perversely telling that kyungsoo will come and study from now on... and without him...

It was.... Jealousy?

"I know I'm not in a place to say but....." kyungsoo says as he stops walking .

I turn back and face him.. "what?"

"Do you..... like ... Baekhyun?"

I .... I don't know.....
I don't know what to say anymore... but standing still....

'Only that person can manipulate your feelings in so many ways...'

What happened to me?
When did it go wrong??
When was it?

The day baekhyun confessed that he's gay?

The day... he said he likes Ssaem?

When?

The day I hugged him?

The day I noticed his pretty face features ??

When was it?

No.

It can't be.

I'm not.... I don't...

He's my best friend.. one and only friend.

It is friendship..

"No... I don't"

I'm surprised by myself that... I didn't get angry and furious at kyungsoo's question....

The old me would say... it is disgusting.

"You.. go home alone... I have to... gotta go somewhere.." I say and start running

I didn't know where I was running....

But I want to confirm it...

I want to deny that is 'like' ... I want to go and confirm with baekhyun...

On the way, it starts raining and I'm all soaked in rain.

Standing in front of his house... not having a courage to go up and Face him

I just want to confirm that it is not "Like"

I must be confused Since my best friend, my Hyung is gay and I was even being confessed by a gay guy.

And I don't know if it is unluckily or luckily....

Baekhyun comes down....

I..... my heart is.. beating so hard that it is going to explode..
What should I say?
How would I confirm this when My heart is beating like a maiden right now?!

I must be crazy.

"C...chanyeol?" He says

'Only that person can manipulate your feelings in so many ways...'

"Are you crazy?" He asks

I walk towards him .... Slowly....

I finally stand so close to me.... Like so close.... Under his umbrella... his umbrella gets tilted slight since I'm tall...

Baekhyun is....... So close to me....

"Are you... really okay... without me?" I ask

"Is that why you are standing in the rain? Aren't you a bit too childish? When you are the one who forced me to leave?"

"But you are also happy with him! Aren't you?!!" I raise my voice

"What? You are my friend and can't you be happier for me?"

"Friend.... "

Okay chanyeol... you heard him loud and clear... right?
Now things are confirmed ... right? Park chanyeol!

I should leave now... I don't feel good....
No... I hated it.... Friend... huh?

"I will go now" I say

"What? In this rain?? Are you crazy?"

" let me go!" I say and shake his hand off

He grabs my hand again and "if you leave now.. don't ever come back here like this wet rat"

He pulls me by my hand and... it is embarrassing how this big body just following the light pull..

I... must be crazy...

We get into his house ... it was quiet when I enter his house..
are his parents not home yet?

"Excuse me" I say as I go in

"My parents are on a trip" he says

How come he's alone?
Why did he stay behind?
So that he could meet with Ssaem?

"Go and wash up.. I think I still have some of your clothes in wardrobe" he says "I will make some warm coffee for you"

Aish.. I don't know anymore

I walk straight to him.... He looks scared as he steps back and I pin him against the wall...

As our bodies are so close.... He won't hear my heartbeats right?
They are crazy ,man! They are loud

"What's wrong, park chanyeol?"

"I......I must be going crazy" I say

And I slowly lean towards his face...
Don't ask me!!
I don't know what I'm doing!!

And... ... no... it is still early for that... I'm not even sure..... or.....

I lean in to his neck and... kiss it...

Just a peck...

He looks.... Sooooooooooo shockedddddd

What have I done??????????
I must gross him outttttt

"I....I will go change" I say and quickly run into bathroom

Fuckkkkkkkkkkkk
Park chanyeol....
Did you... just kissed his neck????
You kissed???
Baekhyun????????

Tell me this is not real....

Tell me....... I'm just dreaminggggg

I..... I like baekhyun?

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Hello all!
Here's an update for today.
And finallyyyyy
This cute and dumb big guy just found out his feelings.

Hope you enjoy it.