Today was the last day of shooting the movie in the camping site. I wasn't in the mood for anything at all. I ignored Adrien, I didn't even talk to Chloe while she was rambling about how weird I look while doing my make up, and, I didn't even bother talking to Nathaniel. I can't face them now, especially since I'm still trying to figure out what to do.

Everybody seemed to notice that something was off, but they knew better than to stick their noses into my business. Nathaniel always approached me every break time, asking what's wrong, and I'd just immediately turn around and leave. Who knows? If I replied, I probably would've already broke down and cried.

Adrien, despite the fact that I clearly told him that nothing was going to change my feelings for him, still continued to try. He'd give me water with a smiley face written on a sticky note, tell me that I was doing a great job even though I obviously wasn't, and glared at the staff who criticized my amateur acting. He wasn't talking to Nathaniel, either.

Once, while we were on a break, Nathaniel was sitting across Adrien and reviewing the script for the next scene, and the blonde banana just gave him a death stare. When Nathaniel finally noticed, he asked Adrien if there was something wrong, and he replied with:

"Yeah. You."

There was a really awkward pause after that, then Nathaniel just cleared his throat and resumed to reviewing the script.

I knew that Adrien's only acting like this because he didn't like the fact that I hurt his big ego, or because he's just really, really dumb. Thinking about it, both seemed to be good enough reasons.

Time passed by quickly. First we were looking for perfect locations for certain scenes, then in a blink of an eye, we were finally done. The clean-up crew immediately rushed in to clean the place, taking the cameras and microphones, putting away the decorations on buildings that we only added for an extra feel, etc., etc.

Usually, I'd help them, but now, I just wanted to go home. I wanted to get this movie over with and fly all the way back to Paris and just live my peaceful life working at my parents' bakery. Before, this career as an actress would have sent me to the moon. But now, I just desperately wanted to go back to being carefree and genuinely happy.

I didn't like all the drama. I didn't like all these batches of problems suddenly throwing themselves at me and piling up on my shoulders. I didn't like the fact that Adrien Agreste was here. I didn't like the fact that Nathaniel was still in love with Chloe. I didn't like the fact that I was really basically just a throw away toy. I didn't like the fact that all these problems came to one conclusion: that I'm not worth anything.

A tear escaped my eye. I quickly wiped it away and took a deep breath, then opened the door to my trailer, revealing a frustrated Chloe leaning onto the make-up table. She had her arms crossed, her pink, glossy lips pouted, and her icy blue eyes narrowed, piercing through my soul.

I can't talk to her now.

I looked down and closed the door, then silently walked towards my bed and started packing my things. We'd be leaving the place tomorrow.

"Talk."

I plopped my pink backpack on top of my bed. I didn't bother replying.

"Marinette. Please."

I ignored her again. I opened the zipper of the bag rather aggressively. Okay, maybe I was too aggressive. The zipper broke.

That's okay, Marinette. You can repair this in no time. This isn't a problem. Not at all.

Not at all.

"Hey—"

"—stop it!" I snapped, pushing away Chloe's hand that she placed on my shoulder. I turned to see her shocked as she took a few steps backward. "Please stop it."

"Hey, I just wanna know what's wrong—"

"Everything!" I exclaimed, feeling my heart squeeze. I couldn't take it anymore. Tears flooded my eyes before I could even speak. I didn't know what to say first, or how to express what I feel. My mind and heart was a major catastrophe, and I couldn't think straight. It's even beginning to get harder to breathe.

"Everything, Chloe! Everything is so fucking wrong! Everything is so messed up, and I don't know what to do!" I screamed, tears uncontrollably streaming down my face as I began to tremble. "What am I to all of you? A toy? Someone to mess with? Am I not worth loving? Am I not worth any commitment at all? Am I just supposed to be—be someone who gets played around with? Am I just supposed to be some sort of punching bag or—or a s—s—stress reliever? A fucking rebound?! Am I . . ."

I fell to the ground, grabbing my chest, sobbing.

Adrien convinced me that he loved me. He wanted to fight for us. He was willing to go against his father just for us to be happy. But after two years, he mysteriously disappears. No contact. No communication. Then he appears into thin air, scoffs at my face, calling me pathetic, then leaving me in a dark alley, lost, broken, and almost gone. He threw me away like I was just trash. Like he finished playing with me as his favorite doll then moved on to another.

Then when I thought I finally had someone who was really fully committed to our relationship, poof. Gone. In a flick of a finger. It was all another silly little dream I made up with myself that I believed in.

Once again, I was fooled. I was thrown away like trash.

My lips trembled. My whole body shook. My vision was a blur.

"Am I not worth anything at all?"

"Mari . . ."

"I heard you, Chloe," I whispered, my voice shaking. There wasn't any hatred or accusation in those words. But there was pain. There was disbelief. "You and Nathaniel. I—I heard you. I k—know."

She didn't speak. I couldn't bring myself to calm down or to stop the tears or to try and distract myself from the pain.

"Marinette . . ."

"Marinette!" the trailer door slammed open, revealing Nathaniel, his electric blue eyes wide and frantic. "What's happening? We heard screaming, so I came up to check on you. Why the hell are you on the floor? Why are you crying? Chloe, what did you do?"

No, no, no. Not you. Please, God. Not Nathaniel. Not now. Please. Please. This is too much. Please. I can't take this anymore.

"I didn't do anything," Chloe replied, her voice unusually weak and fragile. "She . . . I . . . You. You talk to her."

"What?"

Chloe knelt down to me, grabbed my hand and helped me stand up. She held my chin and made me look into her eyes, despite the fact that I really couldn't see her properly. I didn't want to look at her; the girl who my boyfriend can't seem to get over. But she looked determined.

"As much as I want to help you fix this, I know that I won't be much help. I might even make this worse. But one thing's for sure, Marinette," she whispered, her icy blue eyes soft and sincere. "You're a strong one. I may be a bitch, but I don't take what's already taken."

Then she turns around and leaves the trailer, completely ignoring a confused Nathaniel. My whole body shook, that it took most of my strength to remain standing there.

"Marinette," Nathaniel called, his voice soft, as if he was talking to someone so fragile. "what happened?"

"I heard you," I replied almost instantly. If I was going to tell him, I better tell him now. I'm just praying that the outcome of this wouldn't be just another bigger brick slamming down on my heart. "You and Chloe. You still love her."

He froze.

"You—were you the one behind the tree?"

I nodded. I could feel his hesitation even though I wasn't even looking at him. I didn't know what he'd say, but I knew that whatever he'd say wouldn't be enough to even tame this war inside me.

But there was no turning back. He was here, and he finally realized that I found out, and we both know that I deserved an explanation, no matter how fucked up it would be. I was mad. Betrayed. I was supposed to hate him, yes, but I didn't want to. I couldn't. I was already hating on someone, and I never knew that hatred could hurt so much.

So I turned around and gathered all my courage to look at him.

Please, I cried in my thoughts, please be a misunderstanding.

Please.

a/n:

i am so sorry for this cliffhanger pls forgive me huhu

it's just cause i really want to emphasize on the emotions and the mood on the next chapter, so pls prepare ur tissues and ur little hearts thank u

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