"Hmm... that's tough.....haha... if a boy is pretty like baekhyun then there won't be no problem right?" Ssaem answers....

I know things are not easy.... As he said... in reality....

But his words really made my heart skips... and .... I'm feeling those tingling feelings inside... and
I wanna cry and laugh at the same time...

I wanna give a big smile and says ... I like you...

This is bad..... this is very bad.....
I'm so drowned in .... False hope?

Or may be he was just saying... lightly and
May be I'm the one who's taking things seriously...

It is really..... hard to breathe.
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After lunch, Ssaem insisted to send us back but, we said we will just go back in our own.

Just like that... after he left....

"What do you think you are doing?" I say

"That's my question" chanyeol says

"Kyungsoo wants to get close to you and all I do is help and why .... Why do you say those words to Ssaem?"

"What did I say?? What did I say Byun baekhyun?? Did I say baekhyun likes you Ssaem???"

"But those words!!!!"

"You really want me to get close with kyungsoo? You really want me to hang out with him??!!! Huh!! He's that an important friend to you than me??? Huh!"

"I told you... I just helped him... but what you talked to Ssaem... was too much..... do you pity me? Park chanyeol?"

"What?"

"Do you pity and look down on my gay love?" I ask and... I couldn't help but... tear up...

I don't know... my chest feels heavy.....
Ssaem has a girlfriend who he might end up marrying to....
They have been dating for so long...
Even tho, his thoughts on same sex love is .. okay...

It's not like he will accept me...

"Baekhyun...."

"Let's... not talk for awhile" I say and walk away...

I hate park chanyeol...
I really do....
His every question was.... Too much....

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Chanyeol's POV

>Back in Amusement Park<

Where is baekhyun and..... he's here???

"Ah.... Chanyeol ya... Baekhyun said he won't be... able to come today ..... so, can we two just enjoy?"

What the fuck is he doing here?
And Byun Baekhyun... ditched me??

Why am I so... pissed...?
I think I'm going to punch this Do Kyungsoo guy.

What's he playing at?

"No"

"Nae?"

"I don't want to enjoy with you"

"I... I am sorry"

"I don't want to get close with you. In case that's what baekhyun and you were planning. I am not social-able person so, give up"

I say and left him there and call baekhyun.

>end of Amusement Park incident<

As I arrive back at my house,

"Let's not talk for awhile .... Huh" I say to myself as lying down on my bed

Just what does he want really?
Why is he so into making me have more friends?

I just don't understand him...

"I just don't understand you, Byun baekhyun... ughhhhhh"

He would go red from 0% to 100% around Saaem.. smiling and giggling ...

With me.. it's either a straight face, studying always...  giving me no damn attention,  getting all angry always... always in pissed mode.. moody..

'Do you pity and look down on my gay love?' - Baekhyun

I am not! You are too stupid....

But... why would Ssaem answers those kind of cringing answers?

"If a boy is pretty like baekhyun... huh.... I'm sure he has pretty face... long eyelashes.... Pouty lips.... Soft cheeks? Long and pretty fingers.... Wait wait wait... haha... what??"

I sit up... "waitttt.....what???!!!! The fuck!!"
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I couldn't... sleep a bit last two nights...
I was so scared of my own words and... ehhhhhhhh

And today.. of course I had to come to school alone...

He doesn't text me and I don't too of course

And at school ...

He doesn't talk to me.. or even take a glance at me.

Since his seat is in front of me...
I can watch all of his movements... just how he stares at Ssaem... how he holds his pen.
How concentrates he's in almost every subject.

He has a messed up hobby huh... studying...

What a boring boy.

What... what!????????

What am I thinking again?????

Park chanyeol.... Get a grip....
Just forget Byun baekhyun.. I can make another friend.

Yeah... Do Kyungsoo... he wants to be a friend of mine.. huh?

*Lunch Break Bell ringing*

I quickly stand up and... "ya... let's go for lunch"

"Me?" Kyungsoo says

"Yes you"

"Ah.. coming"

We just left baekhyun there and... go to canteen... I just drink coffee and wait kyungsoo finishes this lunch...

I see baekhyun coming to canteen with other friends.

When will he ever be alone??
He's always surrounded by people.
I hate that.

"Ya.. eat quickly" I say to kyungsoo

"Aw.. Imm"

A pain in ass.
Baekhyun is a nerd too but.. this Do Kyungsoo... looks more nerdy..
I don't know why but...this guy is really strange..

He finishes eating and we walk back to our classroom

"C..chanyeol...ya" kyungsoo calls me from behind as he is walking behind me on our way to classroom

"What?"

"Did you fight with... baekhyun because of me?"

"It is non of your business"

"He.... He was just trying to help me.... Since...since I have a crush on you... he was just.."

"What?!"

"I..."

"What did you just say?"

"I have ... a crush on ... you"

What ...... the fuck.... Is that shit?

Disgusting....

"You mean..... baekhyun knew?" I ask

"Yes... that's why he was trying to help me out... I'm so sorry.. and don't get mad at him..."

"Byun Baekhyun knew?"

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Hello guys!
Here's an update for today.
I know this story is going very slowwww but please bear with me.
I'm planning to write this like... details?
So I hope you all enjoy this! 🥺💛 love you all!!