Baekhyun's POV

"Chanyeol ya... I'm bac...."

I froze at my place as soon as I get into his house....

Kyungsoo?

Why's chanyeol hugging him?

"Ah... baekhyun ya.." kyungsoo awkwardly steps away from chanyeol

"Aww.... Kyungsoo ya.. what's brings you here?"

"Me and chanyeol met at convenience store and .."

"I brought him over to talk" chanyeol says "go back.. before it gets too late"

"Imm...see you... baekhyun ya..see you" kyungsoo says as he leaves

Chanyeol brought kyungsoo to his house?
Chanyeol did??
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After kyungsoo leaves....

"Have you eaten?" I ask

"No"

"Should I warm up food for you?"

"I will if I want to.. you don't need to do"

"Okay.."

What's with this attitude???

'If he's not having a crush on me, he would be a great friend for me' - Chanyeol said in episode 18

What happened between those two?

"How unusual... you brought someone else to your home"

"It will be usual soon..."

"What do you mean?"

"Kyungsoo is going to come here for study"

"What?"

He just shrugs at me....

"Chanyeol are you mad at me?"

"Do you think I'm that free?"

Never mind... I don't wanna talk to him anymore

"Okay"

So... he really... is going to have kyungsoo as his friend now?

"Aren't you going back?" He asks me

"Back where?"

"Your house"

"Chanyeol... are you kicking me out because you have kyungsoo now?"

"Yes"

"Sure... I will leave tomorrow morning"

"Okay.. thanks"

My angers get to the highest level that I lost my coolness and.. grab the cup of water that I see on the table and splash at his face

"Ya!"

"I fucking hate you" I say and walk out of his house..

This is the second time I cry because of him...

I don't know but I just walked back home with those tears in my eyes

I don't even care about my parents and ... just get into my room and cry out loud

I hate you park chanyeol...
I don't even do anything to you and always good to you...
You are just so mean to me...
I don't deserve it..
I hate him so much

*message*

'I'm sorry that I showed you this side of me. I want to meet you again baekhyun ya... let me pick you up tomorrow' - Ssaem

I wonder if he is using me.... Because he seems to be fighting with his girlfriend..

But... being beside Ssaem is really nice...
I wonder if my shirt still smell like him...

Yeah... park chanyeol.. don't you ever dare to come back to me and act like nothing happen..

I will really abandon you now.

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One week of study week had passed..
Exam week has started ...

I met with Ssaem 3 times during the study week.
He came and picked me up at my house and he took me to his house.. I just sat there and studied mostly... he would cook for me and buy me snacks and explain and teach me the stuffs that I don't really get ..

Those three days were like dream... and Ssaem.... Wasn't much more like a different person.

I hope he knows that he's giving me false hopes...
I'm just getting greedier...
I just want him all by myself.

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As I sit down ready in the exam room ...
I see kyungsoo and chanyeol come into the room

They come together?

Kyungsoo can make... chanyeol answer the test?
He can convince him?
And... they studied together?

Don't think about it... baekhyun ya...
Just ignore him..
Let's focus on exam.

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Everyone can go back after exam time ..
but I decide to study at library .

I hate to go back home and being asked by my parents 'where is chanyeol?'

As if he's their son.

Since that day... I always have this weird anger in my chest....

He asked me to leave because kyungsoo will be coming to his house often from now....
Kyungsoo will be his better friend .... Huh....

Better friend....

"Baekhyun ya.."

"Aw kyungsoo ya"

"How was the exam Baekhyun ya?"

"It was okay... are you going back home now?"

"Ah... that's... I'm waiting for chanyeol since he went to toilet.. baekhyun ya.. why don't you come and study with us.. at chanyeol's house"

"Aw... is that so...."

"What are you doing?" Chanyeol's voices appear...

"I was asking if baek..." kyungsoo is saying but

"Let's go" chanyeol says to kyungsoo as he walks past me...

"S...see you..baekhyun ya.."

"Aww... okay..."

What's this stupid feeling?
It is tingling in my chest.....
I want to cry... what's happening to me?!
This is so suffocating 

"Baekhyun ya.."

"Ssaem!"

He gives me a very... handsome and bright smile that almost melts every of my stress

"How was the exam?"

"It was okay."

"Hmm.. or rather .. it was too easy for baekhyun?"

"No way... haha..."

"So.. are you going back home?"

"No.. I'm going to study in library"

"So how about we have light dinner after you finish studying?"

"Nae Ssaem"

"See you"

"Nae see you"

Yes... the best thing is happening to me right now...
Ssaem and me... we are getting closer day by day...
Even tho there's a exact line that I can't cross over.
Teacher and student
Minor and adult with a girlfriend

I would be lying if I say I'm satisfied with all these situation now...
But I have to.
I can't get greedier.
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A whole week of exam is over now... it was just a mock tests so... pretty easy and good for practise.

My parents went on a trip since yesterday.. they said they will be away for almost a week.. and you know what?
They didn't left me anything to eat!!!

Urghhhhh

I'm so Hungry now...

And it is kinda starting to rain out there... uwhhhhhh

"I wanna eat tteokppukki ... I should go and buy it quickly  huh..." I say to myself and quickly grab my wallet and umbrella

As I get under my apartment... I open my umbrella and....

"C...chanyeol?"

What.... Is he doing here?
Why is he standing under the rain?
He's all.... Drained in rain..

"Are you crazy?" I ask

He walks towards me .... Slowly....

What's with that expression?
As if I am the one who told him to leave....
Why is he making that face?

He finally stands so close to me.... Like so close.... Under my umbrella... my umbrella gets tilted slight since he's so tall...

He's.... So close to me....

"Are you... really okay... without me?"

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Hello guys!
Here's an update for today.
The feelings are all starting!!!
It will be more chaotic from now on so please look forward to it!!
Love you all🥺💛