i guess i don't have the right platform to spit the words out
because they're stuck in my head instead of coming from my mouth
i just wish the world could see the way that i do
to look past and see the identicality of me and you

how we all shine bright as kaleidoscopic stars
all the light hiding a beating broken heart
somehow, we all feel the same useless emotions
we all forget to live and just go through the motions

but my words go unnoticed amidst the other loud screams
my hopes are faded against other bigger dreams
i'm invisible compared to personalities bigger than me
but i'll still shout the words out, letting them set me free

i care so much and deeply, it feels like a disease
but i hide it all up, blow it away in the breeze
so no one even knows how much i feel
i put it behind a smile they think is real

i watch people decide i'm not worth their time
so i act like i'm fine and turn on the dime
but inside i'm screaming, crying out "why?"
after all this disappointment, why even try?

i guess i was destined to be like this since birth
to be the one who always gets hurt
it's a terrible way to live, but i never got a choice
never was asked how i want to use my voice

maybe there's an afterlife for people like me
a place where we can be together and finally be set free
instead of being mistreated and used
but i've been told to suck it up and take the abuse

can it be called abuse when it's really neglect?
when they never give a damn about the words that i've said?
i don't care what it's called; i just want out
but i forgot my words go unnoticed even when i shout

for the past three years, my mind's been a record that's broken
repeating the same words that i think are tokens
that will win me sympathy
i need to let my feelings be

feel me backtrack vividly
crash on the couch, tryna get some sleep
with my colorful mouth
forget what the words are about

carve my heart out to stop the flow
of blood or feelings, i still don't know
i'm not even close to suicidal
all i want is the love that's vital

but all i get is betrayal and leavin'
left to pick up the pieces
just a girl with a vision
with a unthought out mission

but a mission's hard to complete
without a team and an actual feat
so i'll slowly waste away
and painstakingly await the day

where maybe someone will want change to be made
to the way people see me as someone to degrade
as my kaleidoscopic star begins to fade
and the platform i never had goes away

and i'm left with my mission
and my faded vision
and my record that's broken
and my half-hoping

standing on a platform that had never been built
standing above everyone else on unsteady stilts
they kick them down and watch me fall
when i scream, they act as if they never saw me at all